{"id":6413,"date":"2013-09-14T19:06:59","date_gmt":"2013-09-14T16:06:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=6413"},"modified":"2016-09-18T15:23:46","modified_gmt":"2016-09-18T12:23:46","slug":"kin-gutme-hastaligi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/kin-gutme-hastaligi\/","title":{"rendered":"Kin g\u00fctme hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"
Kat\u0131rt\u0131rnaklar\u0131 (akasyalar) bu y\u0131l yazla erken vedala\u015f\u0131yor, sanki bahara ve yaza k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fler ve k\u0131\u015f so\u011fu\u011funda kinlerini dondurmak istiyorlar. \u00c7ocukluk y\u0131llar\u0131nda ba\u011flanan kin unutulur mu?<\/div>\n
Birine kar\u015f\u0131 kin duyan \u00f6\u00e7 alma duygusundan kurtulabilir mi?<\/div>\n
Bir ki\u015fiye kar\u015f\u0131 duyulan kin b\u00fct\u00fcn bir halk toplulu\u011funa kar\u015f\u0131 sonsuz bir \u00f6fkeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015febilir mi?<\/div>\n
\u00d6\u00e7 alma duygusu bir insan\u0131n can\u0131na, kan\u0131na, beynine ve kimli\u011fine i\u015flemi\u015fse bu hastal\u0131ktan kurtulmak m\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/div>\n
Kin hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u015fifas\u0131 var m\u0131d\u0131r?<\/div>\n
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\"Nafiye<\/a>
Nafiye Y\u0131lmaz<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Kar\u015f\u0131mdaki bah\u00e7ede yapraklar\u0131 kuruyunca bir sere uzam\u0131\u015f kat\u0131rt\u0131rna\u011f\u0131 dikenlerine bakt\u0131k\u00e7a, yapraklarla onlar da d\u00f6k\u00fclecek mi,<\/b> diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm de, d\u00f6k\u00fclseler ne olacak, gelecek bahar yenileri biterler, oldu, kendi kendime cevab\u0131m.<\/div>\n

Kin<\/b>, birine kar\u015f\u0131 duyulan \u00f6\u00e7<\/b> alma iste\u011finin bizdeki ad\u0131, garazd\u0131r.<\/div>\n
Garazl\u0131 <\/b>k\u00f6t\u00fc insanlar i\u00e7in kullan\u0131l\u0131r. K\u00f6t\u00fc olan insan genelde iyile\u015fmez.<\/div>\n
Bu cumartesi g\u00fcn\u00fc Stratejik ara\u015ft\u0131rma merkezinde bu konuda yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z tart\u0131\u015fmada, Bulgaristan T\u00fcrkeri\u2019nin kendilerine yani T\u00fcrklere, T\u00fcrk halk\u0131na, T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011fe garaz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f ve bu hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131 her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn ilerleyen insanlar taraf\u0131ndan y\u00f6netildi\u011fi sonucuna vard\u0131k. Biz bu insanlardan iyilik bekleyemeyiz. Delilerin yarar\u0131 kendilerine bile olmaz.<\/div>\n
B\u00fcy\u00fck bir iddia, fakat kan\u0131tlanabilir bir tez<\/b>.<\/div>\n
Kin, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz varolu\u015fumuz boyu bizimle olan bir husustur.<\/div>\n
T\u00fcrk halk k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn yarat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck ozan Yunus Emre \u015f\u00f6yle demi\u015ftir:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ad\u0131m\u0131z miskindir bizim.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u00fc\u015fman\u0131m\u0131z kindir bizim.<\/i><\/div>\n
Miskin s\u00f6z\u00fc, yine bizim leh\u00e7emizde uyu\u015fuk, tepki g\u00f6stermeyen kimse, hatta c\u00fczam hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131na tutulmu\u015f olan kimse i\u00e7in kullan\u0131l\u0131r. Asl\u0131nda olup bitenin fark\u0131na varmas\u0131 y\u00fczy\u0131llar alan insan\u0131m\u0131z hakk\u0131nda yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7ok do\u011fru bir tespittir.<\/div>\n
Kine gelince. Konuya, Di\u015f Hekimi Sn.A. Halide \u00dcmitfer\u2019in ge\u00e7en hafta yay\u0131nlanan yaz\u0131s\u0131ndan \u015fu al\u0131nt\u0131yla girmek istiyorum:<\/div>\n
\u201cHayat g\u00fczel olsayd\u0131, do\u011farken a\u011flamazd\u0131k; ya\u015farken temiz kalsayd\u0131k, \u00f6l\u00fcnce y\u0131kanmazd\u0131k!<\/i>\u201d<\/div>\n
\u0130nsanlar\u0131n kinle, kin besleyerek, garaz tutmak i\u00e7in d\u00fcnyaya geldi\u011fine inanm\u0131yorum.<\/b><\/div>\n
Yaratan\u0131n her an d\u00fcnyada b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sonsuz olan \u201cn\u201d say\u0131da yeni \u015feyler do\u011furdu\u011fu ve yine \u201cn\u201d say\u0131da ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 dolduran \u015feyi al\u0131p, de\u011fi\u015ferek yeniden do\u011fmalar\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7\u00f6pe att\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, kin de, ya\u015fam i\u00e7inde, hayat ko\u015fullar\u0131n\u0131n etkisi alt\u0131nda olu\u015fan, do\u011fan, beliren ve geli\u015fen, geli\u015ftik\u00e7e kat\u0131la\u015f\u0131p katmerle\u015fen, ac\u0131kt\u0131k\u00e7a zehirlemek isteyen, yap\u0131lan bir k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 daha b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck yaparak \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k\u00e7a, intikam alma hevesi artan; derin iz b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6t\u00fc bir davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 cezaland\u0131rmak i\u00e7in devaml\u0131 f\u0131rsat kollay\u0131p kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermek isteyen, \u015f\u00f6yle de diyebilirim, tuzlu deniz suyu i\u00e7enin i\u00e7tik\u00e7e susad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, ya da kat\u0131rt\u0131rnaklar\u0131n\u0131n her y\u0131l daha da b\u00fcy\u00fck, daha da sivri, bir o kadar daha zehirli dikenlerinin hep b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi bir \u015fey.<\/b><\/div>\n
Art\u0131k bilim ilac\u0131n\u0131 buldu bulacak duruma geldi\u011finden dolay\u0131 kanser <\/b>gibi demek istemiyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kanser art\u0131k tedavi edilen illetlerden oldu ama kin<\/b> hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/b> \u201c\u00f6z\u00fcr dilerim\u201d, \u201cbayramla\u015fal\u0131m da unutal\u0131m\u201d t\u00fcr\u00fcnden bir \u015fey de\u011fildir.<\/div>\n
Kin illeti<\/b> edebiyat\u0131m\u0131za \u015f\u00f6yle girmi\u015ftir: \u201cSen \u00f6z baban\u0131n \u00f6c\u00fcn\u00fc almad\u0131n diye o da dedesinin ah\u0131n\u0131 yerde mi koyacak?\u201d <\/i>N. Hikmet. \u015eu t\u00fcmcemi y\u00fczde y\u00fcz inanarak ve vicdan\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcme koyarak yaz\u0131yorum. Biz Bulgaristan T\u00fcrkleri g\u00f6n\u00fcl borcu, minnet nedir bilen bir halk toplulu\u011fuyuz, \u00f6\u00e7 alma damarlar\u0131m\u0131za i\u015flememi\u015f, kan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 devaml\u0131 kaynatmaz, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc intikamc\u0131l\u0131k belirlese topraklar\u0131m\u0131z ter de\u011fil, \u00a0kan kokard\u0131.<\/b><\/div>\n
Konumuza d\u00f6nelim: <\/b>Kin insan dokusunda do\u011fu\u015ftan yoktur, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6\u00e7 alma maksatl\u0131 ve hedefli bir duygudur. \u0130nsan\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck beyni do\u011fu\u015ftan bo\u015ftur. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck beyin ya da omurga ili\u011fi ana ba\u011fr\u0131ndaki olu\u015fumdan ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7izgi belirtilerinde \u201ckeskin g\u00f6zl\u00fcl\u00fck\u201d, \u201ciyi i\u015fitme\u201d, \u201chareketlilik\u201d \u201ciskelet yap\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6zellikleri\u201d vb. ta\u015f\u0131sa da, insan\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya ho\u015f geldi\u011finde sinir sistemi<\/b> olu\u015fmu\u015ftur ama y\u00fckl\u00fc de\u011fildir.<\/b><\/div>\n
Psi\u015fi\u011fimiz, yani s\u00fcrekli tetikte duru\u015f halinde olan ruh halimiz, kinle y\u00fcklendik\u00e7e, \u00f6\u00e7 alma enerjisi \u00fcretir<\/b>, ard\u0131ndan ikiy\u00fczl\u00fcl\u00fck, gizli ya da a\u00e7\u0131k tutumlar ve sald\u0131r\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve tecav\u00fcz do\u011far.<\/div>\n
Somut ya da genel sald\u0131r\u0131ya ge\u00e7ilemedi\u011fi durumda, yan\u0131 durum k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck yap\u0131larak \u00f6\u00e7 al\u0131nmas\u0131na elveri\u015fli de\u011filse,\u00a0 \u00f6\u00e7 alma motoru elektrik \u00fcreten bir jenerat\u00f6r gibi devaml\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, \u00e7\u0131\u011f gibi kin y\u00fckler.<\/div>\n
Kin y\u00fckleme s\u00fcreci insan iradesi d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda geli\u015fen bir s\u00fcre\u00e7tir. Bundan dolay\u0131 kin insan dokular\u0131na do\u011fu\u015fundan sonra i\u015fler sav\u0131, kabul\u00fcmd\u00fcr. \u00c7ocu\u011fun kan\u0131na kaynayan \u00f6\u00e7 alma duygusu, \u00f6nce sinsilik, f\u0131rsat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131k, fesatl\u0131k, kavgac\u0131l\u0131k vb. tutumlar yarat\u0131r.<\/div>\n
Kin tutkusu derinle\u015firse \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu temizlenmez ve kan kanseri gibi tehlikeli bir hal al\u0131r. Kin besleyen insanlar hileli, sinsi, suskun, bencil, kapal\u0131 olurlar. \u0130nsan onlar\u0131n suskunlu\u011funu \u201cak\u0131l k\u00fcp\u00fc\u201d diye nitelese de, s\u0131rlar\u0131 kin enerjisini besleyen gizemdir. Onlar, kimsenin tahmin etmedi\u011fi bir kayna\u011fa sahip olan ki\u015filerdir. Gizemli s\u0131rlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, onlardan kendi kendilerini yok etmek, \u00e7\u0131ld\u0131rmak veya intihar etmek beklenir. Yenge\u00e7 \u00f6rne\u011fi. Bu teorik ve pratik deneysel d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri psikolog Friedrich Nitzsche\u2019den aktard\u0131m.<\/div>\n
M\u00fcsaadenizle olay\u0131n ger\u00e7ekli\u011fi ile ilgili \u00f6rneklemelerimi herkes\u00e7e bilinen ve hayat\u0131 kitaplara ve Bulgar bas\u0131n\u0131na y\u0131llard\u0131r konu olan Ahmet Do\u011fan \u00f6rne\u011fiyle a\u00e7\u0131klayay\u0131m.<\/div>\n
Bu incelemede yer alan verilere ula\u015fabilmem, y\u0131llar \u00f6nce Kas\u0131m Dal\u2019\u0131n Bulgar Millet Meclisi\u2019ne sundu\u011fu Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck Hareketi milletvekillerinin oylar\u0131yla kabul edilen \u201cDosyalar Yasas\u0131\u201d ile m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu. 10 cilt olan ve Bulgaristan\u2019da T\u00fcrklere ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlara kar\u015f\u0131 y\u0131llarca aras\u0131z y\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fclen amans\u0131z ve ilkeli m\u00fccadelenin parlak bir \u00f6rne\u011fi gibi parmakla g\u00f6sterilen, bu dev ajanl\u0131k eseri yani Ahmet Do\u011fan Dosyas\u0131<\/b> \u201cSergey\u201d,\u00a0 \u201cSava\u201d, \u201cAngelov\u201d ve \u201cD\u00f6nek\u201d kod isimleriyle ciltlenmi\u015ftir. Bulgaristan\u2019da ya\u015fayan T\u00fcrklere kar\u015f\u0131 Bulgar dilinde kaleme al\u0131nan bu devas\u0131 yaz\u0131mda Ahmet \u0130smailov Ahmedov \u2013 bug\u00fcnk\u00fc H\u00d6H Fahri Ba\u015fkan\u0131 Ahmet Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n hakiki ad\u0131, baba ad\u0131 ve soyad\u0131d\u0131r. Ahmet 1976 y\u0131l\u0131nda in\u015faat eriyken, hi\u00e7 itiraz etmeden, \u00a0gizli Bulgar servis ajan\u0131 olmay\u0131 kabul etmi\u015f ve \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna kadar onun hayat\u0131n\u0131 kay\u0131ts\u0131z ko\u015fulsuz Bulgar gizli servisi belirlemi\u015ftir. Bu dosya a\u00e7\u0131klanmazdan \u00f6nce Kas\u0131m Dal\u2019\u0131n A. Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n bir DC ajan\u0131 oldu\u011funu bilmemesi de insan\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtan ba\u015fka bir mucizedir. Ge\u00e7erli olan atas\u00f6z\u00fc \u201ckarga kargan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131karmaz\u201d olabilir mi?<\/div>\n
Bunlar can kan dostu. Kas\u0131m bu i\u015fi ka\u00e7a yapt\u0131, ba\u015fka bir s\u0131r kutusu da budur. Devam edelim:<\/div>\n
\u015eu hususa dikkat etmemiz gerekir. Bulgar gizli servisi (DC) ya da bug\u00fcnk\u00fc ad\u0131yla (DANS) harikalar makinesi de\u011fildir yani erikten armut, sudan odun, pamuktan alt\u0131n yapamaz.<\/div>\n
\u0130nsan neyse odur, insan \u00f6z\u00fcndeki de\u011fi\u015fim ve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm birikimi ancak keskinle\u015ftirilir ya da k\u00f6rle\u015ftirile bilinir.<\/div>\n
\u00d6rne\u011fin Bulgar okullar\u0131nda ve Bulgar ordusunda yo\u011fun anti-T\u00fcrk e\u011fitim sonucu Bulgar milliyet\u00e7ili\u011fi ya da \u0131rk\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olu\u015fur ama bu ancak bir kimlik dokusu \u015feklindedir, ki\u015fisel temelde sald\u0131r\u0131, taciz do\u011furmas\u0131 devlet\u00e7e engellenir, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu has\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fczerinde bir de milli huzur gerektiren Hristiyanl\u0131k ve tolerans erdemi vard\u0131r. Oysa bizde T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131,\u00a0 Bulgarla\u015ft\u0131rmayla birlikte \u0131rk\u00e7\u0131 devlet politikas\u0131 yani totalitarizm \u015fekli almas\u0131yla Arapsa\u00e7\u0131 gibi kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/div>\n
Ahmet Do\u011fan \u00f6rne\u011finde, Ahmet,\u00a0 bir Bulgar milliyet\u00e7isi, bir \u0131rk\u00e7\u0131 de\u011fildir. Bulgarla\u015ft\u0131rmay\u0131 desteklemi\u015ftir ama totaliter \u015fiddete \u201cevet\u201d dedi\u011fini kan\u0131tlayan belge yoktur. Onun durumuna ba\u015fka bir a\u00e7\u0131dan bakmazsak \u00e7izgileri do\u011fru okuyamay\u0131z. Ahmet\u2019in T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 1976 y\u0131l\u0131nda \u201cben g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olarak Bulgar gizli servisi i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m<\/b>\u201d taahh\u00fctnamesini imzalamas\u0131yla ba\u015flamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bulgar gizli servisi onu T\u00fcrk \u015fubesinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya mayalanm\u0131\u015f, kini birikmi\u015f, \u00f6fkesi kabarm\u0131\u015f, sald\u0131r\u0131ya haz\u0131r bulmu\u015ftur.<\/b><\/div>\n
Ahmet\u2019in askere al\u0131nmazdan \u00f6nceki hayat\u0131 onu nesnel olarak, yan\u0131 d\u0131\u015f etken olmadan T\u00fcrklere d\u00fc\u015fman etmi\u015ftir. \u00d6yle yeti\u015fmi\u015ftir. Bi\u00e7imleni\u015fi budur.<\/div>\n
Camiye gitmeyen, T\u00fcrk\u00e7e okuma yazmas\u0131 olmayan bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden s\u00f6z edilemez. Onun T\u00fcrk kimli\u011finin olu\u015fturulmas\u0131na \u00e7aba g\u00f6sterilmemi\u015ftir. Bu y\u00fczden gizli servise ba\u011flanmas\u0131, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131n\u0131n mutlu sonucudur. Bu a\u00e7\u0131dan bak\u0131nca, Ahmet Do\u011fan\u2019\u0131n T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n, onu do\u011furdu\u011fu, bir \u015foparla yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131z ilk evlilikten 6 ay sonra bo\u015fanmas\u0131nda,\u00a0 ikinci evlili\u011fini bir T\u00fcrk\u2019le yapmas\u0131nda, \u00fcvey baban\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131 kabul etmesi, fakat Ahmet\u2019i d\u0131\u015flamas\u0131nda, her zaman ve her yerde ona \u00e7ok sert ve ac\u0131mas\u0131z davranmas\u0131nda aramal\u0131y\u0131z.<\/div>\n
\u00c7\u0131ban\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 i\u015fte buras\u0131d\u0131r. Do\u011fu\u015fta olmayan kin b\u00f6yle olu\u015fmu\u015ftur. Anas\u0131n\u0131 sevenin o\u011flunu kabul etmemesi bir trajik travmad\u0131r. Kinin bir \u00e7\u0131banba\u015f\u0131 gibi zonklayan kayna\u011f\u0131nda, annesini isteyen hem de \u00e7ocuk ard\u0131na \u00e7ocuk yapan \u00fcvey baban\u0131n, Ahmet\u2019i hor g\u00f6rmesi, onunla asla ilgilenmemesi, \u00a0paras\u0131z pulsuz b\u0131rakmas\u0131, evden kovmas\u0131 yatar.<\/div>\n
Bir d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n do\u011fmas\u0131 i\u00e7in bunlar yeterli ve ge\u00e7erli sebeplerdir. Bu d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131k \u0131rk\u00e7\u0131 bir nedenle do\u011fmu\u015ftur. \u015eopar bir baban\u0131n evlad\u0131n\u0131 T\u00fcrk bir baba kabullenmemi\u015f ve T\u00fcrk kimli\u011finden fazla rastlanmayan bir \u00f6zellik \u00e7izgisi \u2013 merhametsizlik \u00e7ocu\u011fun ya\u015fam \u00e7izgisinde belirleyici olmu\u015ftur. \u00a0Bu durumda Ahmet\u2019in hayat basamaklar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kabilmesi i\u00e7in ki, yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131na bunu yapabilecek maddi g\u00fcc\u00fc yoktur, cebinde be\u015f paras\u0131 yoktur, beliren gizli ili\u015fki onu \u015fans eseri bulmu\u015f ve f\u0131rsattan yararlan\u0131p g\u00fc\u00e7 alarak sivil polisle el ele vermi\u015ftir.<\/div>\n
Hayat yolu T\u00fcrkler aras\u0131na s\u0131z\u0131p muhbirlik yapmak olmu\u015f ve bu 40 y\u0131l s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. T\u00fcrkler aras\u0131nda muhbirlik yapmas\u0131 kin besledi\u011fi babas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 da kaplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in huzurludur.<\/div>\n
\u00d6\u00e7 alma defteri b\u00f6yle a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/div>\n
Bulgaristan\u2019da T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bug\u00fcn de bitmemi\u015ftir, Ahmet Do\u011fan T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bitirememi\u015ftir, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Bulgaristan\u2019da T\u00fcrklerden \u00f6\u00e7 almak bir kad\u0131nla e\u015fle\u015fmek gibi bir mutluk kayna\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00f6\u00e7e zorlasan mal\u0131na m\u00fclk\u00fcne konars\u0131n, gitmeyenlerin oyunu al\u0131rs\u0131n. Her ikisi de kazan\u00e7t\u0131r. Bu kazan\u00e7l\u0131 ili\u015fkide o T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 oldu\u011funu asla a\u00e7\u0131klamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, a\u00e7\u0131klamad\u0131k\u00e7a kazan\u00e7l\u0131 olmu\u015ftur. T\u00fcrklere, Pomaklara ve M\u00fcsl\u00fcmanlara k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck yapmak akan su gibi bir \u015feydir, akan dere akt\u0131k\u00e7a dolar.<\/div>\n
Y\u0131llar onu yormu\u015f, \u00fcvey babas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, kin besledi\u011fi a\u00e7\u0131klanmas\u0131n diye adam\u0131n hesab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rememi\u015f ama cenazesine de gitmemi\u015ftir, ba\u015fka T\u00fcrklerin cenazesine de gitmemi\u015ftir, art\u0131k i\u015f arkada\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda T\u00fcrk kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r, yan\u0131na baz\u0131 \u00c7ingeneleri toplam\u0131\u015f, onlar da onun kokusunu yabanc\u0131 bulmu\u015flar ve ondan uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015flard\u0131r, sonra h\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131 T\u00fcrk k\u0131zlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131karmay\u0131 denemi\u015f, evlenmi\u015f bo\u015fanm\u0131\u015f evlenmi\u015f bo\u015fanm\u0131\u015f ondan da bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f, herkesle \u00e7\u0131kar ili\u015fkisi kurulabilir ama kin g\u00fctme, \u00f6\u00e7 alma \u00e7\u0131kar ili\u015fkisi de\u011fildir, bu bir d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131kt\u0131r ve ancak ba\u015fka bir d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131kla \u00e7iftle\u015fir.<\/div>\n
Bundan dolay\u0131 y\u0131llar i\u00e7inde, Saray\u2019da kapal\u0131 ya\u015faya ya\u015faya ancak hille \u00fcreten ve bu hilelerle T\u00fcrklere olan h\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131 ve \u00f6fkesini yava\u015f yava\u015f ama m\u00fctemadiyen almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir cellat durumuna gelmi\u015ftir.<\/div>\n
Kin g\u00fctme hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131na ila\u00e7 bulunamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r ve bulunamayacakt\u0131r bu \u015fifas\u0131 olmayan bir ruhsal durumdur. \u00d6z\u00fcnde siz beni istemediniz ama bak\u0131n ben ne oldum, hepinizi s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrece\u011fim psikolojisi yatar.<\/div>\n
Evet, s\u00fcr\u00fcnen s\u00fcr\u00fcnmeye devam ettik\u00e7e s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcren mutludur.<\/div>\n
Evet, sevgili dostlar\u0131m i\u015fte bu durumdan kurtulmal\u0131y\u0131z.<\/div>\n
Bu yaz\u0131m\u0131 yazmam\u0131n nedeni, kat\u0131rt\u0131rna\u011f\u0131 dikenlerine bakt\u0131k\u00e7a \u00fcrpermemdir. S\u00fcr\u00fcnenleri g\u00f6rd\u00fck\u00e7e \u00fcz\u00fclmemdir.<\/div>\n
Yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 okuduk\u00e7a d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemdir. Hepinizi ben de \u00e7ok seviyorum.<\/div>\n
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