{"id":8200,"date":"2013-11-10T18:00:47","date_gmt":"2013-11-10T16:00:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=8200"},"modified":"2019-07-11T23:40:47","modified_gmt":"2019-07-11T21:40:47","slug":"golgedeki-pariltilar-birsen-ve-ozcan-ulucan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/golgedeki-pariltilar-birsen-ve-ozcan-ulucan\/","title":{"rendered":"G\u00f6lgedeki par\u0131lt\u0131lar Birsen ve \u00d6zcan Ulucan"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Bulgaristan\u2019dan g\u00f6\u00e7 ederken garajda yar\u0131\u015fmaya haz\u0131rland\u0131lar. \u0130lk \u00f6d\u00fcllerini 9 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken ald\u0131lar.<!--more--><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-8201\" alt=\"nermin-bezmen\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen-150x150.jpg?resize=150%2C150\" width=\"150\" height=\"150\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg?resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 150w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg?resize=400%2C400&amp;ssl=1 400w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg?resize=65%2C65&amp;ssl=1 65w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg?zoom=2&amp;resize=150%2C150&amp;ssl=1 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 150px) 100vw, 150px\" \/><\/a>G\u00f6lgedeki sanat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131z\u201d diyor \u00d6zcan, kendileri i\u00e7in. Onlar \u00f6zellikle g\u00f6lgede kalmay\u0131 se\u00e7en ve bunu sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc i\u00e7in gerekli g\u00f6ren sanat\u00e7\u0131lardan. Bana sorarsan\u0131z; g\u00f6lgede olmalar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131n, hem m\u00fczik d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 hem m\u00fczik severlerin ruhunu kama\u015ft\u0131racak kadar \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131lar. Ama bu \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131y\u0131 sanatlar\u0131n\u0131 ve sanat\u00e7\u0131 duyarl\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 zincirletmeden, h\u00fcr bir nefesle yaymakta kararl\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<p>Bu iki g\u00fczel karde\u015fin sanat yolculu\u011funu ne kadar h\u0131zla ve \u00f6rnek ba\u015far\u0131larla ar\u015f\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman, \u015fimdi olduklar\u0131 noktada, a\u011f\u0131r soluklarla, tela\u015fs\u0131z, ideallerinde kararl\u0131, tavizsiz ad\u0131mlar se\u00e7tiklerini izlemek bana K\u0131z\u0131lderili hik\u00e2yesini hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor:<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnlerdir beyaz adama yol g\u00f6steren K\u0131z\u0131lderililer bir g\u00fcn aniden durur ve ba\u011fda\u015f kurarak otururlar. Neden durduklar\u0131 soruldu\u011funda da i\u00e7lerinden biri: \u201c\u00c7ok h\u0131zl\u0131 yol ald\u0131k. Ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z geride kald\u0131. Onlar\u0131 bekliyoruz\u201d der. \u0130\u015fte, sevgili Birsen ve \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131 dinlerken de onlar\u0131n notalar\u0131n huzuru, sanc\u0131s\u0131 ve yorgunlu\u011funda s\u00fcrekli devinim ve a\u015fama isteyen sanatlar\u0131nda, ruhlar\u0131ndan kopmadan, derin soluklarla yol almak istediklerini g\u00f6rebiliyorum.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte, sevgili Birsen ve \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131 dinlerken de onlar\u0131n notalar\u0131n huzuru, sanc\u0131s\u0131 ve yorgunlu\u011funda s\u00fcrekli devinim ve a\u015fama isteyen sanatlar\u0131nda, ruhlar\u0131ndan kopmadan, derin soluklarla yol almak istediklerini g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Hi\u00e7 kolay bir yol de\u011fil, geldikleri yol. Hem fizik\u00ee, hem de ruhsal olarak. Bir de g\u00f6\u00e7 yolu eklenmi\u015f ya\u015famlar\u0131na. Ama ruhlar\u0131n\u0131 geride b\u0131rakmadan a\u015fm\u0131\u015flar o yolculu\u011fu da.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3226079616\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><b>Hem Brahms hem ba\u011flama<\/b><\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcnyaya \u201cMerhaba\u201d dedikleri yer; Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n Deliorman\u2019\u0131 eteklerinde \u015eumen (\u015eumlu) \u015fehri. Cerrah bir baba ve \u00e7ocuk doktoru bir annenin ayd\u0131n, entelekt\u00fcel, sanat a\u015fk\u0131 ile dolu d\u00fcnyalar\u0131na do\u011fmu\u015f ilk iki \u00e7ocuk. Kar\u0131 koca, her ikisi de \u015fiir yaz\u0131yor, \u015fiirler okuyorlar. Babalar\u0131n\u0131n disipliner, otoriter karakteri, tenor sesiyle, N\u00e2z\u0131m, Orhan Veli, Mayakovski okuyup \u015fairle\u015firken, annelerinin yumu\u015fak, naif ve romantik kimli\u011fi d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyor dudaklar\u0131ndan. Evin k\u00fct\u00fcphanesinde kal\u0131n ciltler i\u00e7inde Goya, Velasquez, Van Gogh \u00e7ocuklara sanat\u0131n bir di\u011fer taraf\u0131n\u0131 sevdiriyor. Arada, kitaplar\u0131n sayfalar\u0131ndan imtihan yap\u0131l\u0131yor miniklere. Brahms, \u00c7aykovski kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyor. Tabii k\u00f6kleri olan T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc de ya\u015fatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6zenle. Babalar\u0131, ameliyatlar aras\u0131 eve geldi\u011finde, ba\u011flama \u00e7al\u0131yor, t\u00fcrk\u00fcler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Deliorman eteklerindeki k\u00f6ylerine gittiklerinde dedelerinden me\u015fhur, h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc Deliorman t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131 dinliyor \u00e7ocuklar.<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, babas\u0131n\u0131n, o\u011fluna; \u201cBen sana padi\u015fah olamazs\u0131n demedim, adam olamazs\u0131n dedim\u201d f\u0131kras\u0131 \u00fczerine onlara s\u00f6yledi\u011fi; \u201cAdam olsan\u0131z da, sanat\u00e7\u0131 olmazsan\u0131z benim g\u00f6z\u00fcme g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyin\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rl\u0131yor. Sanata bu kadar duyarl\u0131 olan ebeveynlerin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz sanat ser\u00fcveni de bu tutkuyla paralel \u00e7ok erken ya\u015fta ba\u015fl\u0131yor elbette. Birsen yedi ya\u015f\u0131nda piyanoya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00d6zcan d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda ve tek parmak piyanonun tu\u015flar\u0131yla tan\u0131\u015f\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, \u201c\u0130lk piyanom bir \u2018Kalmann\u2019d\u0131\u201d diyor, \u201cBulgaristan\u2019da o marka tek piyanoydu. Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli bestecilerinden yine bir \u015eumlu olan Pancho Vladigerov\u2019un piyanosuydu ve sahip olmak b\u00fcy\u00fck bir gururdu. Babam k\u00f6ydeki eve de bir piyano alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki, oraya gitti\u011fimiz zaman da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fabilelim diye.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6zcan, ablas\u0131ndan heveslenip piyanoda tek parmakla anne ile ilgili bir \u015fark\u0131 \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f. Babas\u0131 alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u201cSen keman \u00e7almak ister misin?\u201d diye sormu\u015f.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-852658793\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><b>Her yerde az\u0131nl\u0131k<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam\u0131n babas\u0131 matematik hocal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra edebiyat\u00e7\u0131 ayn\u0131 zamanda\u201d diye anlat\u0131yor \u00d6zcan, \u201cKeman \u00e7almak \u00e7ok istermi\u015f, \u00e7alamam\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f. Babam\u0131n keman \u00e7almas\u0131n\u0131 arzulam\u0131\u015f. Babam da yirmi ya\u015f\u0131nda Sofya\u2019da t\u0131p akademisine girdi\u011finde dedemin verdi\u011fi 100 leva ile keman ma\u011fazas\u0131na gitmi\u015f. Vitrinde kendisine bakan keman\u0131 alacakken, sat\u0131c\u0131, babam\u0131n t\u0131pta, cerrahi b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenince demi\u015f ki; \u2018Beyefendi, keman da, cerrahi de, ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr gerektiren mesleklerdir. Ne var ki; yirmi ya\u015f\u0131nda okumaya ba\u015flay\u0131p iyi bir cerrah olabilirsiniz ama yirmide ba\u015flay\u0131p iyi bir kemanc\u0131 olamazs\u0131n\u0131z.\u2019 Bana sorunca, hik\u00e2yeyi de bildi\u011fim i\u00e7in isterim dedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inde keman a\u015fk\u0131 hicran kalan dede ise, torunu hay\u00e2lini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirince, ona \u015fiir yazm\u0131\u015f sevincinden, \u201cAslan gibi \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131m\u201d diye ba\u015flayan. Torunlar\u0131 Birsen, \u00d6zcan ve Ay\u015fen, onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden az \u00f6nce banta al\u0131nan sesinden \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131, \u2018Bir A\u011fa\u00e7 Gibi\u2019 CD\u2019lerinde Mehmet Zati Arca\u2019n\u0131n bestesiyle sunup, hem dedelerini, hem kendi \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131n\u0131 bir kez daha ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n<p><b>Bask\u0131lar g\u00f6\u00e7 getirdi<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Birsen \u201cPiyano konusunda ailemin ara\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131 sayesinde daha iyi hocalar ve ilerleme sa\u011flad\u0131m.Varna\u2019daki \u00f6zel m\u00fczik okulunda okurken iki y\u00fcz ki\u015filik bir okuldaki \u00fc\u00e7 T\u00fcrk \u00f6\u011frenciden ikisiydik. Paras\u0131zd\u0131 e\u011fitimdi. Ama T\u00fcrk \u00f6\u011frenciler olarak zorluklar ya\u015fad\u0131k. Varna Festivali\u2019ne gelen Moskova Konservatuvar\u0131 hocas\u0131 \u2018Master class\u2019 sonucu beni \u00f6\u011frencisi olarak Moskova\u2019ya alabilece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Babam, Bulgar olan asistan\u0131ndan takibini rica etmi\u015f. Hi\u00e7bir haber \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. Babam \u0131srarla sorunca asistan\u0131 demi\u015f ki; \u2018Anlam\u0131yor musunuz, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z gitmeyecek Moskova\u2019ya. O bir T\u00fcrk.\u2019 Hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcthi\u015fti.\u201d \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131n sanat\u0131 da az\u0131nl\u0131k politikas\u0131ndan nasibini alm\u0131\u015f. \u201cG\u00fcn geldi, T\u00fcrklerin isimleri Bulgar isimlerine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. \u2018Siz asl\u0131nda Bulgar\u2019d\u0131n\u0131z. Barbar T\u00fcrkler sizi T\u00fcrkle\u015ftirdi\u2019 dediler. Babam depresyona girmi\u015fti. Martinof ismini ald\u0131k. Birsen \u2018Bina\u2019 ben \u2018Bilyan\u2019 oldum. T\u00fcrk\u00e7e\u2019ye benzetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k isimlerimizi ama o kadar olurdu i\u015fte. Ben \u00c7ekoslovakya\u2019daki yar\u0131\u015fmaya b\u00f6yle kat\u0131labildim. On \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Gitmeden \u00f6nce, \u2018Dikkat et, Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131 temsil ediyorsun!\u2019 dediler. Hem kendi yar\u0131\u015fma grubumda birincilik, hem de en iyi \u00c7ek bestesi \u2018Koc\u0131an \u00d6d\u00fcl\u00fc\u2019n\u00fc ald\u0131m.\u201d \u0130ki karde\u015f de, hen\u00fcz dokuz ya\u015flar\u0131nda ba\u015flayan \u00f6d\u00fcllerine s\u00fcrekli yeni \u00f6d\u00fcller ekleye dursunlar, bask\u0131lar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden aile g\u00f6\u00e7 karar\u0131 gelip \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2721455442\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><b>\u2018Evimiz yoktu ama Balaban tablomuz vard\u0131\u2019<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen m\u00fczik okulundan mezun olmu\u015ftum. May\u0131st\u0131\u201d diye an\u0131ms\u0131yor Birsen, \u201cSofya Konservatuvar\u0131 s\u0131navlar\u0131na haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordum. Mezuniyet balosundan d\u00f6nerken g\u00f6\u00e7 konu\u015fuluyordu arabada. Bana \u00e7ok romantik, heyecan verici ve ayn\u0131 zamanda korkutucu gelmi\u015fti. 21 May\u0131s\u2019ta konu\u015fuldu, 22 Temmuz\u2019da g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fck. Bir hafta i\u00e7inde terk etmemiz istenmi\u015fti. Turist pasaportu ile alelacele terk edince oradaki haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kaybediyorduk. \u0130nsanlar birer valizle g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fcler. Babam ili\u015fkilerini kullan\u0131p piyanoyu ve birka\u00e7 e\u015fyay\u0131 trene bindire-bildi. Evdeki kald\u0131, k\u00f6ydeki piyano, Weinbach, daha hafif, o y\u00fcklendi trene.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6zcan da ablas\u0131 gibi, heyecan ve beklentiyi bir arada ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f g\u00f6\u00e7erken. \u201cOnalt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131m. Bana macera geldi. Anne, baban\u0131n endi\u015felerini hissetmiyorsun o ya\u015fta&#8230;\u201d diyor. \u00d6nce G\u00fcne\u015fli k\u00f6y\u00fcndeki ya\u015fl\u0131 akrabalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na yerle\u015fmi\u015fler bir ay kadar. Birsen devam ediyor: \u201cBabama, \u201c\u00d6nce size i\u015f bulal\u0131m, sonra \u00e7ocuklara okul\u201d demi\u015fler ama ama hay\u0131r, o, bizlere yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck yat\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 ve bizlerin gelece\u011fini kollayarak, geldi\u011fimizin daha ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fcnde bizi konservatuvara yerle\u015ftirdi. Annem de, elde para yok, olanla \u0130brahim Balaban\u2019\u0131n tablosunu taksitle alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Akraba evinde kal\u0131yoruz ama Balaban\u2019\u0131m\u0131z var!\u201d \u201cEvet, evde yer yoktu\u201d diyor \u00d6zcan, \u201cAraba garaj\u0131nda yar\u0131\u015fmaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordum. Mimar Sinan \u00dcniversitesi Ulusal yar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131na kat\u0131ld\u0131m 89\u2019un Ekim\u2019inde, gelir gelmez. Yar\u0131\u015fma 25-26 ya\u015f s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131. 16 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u00fck ald\u0131m. Birsen de en iyi \u2018korrepetit\u00f6r\u2019 \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130mtihanla girdikleri konservatuvarda, Birsen d\u00f6rt seneyi bir senede bitirerek, seviye s\u0131nav\u0131 ile lisans b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne ge\u00e7mi\u015f. \u00d6\u011fretmen oldu\u011funda hen\u00fcz 20\u2019sindeymi\u015f. \u00d6zcan zaten Bulgaristan\u2019da bir sene atlad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan Lise 3\u2019e girmi\u015f. Ama o da \u00fcniversiteyi d\u00f6rt sene yerine \u00fc\u00e7 senede bitirmi\u015f. T\u00fcrk\u00e7e dersleri almak ihtiyac\u0131 ile daha h\u0131zland\u0131rmam\u0131\u015f okulu. Sonra Maxim Vengerov\u2019la \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken keman\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra violay\u0131 da sanat\u0131na katm\u0131\u015f \u00d6zcan.<\/p>\n<p><b>\u2018Elit tabakaya \u00e7almamak bir kay\u0131p de\u011fil\u2019<\/b><\/p><div id=\"bghab-2323903035\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Sanat\u0131n ve sanat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcceltildi\u011fi bir sistemden sonra T\u00fcrkiye onlar i\u00e7in hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu mu diye merak ediyorum. \u0130kisi birden \u201cYa\u015fad\u0131k\u201d diyorlar. Birsen ekliyor: \u201cBiz t\u00fcm sanatlar\u0131n bir oldu\u011funu bilerek b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck ailede. Bulgaristan\u2019daki sistem de bunu destekliyordu.\u201d \u00d6zcan hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tedavi edecek bir taraf yakalam\u0131\u015f: \u201cVatansever duygularla geldik\u201d diyor, \u201cVe nas\u0131l d\u00fcnya bu koca evrende yaln\u0131zl\u0131k hissi ya\u015f\u0131yorsa, T\u00fcrkiye de ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, model bir \u0130slam \u00fclkesi olmak yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyada. Bu \u00e7ok \u00e7etin bir i\u015f. O y\u00fczden anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de, konservatuvar ortam\u0131nda, m\u00fczi\u011fin, b\u00fct\u00fcn sanatlar\u0131n bir dal\u0131 oldu\u011funa dair fark\u0131ndal\u0131k hissedilmemesinden \u00fczg\u00fcn. \u00d6zcan ise e\u011fitim kurumunda \u2018bohemlik\u2019 duygusunun verilmemesi gerekti\u011fine inan\u0131yor. \u201cBohem sanat\u00e7\u0131 yeteneklidir ama tembeldir\u201d diyor ve ekliyor: \u201cBug\u00fcn sanat ego ve h\u0131rsa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Egoyu beslemek ard\u0131nda yap\u0131lan sanat, sanat de\u011fildir. Bizim g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz idealist ve ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z olmam\u0131z. Kendi ya\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda kavruluruz. Biraz da g\u00f6lgede durup arada bir \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131 severiz. G\u00f6lgedeki sanat\u00e7\u0131 tavr\u0131n\u0131 seviyorum. Elit bir tabaka-n\u0131n \u00fcnl\u00fc etti\u011fi konser salonlar\u0131nda \u00e7almaman\u0131n kay\u0131p olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc-yorum. S\u00fcreyya\u2019da \u00e7alman\u0131n, \u00c2\u015f\u0131k Veysel gibi k\u00f6y meydan\u0131nda m\u00fczik yapman\u0131n daha \u00e7ok de\u011fer ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yorum. Arada bir \u2018flash\u2019lar da g\u00fcven veriyor bana. Me\u015fhur bir sahnede g\u00f6r\u00fcnmek iyi ama s\u00fcrekli olmamas\u0131 ho\u015fuma gidiyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Birsen \u201cK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yerlerde samimiyetle m\u00fczik yapmay\u0131 istiyoruz\u201d diye ekliyor, \u201cSenede 40 konserimiz oluyor ve yeterince me\u015fguliyet bu. Ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, h\u00fcrriyet duygusuyla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Pop\u00fcler anlamda \u00e7ok yo\u011fun bir yerde de\u011filiz ama sanat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131k da pop\u00fclarite de\u011fil bizim i\u00e7in. Bir g\u00fcn paras\u0131z konser verebilmek istiyoruz. Felsefi olarak sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc-\u011f\u00fcnden yanay\u0131z.\u201d \u0130kilinin yeni \u00e7\u0131kan CD\u2019leri \u2018Saga\u2019 asl\u0131nda be\u015f sene \u00f6nce pl\u00e2nlad\u0131klar\u0131 bir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma. \u201cVerecek ki\u015fisel bir s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz, mesaj\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 ama imk\u00e2nlar ancak elverdi\u201d diyorlar.<\/p>\n<p>Burada sayamayaca\u011f\u0131m ba\u015far\u0131lar, ta\u00e7land\u0131r\u0131lan e\u011fitimler, alk\u0131\u015flar, \u00f6d\u00fcller zenginli\u011findeki Ulucan Karde\u015flerin en mini\u011fi Ay\u015fen Londra\u2019da oturuyor 21 Kas\u0131m\u2019da Bursa Senfoni konserinde a\u011fabeyine piyanoda e\u015flik etmek \u00fczere, sekiz ayl\u0131k bebe\u011fini kucaklay\u0131p gelecek. Aral\u0131k ay\u0131 Ulucan Karde\u015fler\u2019in silsile konserleri ile dolu.<\/p>\n<p>Ruhlar\u0131na ve sanatlar\u0131na a\u015fkla ba\u011fl\u0131 Ulucan karde\u015flerle, \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131n sesinden annesinin bir \u015fiiriyle vedala\u015f\u0131yoruz: \u2018\u00dc\u00e7gen\u2019 \u015fiirin ad\u0131. \u201cBak ben ne resmi yapt\u0131m\/ Bir \u00fc\u00e7gen, tepesi yukarda\/ Hay\u0131r bu da\u011f de\u011fil\/ Ben kederin resmini yapt\u0131m da\u011fa kadar\/ Bak ben ne resmi yapt\u0131m\/ Pencere \u00f6n\u00fcnde sandalye\/ Hay\u0131r bu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fil\/ Ben sevginin resmini yapt\u0131m\/ G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3829473655\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>G\u00f6lgenin sanat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131, sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcr-leri, \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131n torunlar\u0131, benim g\u00fczel karde\u015flerim, yollar\u0131n\u0131z a\u00e7\u0131k, alk\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z sa\u011fa-nak, sevginiz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar olsun.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Bulgaristan\u2019dan g\u00f6\u00e7 ederken garajda yar\u0131\u015fmaya haz\u0131rland\u0131lar. \u0130lk \u00f6d\u00fcllerini 9 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken ald\u0131lar<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6lgedeki sanat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131z\u201d diyor \u00d6zcan, kendileri i\u00e7in. Onlar \u00f6zellikle g\u00f6lgede kalmay\u0131 se\u00e7en ve bunu sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc i\u00e7in gerekli g\u00f6ren sanat\u00e7\u0131lardan. Bana sorarsan\u0131z; g\u00f6lgede olmalar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131n, hem m\u00fczik d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 hem m\u00fczik severlerin ruhunu kama\u015ft\u0131racak kadar \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131lar. Ama bu \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131y\u0131 sanatlar\u0131n\u0131 ve sanat\u00e7\u0131 duyarl\u0131l\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 zincirletmeden, h\u00fcr bir nefesle yaymakta kararl\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<p>Bu iki g\u00fczel karde\u015fin sanat yolculu\u011funu ne kadar h\u0131zla ve \u00f6rnek ba\u015far\u0131larla ar\u015f\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman, \u015fimdi olduklar\u0131 noktada, a\u011f\u0131r soluklarla, tela\u015fs\u0131z, ideallerinde kararl\u0131, tavizsiz ad\u0131mlar se\u00e7tiklerini izlemek bana K\u0131z\u0131lderili hik\u00e2yesini hat\u0131rlat\u0131yor:<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnlerdir beyaz adama yol g\u00f6steren K\u0131z\u0131lderililer bir g\u00fcn aniden durur ve ba\u011fda\u015f kurarak otururlar. Neden durduklar\u0131 soruldu\u011funda da i\u00e7lerinden biri: \u201c\u00c7ok h\u0131zl\u0131 yol ald\u0131k. Ruhlar\u0131m\u0131z geride kald\u0131. Onlar\u0131 bekliyoruz\u201d der. \u0130\u015fte, sevgili Birsen ve \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131 dinlerken de onlar\u0131n notalar\u0131n huzuru, sanc\u0131s\u0131 ve yorgunlu\u011funda s\u00fcrekli devinim ve a\u015fama isteyen sanatlar\u0131nda, ruhlar\u0131ndan kopmadan, derin soluklarla yol almak istediklerini g\u00f6rebiliyorum.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2186336111\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte, sevgili Birsen ve \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131 dinlerken de onlar\u0131n notalar\u0131n huzuru, sanc\u0131s\u0131 ve yorgunlu\u011funda s\u00fcrekli devinim ve a\u015fama isteyen sanatlar\u0131nda, ruhlar\u0131ndan kopmadan, derin soluklarla yol almak istediklerini g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Hi\u00e7 kolay bir yol de\u011fil, geldikleri yol. Hem fizik\u00ee, hem de ruhsal olarak. Bir de g\u00f6\u00e7 yolu eklenmi\u015f ya\u015famlar\u0131na. Ama ruhlar\u0131n\u0131 geride b\u0131rakmadan a\u015fm\u0131\u015flar o yolculu\u011fu da.<\/p>\n<p><b>Hem Brahms hem ba\u011flama<\/b><\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcnyaya \u201cMerhaba\u201d dedikleri yer; Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n Deliorman\u2019\u0131 eteklerinde \u015eumen (\u015eumlu) \u015fehri. Cerrah bir baba ve \u00e7ocuk doktoru bir annenin ayd\u0131n, entelekt\u00fcel, sanat a\u015fk\u0131 ile dolu d\u00fcnyalar\u0131na do\u011fmu\u015f ilk iki \u00e7ocuk. Kar\u0131 koca, her ikisi de \u015fiir yaz\u0131yor, \u015fiirler okuyorlar. Babalar\u0131n\u0131n disipliner, otoriter karakteri, tenor sesiyle, N\u00e2z\u0131m, Orhan Veli, Mayakovski okuyup \u015fairle\u015firken, annelerinin yumu\u015fak, naif ve romantik kimli\u011fi d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyor dudaklar\u0131ndan. Evin k\u00fct\u00fcphanesinde kal\u0131n ciltler i\u00e7inde Goya, Velasquez, Van Gogh \u00e7ocuklara sanat\u0131n bir di\u011fer taraf\u0131n\u0131 sevdiriyor. Arada, kitaplar\u0131n sayfalar\u0131ndan imtihan yap\u0131l\u0131yor miniklere. Brahms, \u00c7aykovski kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015fuyor. Tabii k\u00f6kleri olan T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc de ya\u015fatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6zenle. Babalar\u0131, ameliyatlar aras\u0131 eve geldi\u011finde, ba\u011flama \u00e7al\u0131yor, t\u00fcrk\u00fcler s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Deliorman eteklerindeki k\u00f6ylerine gittiklerinde dedelerinden me\u015fhur, h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc Deliorman t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131 dinliyor \u00e7ocuklar.<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, babas\u0131n\u0131n, o\u011fluna; \u201cBen sana padi\u015fah olamazs\u0131n demedim, adam olamazs\u0131n dedim\u201d f\u0131kras\u0131 \u00fczerine onlara s\u00f6yledi\u011fi; \u201cAdam olsan\u0131z da, sanat\u00e7\u0131 olmazsan\u0131z benim g\u00f6z\u00fcme g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyin\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hat\u0131rl\u0131yor. Sanata bu kadar duyarl\u0131 olan ebeveynlerin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz sanat ser\u00fcveni de bu tutkuyla paralel \u00e7ok erken ya\u015fta ba\u015fl\u0131yor elbette. Birsen yedi ya\u015f\u0131nda piyanoya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00d6zcan d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131nda ve tek parmak piyanonun tu\u015flar\u0131yla tan\u0131\u015f\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, \u201c\u0130lk piyanom bir \u2018Kalmann\u2019d\u0131\u201d diyor, \u201cBulgaristan\u2019da o marka tek piyanoydu. Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli bestecilerinden yine bir \u015eumlu olan Pancho Vladigerov\u2019un piyanosuydu ve sahip olmak b\u00fcy\u00fck bir gururdu. Babam k\u00f6ydeki eve de bir piyano alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ki, oraya gitti\u011fimiz zaman da \u00e7al\u0131\u015fabilelim diye.\u201d<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3800822956\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u00d6zcan, ablas\u0131ndan heveslenip piyanoda tek parmakla anne ile ilgili bir \u015fark\u0131 \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f. Babas\u0131 alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u201cSen keman \u00e7almak ister misin?\u201d diye sormu\u015f.<\/p>\n<p><b>Her yerde az\u0131nl\u0131k<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u201cBabam\u0131n babas\u0131 matematik hocal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra edebiyat\u00e7\u0131 ayn\u0131 zamanda\u201d diye anlat\u0131yor \u00d6zcan, \u201cKeman \u00e7almak \u00e7ok istermi\u015f, \u00e7alamam\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015f. Babam\u0131n keman \u00e7almas\u0131n\u0131 arzulam\u0131\u015f. Babam da yirmi ya\u015f\u0131nda Sofya\u2019da t\u0131p akademisine girdi\u011finde dedemin verdi\u011fi 100 leva ile keman ma\u011fazas\u0131na gitmi\u015f. Vitrinde kendisine bakan keman\u0131 alacakken, sat\u0131c\u0131, babam\u0131n t\u0131pta, cerrahi b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frenince demi\u015f ki; \u2018Beyefendi, keman da, cerrahi de, ayr\u0131 ayr\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr gerektiren mesleklerdir. Ne var ki; yirmi ya\u015f\u0131nda okumaya ba\u015flay\u0131p iyi bir cerrah olabilirsiniz ama yirmide ba\u015flay\u0131p iyi bir kemanc\u0131 olamazs\u0131n\u0131z.\u2019 Bana sorunca, hik\u00e2yeyi de bildi\u011fim i\u00e7in isterim dedim.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inde keman a\u015fk\u0131 hicran kalan dede ise, torunu hay\u00e2lini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirince, ona \u015fiir yazm\u0131\u015f sevincinden, \u201cAslan gibi \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131m\u201d diye ba\u015flayan. Torunlar\u0131 Birsen, \u00d6zcan ve Ay\u015fen, onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden az \u00f6nce banta al\u0131nan sesinden \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131, \u2018Bir A\u011fa\u00e7 Gibi\u2019 CD\u2019lerinde Mehmet Zati Arca\u2019n\u0131n bestesiyle sunup, hem dedelerini, hem kendi \u00e7ocukluklar\u0131n\u0131 bir kez daha ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n<p><b>Bask\u0131lar g\u00f6\u00e7 getirdi<\/b><\/p><div id=\"bghab-247145656\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-40-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Birsen \u201cPiyano konusunda ailemin ara\u015ft\u0131rmas\u0131 sayesinde daha iyi hocalar ve ilerleme sa\u011flad\u0131m.Varna\u2019daki \u00f6zel m\u00fczik okulunda okurken iki y\u00fcz ki\u015filik bir okuldaki \u00fc\u00e7 T\u00fcrk \u00f6\u011frenciden ikisiydik. Paras\u0131zd\u0131 e\u011fitimdi. Ama T\u00fcrk \u00f6\u011frenciler olarak zorluklar ya\u015fad\u0131k. Varna Festivali\u2019ne gelen Moskova Konservatuvar\u0131 hocas\u0131 \u2018Master class\u2019 sonucu beni \u00f6\u011frencisi olarak Moskova\u2019ya alabilece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Babam, Bulgar olan asistan\u0131ndan takibini rica etmi\u015f. Hi\u00e7bir haber \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131. Babam \u0131srarla sorunca asistan\u0131 demi\u015f ki; \u2018Anlam\u0131yor musunuz, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z gitmeyecek Moskova\u2019ya. O bir T\u00fcrk.\u2019 Hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcthi\u015fti.\u201d \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131n sanat\u0131 da az\u0131nl\u0131k politikas\u0131ndan nasibini alm\u0131\u015f. \u201cG\u00fcn geldi, T\u00fcrklerin isimleri Bulgar isimlerine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. \u2018Siz asl\u0131nda Bulgar\u2019d\u0131n\u0131z. Barbar T\u00fcrkler sizi T\u00fcrkle\u015ftirdi\u2019 dediler. Babam depresyona girmi\u015fti. Martinof ismini ald\u0131k. Birsen \u2018Bina\u2019 ben \u2018Bilyan\u2019 oldum. T\u00fcrk\u00e7e\u2019ye benzetmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k isimlerimizi ama o kadar olurdu i\u015fte. Ben \u00c7ekoslovakya\u2019daki yar\u0131\u015fmaya b\u00f6yle kat\u0131labildim. On \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m. Gitmeden \u00f6nce, \u2018Dikkat et, Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131 temsil ediyorsun!\u2019 dediler. Hem kendi yar\u0131\u015fma grubumda birincilik, hem de en iyi \u00c7ek bestesi \u2018Koc\u0131an \u00d6d\u00fcl\u00fc\u2019n\u00fc ald\u0131m.\u201d \u0130ki karde\u015f de, hen\u00fcz dokuz ya\u015flar\u0131nda ba\u015flayan \u00f6d\u00fcllerine s\u00fcrekli yeni \u00f6d\u00fcller ekleye dursunlar, bask\u0131lar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden aile g\u00f6\u00e7 karar\u0131 gelip \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n<p><b>\u2018Evimiz yoktu ama Balaban tablomuz vard\u0131\u2019<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u201cBen m\u00fczik okulundan mezun olmu\u015ftum. May\u0131st\u0131\u201d diye an\u0131ms\u0131yor Birsen, \u201cSofya Konservatuvar\u0131 s\u0131navlar\u0131na haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordum. Mezuniyet balosundan d\u00f6nerken g\u00f6\u00e7 konu\u015fuluyordu arabada. Bana \u00e7ok romantik, heyecan verici ve ayn\u0131 zamanda korkutucu gelmi\u015fti. 21 May\u0131s\u2019ta konu\u015fuldu, 22 Temmuz\u2019da g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fck. Bir hafta i\u00e7inde terk etmemiz istenmi\u015fti. Turist pasaportu ile alelacele terk edince oradaki haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kaybediyorduk. \u0130nsanlar birer valizle g\u00f6\u00e7t\u00fcler. Babam ili\u015fkilerini kullan\u0131p piyanoyu ve birka\u00e7 e\u015fyay\u0131 trene bindire-bildi. Evdeki kald\u0131, k\u00f6ydeki piyano, Weinbach, daha hafif, o y\u00fcklendi trene.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6zcan da ablas\u0131 gibi, heyecan ve beklentiyi bir arada ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f g\u00f6\u00e7erken. \u201cOnalt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131mdayd\u0131m. Bana macera geldi. Anne, baban\u0131n endi\u015felerini hissetmiyorsun o ya\u015fta&#8230;\u201d diyor. \u00d6nce G\u00fcne\u015fli k\u00f6y\u00fcndeki ya\u015fl\u0131 akrabalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na yerle\u015fmi\u015fler bir ay kadar. Birsen devam ediyor: \u201cBabama, \u201c\u00d6nce size i\u015f bulal\u0131m, sonra \u00e7ocuklara okul\u201d demi\u015fler ama ama hay\u0131r, o, bizlere yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck yat\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 ve bizlerin gelece\u011fini kollayarak, geldi\u011fimizin daha ikinci g\u00fcn\u00fcnde bizi konservatuvara yerle\u015ftirdi. Annem de, elde para yok, olanla \u0130brahim Balaban\u2019\u0131n tablosunu taksitle alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Akraba evinde kal\u0131yoruz ama Balaban\u2019\u0131m\u0131z var!\u201d \u201cEvet, evde yer yoktu\u201d diyor \u00d6zcan, \u201cAraba garaj\u0131nda yar\u0131\u015fmaya haz\u0131rlan\u0131yordum. Mimar Sinan \u00dcniversitesi Ulusal yar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131na kat\u0131ld\u0131m 89\u2019un Ekim\u2019inde, gelir gelmez. Yar\u0131\u015fma 25-26 ya\u015f s\u0131n\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131. 16 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u00fck ald\u0131m. Birsen de en iyi \u2018korrepetit\u00f6r\u2019 \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u0130mtihanla girdikleri konservatuvarda, Birsen d\u00f6rt seneyi bir senede bitirerek, seviye s\u0131nav\u0131 ile lisans b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcne ge\u00e7mi\u015f. \u00d6\u011fretmen oldu\u011funda hen\u00fcz 20\u2019sindeymi\u015f. \u00d6zcan zaten Bulgaristan\u2019da bir sene atlad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan Lise 3\u2019e girmi\u015f. Ama o da \u00fcniversiteyi d\u00f6rt sene yerine \u00fc\u00e7 senede bitirmi\u015f. T\u00fcrk\u00e7e dersleri almak ihtiyac\u0131 ile daha h\u0131zland\u0131rmam\u0131\u015f okulu. Sonra Maxim Vengerov\u2019la \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken keman\u0131n yan\u0131 s\u0131ra violay\u0131 da sanat\u0131na katm\u0131\u015f \u00d6zcan.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3745074593\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-45-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><b>\u2018Elit tabakaya \u00e7almamak bir kay\u0131p de\u011fil\u2019<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Sanat\u0131n ve sanat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcceltildi\u011fi bir sistemden sonra T\u00fcrkiye onlar i\u00e7in hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131 oldu mu diye merak ediyorum. \u0130kisi birden \u201cYa\u015fad\u0131k\u201d diyorlar. Birsen ekliyor: \u201cBiz t\u00fcm sanatlar\u0131n bir oldu\u011funu bilerek b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck ailede. Bulgaristan\u2019daki sistem de bunu destekliyordu.\u201d \u00d6zcan hay\u00e2l k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tedavi edecek bir taraf yakalam\u0131\u015f: \u201cVatansever duygularla geldik\u201d diyor, \u201cVe nas\u0131l d\u00fcnya bu koca evrende yaln\u0131zl\u0131k hissi ya\u015f\u0131yorsa, T\u00fcrkiye de ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, model bir \u0130slam \u00fclkesi olmak yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fcnyada. Bu \u00e7ok \u00e7etin bir i\u015f. O y\u00fczden anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Birsen, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de, konservatuvar ortam\u0131nda, m\u00fczi\u011fin, b\u00fct\u00fcn sanatlar\u0131n bir dal\u0131 oldu\u011funa dair fark\u0131ndal\u0131k hissedilmemesinden \u00fczg\u00fcn. \u00d6zcan ise e\u011fitim kurumunda \u2018bohemlik\u2019 duygusunun verilmemesi gerekti\u011fine inan\u0131yor. \u201cBohem sanat\u00e7\u0131 yeteneklidir ama tembeldir\u201d diyor ve ekliyor: \u201cBug\u00fcn sanat ego ve h\u0131rsa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Egoyu beslemek ard\u0131nda yap\u0131lan sanat, sanat de\u011fildir. Bizim g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz idealist ve ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z olmam\u0131z. Kendi ya\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda kavruluruz. Biraz da g\u00f6lgede durup arada bir \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131 severiz. G\u00f6lgedeki sanat\u00e7\u0131 tavr\u0131n\u0131 seviyorum. Elit bir tabaka-n\u0131n \u00fcnl\u00fc etti\u011fi konser salonlar\u0131nda \u00e7almaman\u0131n kay\u0131p olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc-yorum. S\u00fcreyya\u2019da \u00e7alman\u0131n, \u00c2\u015f\u0131k Veysel gibi k\u00f6y meydan\u0131nda m\u00fczik yapman\u0131n daha \u00e7ok de\u011fer ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yorum. Arada bir \u2018flash\u2019lar da g\u00fcven veriyor bana. Me\u015fhur bir sahnede g\u00f6r\u00fcnmek iyi ama s\u00fcrekli olmamas\u0131 ho\u015fuma gidiyor.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Birsen \u201cK\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yerlerde samimiyetle m\u00fczik yapmay\u0131 istiyoruz\u201d diye ekliyor, \u201cSenede 40 konserimiz oluyor ve yeterince me\u015fguliyet bu. Ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, h\u00fcrriyet duygusuyla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yoruz. Pop\u00fcler anlamda \u00e7ok yo\u011fun bir yerde de\u011filiz ama sanat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131k da pop\u00fclarite de\u011fil bizim i\u00e7in. Bir g\u00fcn paras\u0131z konser verebilmek istiyoruz. Felsefi olarak sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc-\u011f\u00fcnden yanay\u0131z.\u201d \u0130kilinin yeni \u00e7\u0131kan CD\u2019leri \u2018Saga\u2019 asl\u0131nda be\u015f sene \u00f6nce pl\u00e2nlad\u0131klar\u0131 bir \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma. \u201cVerecek ki\u015fisel bir s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz, mesaj\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131 ama imk\u00e2nlar ancak elverdi\u201d diyorlar.<\/p>\n<p>Burada sayamayaca\u011f\u0131m ba\u015far\u0131lar, ta\u00e7land\u0131r\u0131lan e\u011fitimler, alk\u0131\u015flar, \u00f6d\u00fcller zenginli\u011findeki Ulucan Karde\u015flerin en mini\u011fi Ay\u015fen Londra\u2019da oturuyor 21 Kas\u0131m\u2019da Bursa Senfoni konserinde a\u011fabeyine piyanoda e\u015flik etmek \u00fczere, sekiz ayl\u0131k bebe\u011fini kucaklay\u0131p gelecek. Aral\u0131k ay\u0131 Ulucan Karde\u015fler\u2019in silsile konserleri ile dolu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-4166666884\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-50-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ruhlar\u0131na ve sanatlar\u0131na a\u015fkla ba\u011fl\u0131 Ulucan karde\u015flerle, \u00d6zcan\u2019\u0131n sesinden annesinin bir \u015fiiriyle vedala\u015f\u0131yoruz: \u2018\u00dc\u00e7gen\u2019 \u015fiirin ad\u0131. \u201cBak ben ne resmi yapt\u0131m\/ Bir \u00fc\u00e7gen, tepesi yukarda\/ Hay\u0131r bu da\u011f de\u011fil\/ Ben kederin resmini yapt\u0131m da\u011fa kadar\/ Bak ben ne resmi yapt\u0131m\/ Pencere \u00f6n\u00fcnde sandalye\/ Hay\u0131r bu g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc de\u011fil\/ Ben sevginin resmini yapt\u0131m\/ G\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6lgenin sanat\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131, sanat\u0131n \u00f6zg\u00fcr-leri, \u2018Dertli Kaval\u2019\u0131n torunlar\u0131, benim g\u00fczel karde\u015flerim, yollar\u0131n\u0131z a\u00e7\u0131k, alk\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z sa\u011fa-nak, sevginiz g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc kadar olsun.<\/p>\n<p>Sizi seviyorum&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Nermin Bezmen<\/p><div id=\"bghab-704825201\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-55-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<div id=\"bghab-408536381\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bulgaristan\u2019dan g\u00f6\u00e7 ederken garajda yar\u0131\u015fmaya haz\u0131rland\u0131lar. \u0130lk \u00f6d\u00fcllerini 9 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken ald\u0131lar.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":29,"featured_media":8201,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[30],"class_list":["post-8200","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yorum","tag-bulgaristan"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/11\/nermin-bezmen.jpg?fit=400%2C520&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-28g","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8200","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/29"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8200"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8200\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/8201"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8200"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8200"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8200"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}