{"id":9396,"date":"2014-03-31T02:57:31","date_gmt":"2014-03-30T23:57:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=9396"},"modified":"2019-07-10T18:10:12","modified_gmt":"2019-07-10T16:10:12","slug":"yalanci-emzik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/yalanci-emzik\/","title":{"rendered":"Yalanc\u0131 Emzik"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Neriman ERALP<\/b><\/p>\n<p><b>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/b><b>\u00a0Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck Masalc\u0131lar\u0131 \u015eeytan\u0131n Do\u011fum G\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc Kutlad\u0131<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Bizim orda kaba a\u011fa\u00e7 orman\u0131 yoktur. En serti k\u0131z\u0131lc\u0131k bile olsa, g\u00fcrgen, me\u015fe, kay\u0131n, karaa\u011fa\u00e7lar her i\u015fe yarar. Hepsinden balta sap\u0131 da olur, kazma sap\u0131 da. \u0130nsan\u0131m\u0131z da \u00f6yledir. Sert ve kendinden emindir. Yalan nedir bilmez.<\/p>\n<p>Bizim oralarda bamba\u015fka bir \u015feyin de, di\u011fer yerlerde olmayan, bir \u00f6zelli\u011fi vard\u0131r. <b>Yalan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yoktur. Kantara koysan bir dirhem etmez.<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u00d6yle ama ben, o zaman annemim kuca\u011f\u0131nda oldu\u011fumdan baz\u0131 \u015feylerin fark\u0131na varamam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Dilim de hen\u00fcz \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmemi\u015fti. Ama annem beni 1990\u2019larda yap\u0131lan b\u00fct\u00fcn Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck mitinglerine g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. O meydanlarda, beni sallay\u0131p oyalay\u0131p avutmas\u0131 da gerekmedi. G\u00fcne\u015f ba\u015f\u0131ma ge\u00e7mesin diye, g\u00f6lge aramad\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6mr\u00fcnde ilk defa k\u00fcrs\u00fcye \u00e7\u0131kanlar\u0131 en dikkatli dinleyen bendim. Onlar konu\u015ftu ben dinledim\u2026 Konu\u015fanlar\u0131n hepsi hamald\u0131, anlatt\u0131klar\u0131 ise hayaldi. Hayalleri dinlemek ne kadar tatl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1521272844\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Tay durup emeklemekten kurtuldu\u011fumda \u201c<b>oy benim kendi aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerinde duran evlad\u0131m<\/b>,\u201d derken, y\u00fcrekten gelen s\u0131cac\u0131k sesi hep kula\u011f\u0131mdad\u0131r. Benimki de t\u00fcm \u00f6teki analar gibi, olan\u0131 de\u011fil, olmas\u0131n\u0131 istedi\u011fini s\u00f6ylerdi. Benim ayaklar\u0131 \u00fczerinde duran, ba\u015f\u0131na buyruk, hak ve adaletten yana \u00f6zg\u00fcr biri olmam\u0131 istemesi do\u011fald\u0131. <b>Bana, korkma, d\u00fcr\u00fcst kal! Hi\u00e7 kimseye kulluk etmezsen, hi\u00e7 kimsenin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm olmasan, zaten hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fcklerinle cennette ya\u015fars\u0131n<\/b>, dedi.<\/p>\n<p>Bunlar\u0131n ana kalbinde gizli nedenleri olmal\u0131. Peydahlanmam babam\u0131 al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrmelerinden bir gece \u00f6nce olmu\u015f. Bunu da anamdan biliyorum. \u201c<b>Olmaz olsayd\u0131, 9 ay az m\u0131 \u00e7ektim tek ba\u015f\u0131ma<\/b>\u201d derken, beni kastediyordu, sonra bana sar\u0131l\u0131yor, sanki iyi oldu da oldun, olmasayd\u0131n ne yapard\u0131m, der gibi, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 avucuna al\u0131p beni \u00f6p\u00fcyordu. O s\u00f6yleyemedi\u011fini say\u0131klayanlardand\u0131. Biz hepimiz say\u0131klayan analar\u0131n evlatlar\u0131y\u0131z.<\/p>\n<p><b>Babam hapisteyken ben annemin karn\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f\u0131m<\/b>. Bana \u00f6yle geliyor ki, ilk \u00fcniversitem olan, hayat okulumu hi\u00e7 okula gitmeden dokuz ayda, anam\u0131n karn\u0131nda bitirdim. Hayat bilgeli\u011fimin en derin \u00e7izgisini halk bilgeli\u011fi ortam\u0131nda \u00e7izdim. Anam yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi. Onun durumunda bir\u00e7ok ba\u015fka gelin vard\u0131. Onlar devaml\u0131 ba\u015f ba\u015fa verip bir \u015feyler f\u0131s\u0131ldan\u0131yordu. Bu bilgi al\u0131\u015f veri\u015fi beni de etkiledi. Ben d\u00fcnyaya sonsuz bir bekleyi\u015f, sevgi, derin bir \u00f6zlem iziyle geldim. O zaman babam\u0131n babam oldu\u011funu bilmesem de, birilerinin gelece\u011fini, onunla birlikte ba\u015fka ve \u00e7ok daha b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015feylerin gelece\u011fini, gelecek olan\u0131n kutsal oldu\u011funu, hatta hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirece\u011fini duyumlu yordum. \u0130\u00e7imdeki \u00f6zleme, bekleme, inanma, sevme ve itaat etme \u00e7izgileri b\u00f6yle olu\u015ftu.<\/p>\n<p>Yaln\u0131z de\u011fildim. \u00d6teki hapis\u00e7i \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 da baba kokusunun ne oldu\u011funu bilmediklerinden analar\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131. Onlar\u0131n da iyi ile k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fc, sevmekle d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ay\u0131rt etmeleri tek yanl\u0131yd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u201c<b>ha bir \u015fey olur da<\/b>\u201d cezas\u0131 katlan\u0131r korkusu objektif olmam\u0131z\u0131 engelledi. Biz, hayat\u0131 normal insanlardan biraz farkl\u0131, bir nebzecik de olsa hep tek yanl\u0131 alg\u0131larken, \u00e7arp\u0131k bir d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kabul etmedik. Adaleti sorgulama babalar\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yitirmesiyle konu\u015fur ve eve d\u00f6nd\u00fckleri g\u00fcn susar. Dokularda ya\u015fayan o b\u00fcy\u00fck ve kutsal olan var ya, o hi\u00e7 birimizi bir an olsun rahat b\u0131rakmayan, endi\u015fe uyand\u0131rand\u0131r. Beklenenin babayla gelece\u011fine inan\u00e7 sonsuzdur. \u0130\u00e7erdeki babalar hakl\u0131d\u0131r, umut onlardad\u0131r. Babam hapisken, ben anam\u0131n karn\u0131nda da olsam, bu hislerle ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bu duyumlarla do\u011fdu\u011fumu biliyorum. Anam\u0131n karn\u0131nda hissetmeden ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m korkuyla, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki korku birdi ama d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki korku kurban al\u0131yor, beni ise anam koruyordu. Biz korku d\u00fcnyas\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 olarak do\u011fduk ve ya\u015fad\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Olur ya, ruh korkuya yenik d\u00fc\u015ferse, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lardan kurtulabilmenin tek yolu ba\u015fka bir umut ve g\u00fcc\u00fcn hayat bulmas\u0131d\u0131r. Anamda bu, bana olan sevgisiydi. Bir T\u00fcrk ailesinde \u00e7ocuk en kutsal beklenti ve en b\u00fcy\u00fck umuttur. \u00c7ocuklardaysa ucu tatl\u0131 yalanc\u0131 emzikle gelen mutlu u\u00e7u\u015ftur.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1289363599\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Biz umut olarak do\u011fduk ve umut olarak oyalanarak \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fck.<\/p>\n<p>Bekleyen adam insanla\u015fma s\u00fcreci ya\u015far. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te hayat, her \u015feyi yiyen,\u00a0 pir ana bal\u0131klar\u0131 gibidir. Bu bal\u0131klar toprak yemedi\u011finden, topra\u011f\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131 bilmezler. Yeni olan topraktan, halk\u0131n aras\u0131ndan geliyorsa, yani dayak yiye yiye, sevile sevile ve kavga ede ede geliyorsa sivrilme ve y\u00fccelme \u015fans\u0131na sahiptir. Bizde bunu totalitarizmin bitmeyen zulm\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fayanlar en iyi bilir. Biz 1989\u2019a on binlerce bu nitelikli sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131yla girdik. Aralar\u0131nda kaba a\u011fa\u00e7 hemen hemen yoktu. Hepsi k\u0131z\u0131lc\u0131klardan da sertle\u015fmi\u015f, hayat suyunu ala ala \u00e7elikle\u015fmi\u015fti. Onlardan bir \u00e7o\u011fu da yalanc\u0131 emzikle oyaland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Annem gece boyu babam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, a\u011f\u0131larken mi? Sabah namaz\u0131na kalk\u0131p dua ederken mi? \u00c7ama\u015f\u0131r kayas\u0131nda iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm \u201c<b>ben ne zamana kadar yaln\u0131z kendi giysilerimi y\u0131kayaca\u011f\u0131m, ne haber, ne selam!,<\/b>\u201d diye m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131rken mi? Kafese yumulup kendini unutmu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na h\u0131zl\u0131 h\u0131zl\u0131 t\u00fct\u00fcn dizerken, i\u011fne parma\u011f\u0131na bat\u0131nca \u201c<b>oh<\/b>,\u201ddedi\u011fini bile hat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir d\u00fcnyada olu\u015ftum. Bu d\u00fcnyada anam\u0131n ellerinin k\u0131nas\u0131 toprak ve katrand\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bana s\u00f6ylenen s\u00f6zl\u00fc s\u00f6zs\u00fcz T\u00fcrk\u00fcler hem sevda hem hasret, gaml\u0131 ahit t\u00fcrk\u00fcleriydi. Anam ba\u015fka t\u00fcrk\u00fc bilmezdi. Ben olu\u015furken ne damar\u0131ma ne de o yumurta sar\u0131s\u0131 kadar beynime, olabilir ya, DNH dokuma, modern T\u00fcrk\u00e7emizde ad\u0131na sava\u015f\u0131m denen yani anam\u0131n babam\u0131n ya\u015fayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fekilde ya\u015fama, onlar\u0131n sevemedi\u011fi \u015fekilde sevme, daha g\u00fcler y\u00fczl\u00fc, daha bir ba\u015fka olma \u00f6zlemi a\u015f\u0131lanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu \u00f6zlem soyumda daha \u00f6nceleri de ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f ki, damar dokum farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Eksik taraflar\u0131m da olu\u015ftu. Anam babam\u0131n hapisten d\u00f6nmesi konusunda her s\u00f6ylenene inand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, kafama hi\u00e7 kimseye ve hi\u00e7bir \u015feye k\u00f6r\u00fc k\u00f6r\u00fcne inanma \u00e7izgisini kaz\u0131mad\u0131. Ke\u015fke kaz\u0131m\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131, benim yalanc\u0131 emzi\u011fi a\u011fz\u0131ma almama izin vermeseydi. Ke\u015fke toprak yiye yiye b\u00fcy\u00fcseydim.<\/p>\n<p>Ben anam\u0131n benim i\u00e7in s\u00f6yledi\u011fi ninnileri duyup duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmiyorum, ruhum onlarla olu\u015ftu\u011fundan onlars\u0131z olam\u0131yorum. Yine o y\u00fczden olacak, ben anam\u0131n beni s\u0131rt\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yarak g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck mitinglerinde ya\u015fanan havay\u0131, anlat\u0131lanlar\u0131, o zaman hen\u00fcz dile gelmemi\u015f olsam da, \u00e7ok iyi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Ve anlat\u0131lanlar\u0131 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 belli etmek \u00fczere, ara s\u0131ra heyecanlan\u0131p alk\u0131\u015f tutmaya ba\u015flayanlara kat\u0131l\u0131p ben de tapi\u015f yap\u0131p hen\u00fcz parmaklar\u0131m pek a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumdan yumruk sall\u0131yor, sesler \u00e7ok fazla y\u00fckseldi\u011finde de, \u201cihi, ihi\u201d yaparak koroya kat\u0131l\u0131yordum. Ke\u015fke o ya\u015fta beni emzikliler s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcne katmasayd\u0131. Ke\u015fke dedelerimin sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 ruhuyla a\u00e7 susuz kalsayd\u0131m. Ke\u015fke ben de babam gibi hapse girip hayat suyu alsayd\u0131m\u2026<\/p><div id=\"bghab-338203933\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ben hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck emzi\u011fini o zaman takt\u0131m. Babam benim e\u015fikten \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca toprak yiye yiye, s\u00fcr\u00fcne s\u00fcr\u00fcne b\u00fcy\u00fcmemi istiyordu. Anam beni s\u0131rt\u0131ndan b\u0131rakmad\u0131 ve emzik takmama itiraz etmedi. Bu ikilim bir yana, beni hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck davas\u0131na mayalayan anamla babam oldu.\u00a0 K\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn insan\u0131 da b\u00f6yle hamurland\u0131. O y\u0131llarda kimse bu i\u015fin bir <b>yalanc\u0131 emzik<\/b> oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemedi. Bir \u015feyler olacak umuduna herkes kap\u0131ld\u0131. 25 y\u0131l hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmay\u0131nca millet semelindi, art\u0131k emzi\u011fi a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p atacak takat\u0131 kalmad\u0131. T\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc devlet \u00f6deyecekmi\u015f, emekli maa\u015flar\u0131na 4-5 leva zam yapacaklarm\u0131\u015f, a\u00e7l\u0131ktan bay\u0131l\u0131p \u00f6lenleri yolda b\u0131rakmay\u0131p paras\u0131z g\u00f6meceklermi\u015f gibi yeni ball\u0131 emzikler da\u011f\u0131t\u0131yorlar. L\u00fctf\u00fc mestan ge\u00e7en hafta 1200 kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k k\u00fcfte bile da\u011f\u0131tt\u0131. Yalanc\u0131 emzik da\u011f\u0131tmak 25 y\u0131ll\u0131k \u00e2detimizdir. \u015eu da var ki, art\u0131k \u00e7i\u011fneyenlerde ne di\u015f, ne \u00e7ene, ne de t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fck kald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Biz bir halk toplulu\u011fu olarak <b>YALANCI EMZ\u0130KLER\u0130<\/b> ilk takt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, \u00fclkede durum \u00e7ok gergindi, memlekette, halk aras\u0131nda, evlerde, herkeste korku vard\u0131, \u201c<b>Bulgarla\u015fma<\/b>\u201d kas\u0131rgas\u0131 ge\u00e7memi\u015fti, ne olaca\u011f\u0131 belli de\u011fildi, s\u0131n\u0131r a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f trene, otob\u00fcse, arabas\u0131na binen ka\u00e7\u0131k gidiyordu, gidenler geri d\u00f6nmeyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. Yalanc\u0131 emzik iyi olur temennisi, bir umut kap\u0131s\u0131, bir beklemenin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131yd\u0131. Kimsenin akl\u0131ndan bunun bir Ahmet Do\u011fan ad\u0131yla ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirilen tertip, bir tuzak, bir komplo oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemedi. Ama d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen T\u00fcrkleri ve Pomaklar\u0131 oyalamak, uyutmak ve onlar\u0131 sindirip kendileriyle bildi\u011fini yapmak i\u00e7in d\u00fczen haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f, pusu kurmu\u015f ve herkese yalanc\u0131 emzik da\u011f\u0131tm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u015fi anlayanlar al\u0131p ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 gitti. Ne ev, ne yol, ne okul, ne kasaba kimsenin g\u00f6z\u00fcnde de\u011fil. 14 y\u0131l yalanc\u0131 emzik gevelemek \u00e7ok a\u011f\u0131r geldi herkese. Yalan\u0131n \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck oldu\u011fu y\u0131llar sonra anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, halk\u0131m\u0131z yeniden takatsiz kalm\u0131\u015f ve yere yaslanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu defa kalkam\u0131yor, umutlar\u0131n\u0131 da uyand\u0131ram\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>Bizim k\u00f6yde bu 24 y\u0131lda, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm ad\u0131na, ne mi oldu? Dere temizlendi. \u0130\u00e7indeki yosunlu ta\u015flar \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131ld\u0131. Eski s\u00f6\u011f\u00fct k\u00fct\u00fckleri s\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc. Kurba\u011fa yuvalar\u0131 bozuldu ki, vaklamaz oldular. S\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131n i\u015fi ise zorla\u015ft\u0131, bentten uzan\u0131p su i\u00e7emez oldular. Bunda da hay\u0131r vard\u0131 ki, a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na s\u00fcl\u00fck ka\u00e7maz oldu. Bir iki ki\u015fi yenilenen dereye \u00f6rdek sald\u0131. Ta\u015flar s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcnce sel gibi akan su \u00f6rdek yavrular\u0131na ac\u0131mad\u0131. Olan yine k\u00f6yl\u00fcme oldu. Dereye \u00e7\u00f6p atmak yasakland\u0131. Daha \u00f6nce her \u015feyin yasak oldu\u011fu d\u00f6nemde bu hakk\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kullanmada \u00f6zg\u00fcrd\u00fck. Bu \u00e7\u00f6p meselesi oyaland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za ilk i\u015faret oldu. O zamana kadar biz dereyi kendimizin bilirdik. Asl\u0131nda hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck dendi\u011finde akl\u0131m\u0131za ilk gelen, yakadan yakaya dolu akan, mikroplar\u0131n, kurba\u011falar\u0131n, kertenkelelerin, yosunlar\u0131n ve \u00e7\u00f6plerin t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6n\u00fcne tak\u0131p g\u00f6zden kulaktan uzak bir yere ta\u015f\u0131yan g\u00fc\u00e7t\u00fc. Evlerimize hak etmedi\u011fimiz bir \u015fey girmesi adetten olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, gelip giden hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck\u00e7\u00fclerden kendimiz i\u00e7in bir \u015fey istemedik. Yedirdik i\u00e7irdik kendimiz a\u011fmaz\u0131m\u0131zdaki yalanc\u0131 emzikle kald\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Ben de bir yalanc\u0131 emzikliyim. Bana inanm\u0131yor ve anlatt\u0131klar\u0131mla ilgili bir yoklama yapmak istiyorsan\u0131z, beni ismimden bulabilirsiniz. Hat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla o zaman 1990 ilkbahar\u0131yd\u0131. Anamla babam T\u00fcrk isimlerini geri almam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Benim de do\u011fum k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131m yoktu. Bulgarca ismimden aray\u0131p bulabilirsiniz. Biz s\u00fcrg\u00fcn ve mahpus\u00e7u \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 kalabal\u0131kt\u0131k o mitinglerde, \u015fimdi art\u0131k 24 \u2013 25\u2019indeyiz. Baz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z evlendi. Aile kurdu.\u00a0 Kimimiz okuduk da bir \u015fey olmad\u0131. \u015eimdi hepimiz s\u0131k s\u0131k g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp doludan bo\u015fa, bo\u015ftan doluya doldurup plan yap\u0131yoruz ve nihayet bir karar ald\u0131k.<\/p>\n<p>Ben ve arkada\u015flar\u0131m, t\u00fcm bor\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6deyip, herkesle helalle\u015fip memleketi terk ediyoruz. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yere gitmeye karar verdik. Gidece\u011fimiz yer ne kadar uzak, ne kadar bo\u015fluk ve ne kadar insan aya\u011f\u0131 basmam\u0131\u015f \u0131s\u0131z bir yerse, oras\u0131n\u0131 tercih edece\u011fiz. Bu kadar uza\u011fa gitmek istememizin sebebi var. Vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bir tespite g\u00f6re, biz, 80\u2019li ku\u015fak, hepimiz sakat do\u011fmu\u015fuz. Kurtulu\u015f yolumuz bizi sakatlayan toplumsal ortamdan ka\u00e7makt\u0131r. Bir Bulgar\u2019a rastlad\u0131m, hapisten \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131ktan sonra Avustralya\u2019ya gitmi\u015f, kangurularla ya\u015famak, burada didi\u015fmekten \u00e7ok daha hay\u0131rl\u0131 dedi.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2452367737\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Daha be\u015fikte yalanc\u0131 emzik ve yalanc\u0131 oyuncaklarla oyalan\u0131p uyutulmu\u015fuz. O \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck mitinglerinde de ruhumuza yalanc\u0131 emzik tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve y\u0131llar y\u0131l\u0131 analar\u0131m\u0131z ve babalar\u0131m\u0131z da oyalan\u0131rken olup biteni g\u00f6rememi\u015fiz. Kurtulu\u015f yolu aramayal\u0131m diye oyalanm\u0131\u015f\u0131z.<\/p>\n<p>Hayata eli aya\u011f\u0131 d\u00fczg\u00fcn girmemiz hepimizin sakat olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anlam\u0131na gelmiyor.<\/p>\n<p>Biz annelerimizin maneviyat\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fcnyesini ve ruhunu sarsan \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015fte ezilmi\u015fiz. Kay\u0131tta \u201c<b>sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 do\u011fdu<\/b>\u201d yazsa da \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fc do\u011fmu\u015fuz. Bizim ki, \u00f6yle bir \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fcl\u00fck ki, derman\u0131 yok. \u015eimdi anl\u0131yorum. Hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck mitinglerine insan\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7aresiz oldu\u011fundan kendi geliyordu. Anam\u0131n kendi kendine t\u00fcrk\u00fc yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn gece tavana bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u201cne yap\u0131yordur?, a\u00e7 m\u0131d\u0131r?, sus mudur?, i\u015fkence g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f m\u00fcd\u00fcr?,\u00a0 dayana bilmi\u015f midir?, atlata bilmi\u015f midir?, acaba bir taraf\u0131 sakatland\u0131 m\u0131?, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc m\u00fc?, beyazla\u015ft\u0131 m\u0131?, neden yazmad\u0131?, yazmayacak m\u0131?, salacaklar m\u0131? ve di\u011fer bin bir ama hep dertli ve gaml\u0131 yan\u0131ts\u0131z sorular\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e say\u0131klamas\u0131 benim ruh \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fc do\u011fmama sebep oldu. Anam\u0131 itham etmiyorum. O dayan\u0131rken yapabilece\u011fini yapt\u0131. Fazlas\u0131n\u0131 da yapamazd\u0131. \u0130steyerek de\u011fil, istemeyerek olan ama olmu\u015f olan bir durum, benim, senin, bizim hepimizin ki!<\/p>\n<p>Ve 1990\u2019da a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131za verilen hak ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck emzi\u011fi asl\u0131nda \u00e7i\u011fnedik\u00e7e kendi karn\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kendi t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fczle doldurmam\u0131z i\u00e7in bedava da\u011f\u0131t\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ne g\u00fczel d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f de\u011fil mi?! Kendi t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc yutan adam, istifra etmez. \u00c7i\u011fne karde\u015fim \u00e7i\u011fne plastik biberon \u00e7i\u011fne!!!<\/p>\n<p>Doktora gitmedim. O zamanlar\u0131n totaliter toplumu bizden sakat ve hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe yaramayan bir ku\u015fak yaratmay\u0131 hedefledi\u011finden olacak, belki hepimizin ruhunu bozmazdan \u00f6nce, belki bir ilac\u0131n\u0131 da bulmu\u015ftur,\u00a0 deyenler oldu. Aile hekimlerine g\u00f6z\u00fckenler var. Derman bulan yok!. Deli delinin deli oldu\u011funu anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, biz de ruh harabeli\u011finde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 uzun zaman fark edemedik. Beni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcren, hepimiz t\u0131marhanelik olsak da, bizim ku\u015faktan hi\u00e7 kimsenin hen\u00fcz deli hastanesine g\u00f6nderilmemesidir. Asl\u0131nda 2013\u2019te Ahmet Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n t\u0131marhaneye gidip birka\u00e7 rapor almas\u0131 hepimize i\u015faret oldu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1628504\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u015eimdi biz bir karar ald\u0131k. 1990\u2019da Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131nda, k\u00f6y ve kasabalarda T\u00fcrklere, Pomaklara ve \u00c7ingenelere da\u011f\u0131t\u0131lan yalanc\u0131 emzikleri, plastik biberonlar\u0131n hepsini topluyoruz. 28 Mart 2014 g\u00fcn\u00fc bu i\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za saran Ahmet Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n Sofya Saray\u0131\u2019nda DO\u011eUM G\u00dcN\u00dc kutlamas\u0131 var. K\u00f6fteci milletvekillerini, bir i\u015fe yaramayan Bulgar mafya arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ve valileri falan \u00e7arm\u0131\u015f, biz de gidip b\u00fcy\u00fcn emzikleri geri vermek istiyoruz. Yalanc\u0131 emzik \u00e7uvallar\u0131n\u0131 5 kamyon ve 100 ki\u015filik muhafaza alay\u0131 ile ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131z. Biz bu yalanc\u0131 emziklerin bundan b\u00f6yle kimseye da\u011f\u0131t\u0131lmas\u0131na asla yol ve olanak vermeyece\u011fiz. 25 y\u0131lda hi\u00e7bir i\u015f yapamayan bir adam 26. y\u0131l da hi\u00e7bir i\u015f yapamaz. G\u00fcvenimiz s\u0131f\u0131rd\u0131r. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rmek istemiyoruz.<\/p>\n<p>Ahmet Do\u011fan a\u00e7 oldu\u011fu g\u00fcnleri, ayakkab\u0131s\u0131z gezdi\u011fi y\u0131llar\u0131, hainli\u011fini unutmas\u0131n! O bizden biri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kan\u0131tlad\u0131. Als\u0131n emziklerini ve onlarla ya\u015fas\u0131n. Saray\u0131n kiras\u0131n\u0131 kendi cebinden \u00f6desin. Zaten d\u0131\u015far\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131na izin verilmedi\u011fine g\u00f6re, yalanc\u0131 emzikleri kendisi de emsin, emsin,\u00a0 emsin ve t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fcklerini i\u00e7ti\u011fi viskilere meze yaps\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>Yalanc\u0131 emzik\u00e7i \u2013 \u201cSava\u201d, \u201cMedi\u201d,\u00a0 \u201cDo\u011fan!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Hat\u0131rlatal\u0131m. \u015eeytan\u0131n do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc kutlanmaz.<\/p>\n<p>Emzikleri iade ediyoruz!<\/p><div id=\"bghab-224676566\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u00c7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n paralar\u0131 almaya gelece\u011fiz.<\/p>\n<p>Yok, etti\u011fin umutlar\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 sormaya geliyoruz!<\/p>\n<p>Biz gidiyoruz.<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-908335635\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Neriman ERALP \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck Masalc\u0131lar\u0131 \u015eeytan\u0131n Do\u011fum G\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc Kutlad\u0131 Bizim orda kaba a\u011fa\u00e7 orman\u0131 yoktur. 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