{"id":55091,"date":"2021-09-25T15:48:25","date_gmt":"2021-09-25T12:48:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=55091"},"modified":"2021-09-30T23:38:33","modified_gmt":"2021-09-30T20:38:33","slug":"nefesimizi-kesen-anlarla-olculur-hayat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/nefesimizi-kesen-anlarla-olculur-hayat\/","title":{"rendered":"Nefesimizi kesen anlarla \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcr HAYAT"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><em>Raziye \u00c7AKIR<br \/>\n<\/em><\/strong>Bu hafta \u0130stanbul\u2019a ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015fen Eyl\u00fcl dolusu nefes kesti. \u00d6ncesi b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Korkun\u00e7tu! Bin bir klakson birden a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, araba kaportalar\u0131 baraban oldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eefi ve \u00e7alg\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 olmayan bu \u015fehir orkestras\u0131 romantikti diyemeyece\u011fim, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131 izleyen g\u00f6k g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc parti t\u00fcr\u00fcn tamamen d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011fundan, perdemi \u00e7ektim ama a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131mda kar\u015f\u0131mdaki do\u011fall\u0131k bir harikayd\u0131: Do\u011fa dinmi\u015f, son damlalar yapraklar\u0131 ok\u015fayarak, birbirinin \u00f6n\u00fcne ge\u00e7meden, kendili\u011finden olu\u015fan s\u0131ray\u0131 hi\u00e7 bozmadan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. Da\u011flardan ya\u011fmur taneleri \u0131rmak olup barajlar\u0131 dolduruyor oradan da Marmara denizine ak\u0131yordu. Yaprak \u00fczerindeki do\u011fal d\u00fc\u015fme s\u0131ras\u0131, topluma bir uyar\u0131 de\u011fil de neydi? Evet bu g\u00fczellik benim de nefesimi kesti.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Bu hafta nefesimi kesen bir ba\u015fka olay da oldu.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>So\u011fan zar\u0131n\u0131n kokusunun \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, ihbar ve ihanet lekesinin de aklanmaz oldu\u011funu anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ge\u00e7enlerdeki yaz\u0131mdan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc bana idam ipi g\u00f6sterenlere g\u00fclerken nefesim kesildi. Arkada\u015f\u0131m Semra yan\u0131mda olmasayd\u0131, olabilir ya, \u00e7ekip gidecektim.<br \/>\nKarde\u015fim sen diyenlere bakma sen bir tarih yaz\u0131yorsun onlar ise d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kald\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in seni k\u0131skan\u0131yorlar deyiverdi. O zaman bu haftaki yaz\u0131m\u0131 bekleyenlere yaz\u0131k olacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-410788712\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>Ben t\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00f6resinden, ekme\u011fi bile t\u00fct\u00fcn kokan soylar\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131y\u0131m. <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Memleketimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fck\u00e7e, ba\u015f\u0131nda kepe, s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f sigaras\u0131 duda\u011f\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f sallanan, cami duvar\u0131na dayal\u0131 kara ta\u015fta oturan (\u00c7olak) M\u00fcmin dede g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnden gitmiyor. Ka\u00e7ak sigaran\u0131n hayat ate\u015fi bitmi\u015f de olsa, dudakta sallanmas\u0131 anlams\u0131z da olsa, M\u00fcmin dede elini uzat\u0131p onu kopar\u0131p atm\u0131yordu. Bu anlams\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n anlam\u0131 neydi?<\/p>\n<p>M\u00fcmin dede sigaras\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 a\u011f\u0131zl\u0131kla i\u00e7medi. O kendini bildi bileli ve t\u00fct\u00fcne sevdalanal\u0131 kendi t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc, havanda kendi k\u0131yd\u0131, k\u0131z sa\u00e7\u0131 telleri sigaraya yava\u015f yava\u015f tek tel d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmeden sard\u0131, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u00fck\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fc zamk gibi oldu\u011fundan, onun sard\u0131\u011f\u0131 ka\u00e7aklar s\u00f6k\u00fclmezdi. Ka\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ona sard\u0131rmak i\u00e7in hem\u015ferilerinin s\u0131raya durduklar\u0131 olurdu. \u015eu an duda\u011f\u0131nda halen sallanan ucu k\u00fcll\u00fc sigaras\u0131na ate\u015f uzatt\u0131\u011f\u0131na hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlamasa da son zamanlarda duda\u011f\u0131nda kalmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Ans\u0131z\u0131n 30 y\u0131l \u00f6nceyi an\u0131msad\u0131.<\/strong><br \/>\nO zamanlar gen\u00e7ti, nefesi ve t\u00fct\u00fcn kokusu ba\u015fkayd\u0131. \u015eimdi o kokuyu nefes etmeye a\u00e7t\u0131. \u00d6yle ama son zamanda ipini \u00e7eke \u00e7eke s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fu hayat var ya, iyi olan herhangi bir \u015feyden bir tutam c\u0131k saklay\u0131p, can\u0131n \u00e7ekti\u011fi an, geri vermiyordu. Kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda olsa, tutup kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fckecekti. Beklenmeyenler kaderdendir, deyip kabullenirdi. Ya\u015fl\u0131yd\u0131 ve sanki hi\u00e7 var olmam\u0131\u015f gibi yok oluyordu. \u00d6mr\u00fc \u00f6m\u00fcrden say\u0131lacak m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>M\u00fcmin dedenin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri tam bu noktada nefes kesen bir hik\u00e2yeye dal\u0131yordu:<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3389949586\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>\u00d6m\u00fcrden Saymay\u0131z,<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn bizimkilerden biri, bir k\u00f6y mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7erken bir \u015fey dikkatini \u00e7ekmi\u015f. Mezarl\u0131ktaki b\u00fct\u00fcn mezarlar\u0131n \u00fczerindeki ta\u015flarda: <strong><em>\u201cBe\u015f y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131; \u00dc\u00e7 y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131; Sekiz y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131\u201d <\/em><\/strong>gibi yaz\u0131lar g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6ye varm\u0131\u015f. K\u00f6yl\u00fcler konu\u011fu k\u00f6y odas\u0131nda misafir etmi\u015fler. Yemek yenilip sohbet ba\u015flay\u0131nca misafir k\u00f6y\u00fcn ileri gelenlerine sormu\u015f<strong><em>:\u201cMerak ettim. K\u00f6ye gelirken mezarl\u0131ktan ge\u00e7tim. Mezarl\u0131kta bir \u015fey dikkatimi \u00e7ekti. B\u00fct\u00fcn mezar ta\u015flar\u0131nda \u201cBe\u015f y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131; \u00dc\u00e7 y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131; Sekiz y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131\u201d<\/em><\/strong> gibi ifadeler yaz\u0131yor. \u201c<strong><em>Oysa bu mezarlar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011fu y\u0131llar boyu ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f, ihtiyarlam\u0131\u015f ve vefat etmi\u015f insanlara ait. Ni\u00e7in b\u00f6yle yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, bunun nedenini \u00e7ok merak ettim,\u201d<\/em><\/strong> demi\u015f.<\/p>\n<p><strong>K\u00f6y\u00fcn ileri gelenleri cevap vermi\u015fler:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u201cBiz \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc dostlar\u0131m\u0131zla, sevgiyle ve mutlulukla bir arada ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz zamanla de\u011ferlendiririz. Di\u011fer zamanlar\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcrden saymay\u0131z!\u201d<\/p><div id=\"bghab-68450341\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>Soruyorum.<\/strong> Bizi devletin karanl\u0131k g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kullanan s\u00f6zde y\u00f6neticileri ile aldat\u0131l\u0131p 30 y\u0131ld\u0131r uyutuldu\u011fumuza g\u00f6re, mezar ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131za ne yaz\u0131lacak. M\u00fcmin dedenin de cevab\u0131n\u0131 bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 soru buydu. Aldat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, yalan r\u00fcyalarda ya\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir adam\u0131n mezar ta\u015f\u0131na ne yaz\u0131l\u0131r!<\/p>\n<p>Bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, bazen k\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z kapaklar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f sigaras\u0131 duda\u011f\u0131nda sallanmaya devam ediyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ard\u0131ndan kendine geldi\u011finde istemese de, BSP Koca Balkan\u2019\u0131n <strong><em>\u201cBuzluca\u201d<\/em><\/strong> tepesine beton y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ANIT dikti, \u015fimdi meyhane olmu\u015f, \u015fayet b\u00f6yle bir an\u0131t ta\u015f\u0131 dikilse, <strong><em>\u201cV\u0130SK\u0130 BAR\u201d<\/em><\/strong> olur diyenler hakl\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131? Mezar\u0131 ta\u015fs\u0131z kalsa\u2026 Bulgar \u00c7ar\u2019\u0131n\u0131n bile an\u0131t\u0131 yoktu. An\u0131t-s\u0131z olur ama ta\u015fs\u0131z mezar ta\u015f\u0131 olmadan olmazd\u0131! M\u00fcmin dede d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye devam etsin, ben sizlere nefesimi kesen bir ba\u015fka olay\u0131 da anlatmak istiyorum.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Sevgi suyu<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bir keresinde bana \u00e7ok yak\u0131n bir arkada\u015f\u0131m olmu\u015ftu. Bir g\u00fcn arkada\u015f\u0131m o zamanlar Murat (\u015fimdi beyim) k\u00f6\u015fdere\u2019nin gay\u0131kl\u0131 g\u00f6l dedikleri g\u00f6l\u00fcn kenar\u0131nda otururken avu\u00e7lar\u0131ndan birini su ile doldurdu ve bana uzat\u0131p \u015funu s\u00f6yledi:<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3176275393\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong><em>\u201cElimde tuttu\u011fum bu suyu g\u00f6r\u00fcyor musun?<\/em><\/strong> Bu k\u00f6\u015fdere\u2019den akan sular\u0131m\u0131z <strong><em>\u201cSevgi\u201d<\/em><\/strong>yi sembolize eder. Ben bunu \u015f\u00f6yle g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Elini \u00f6zenle a\u00e7\u0131k tutar ve suyun (yani sevginin) orada kalmas\u0131na izin verirsen, her zaman orada kalacakt\u0131r. Ancak, parmaklar\u0131n\u0131 kapamaya kalkar ve ona sahip olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan buldu\u011fu ilk aral\u0131ktan ak\u0131p ka\u00e7ar.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131n s\u00f6zlerini hat\u0131rlad\u0131k\u00e7a iki \u015fey nefesimi kesiyor.<\/strong><\/p>\n<ol>\n<li>Bizim Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck davam\u0131z\u0131n zirvesi olan H\u00d6H partimizin daha kurulu\u015funda aldat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, oyuna getirilmi\u015f olmam\u0131z.<\/li>\n<li>Oyuna getirilmi\u015f de olsak partimizi \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fimiz i\u00e7in elimizden ka\u00e7\u0131rmam\u0131z.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<p>H\u00d6H partisi art\u0131k M\u00fcmin dedenin duda\u011f\u0131nda sallanan s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f sigara gibi kendisi var can\u0131 yok. Kendine <strong><em>\u201cYar\u0131 Tanr\u0131\u201d<\/em><\/strong> imaj\u0131 verenin eline ete\u011fine bak\u0131yorlar.<\/p>\n<p>Avrupa Birli\u011fi\u2019nden h\u00fck\u00fcmete gelecek paralar\u0131, 147 proje olarak k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ve yar\u0131 iri yani orta \u00f6zel \u015firketlere belediyeler ve devlet kurumlar\u0131 \u00fczerinden payla\u015ft\u0131racakm\u0131\u015f, tabii \u201cYar\u0131 Tanr\u0131 T\u00fcrklere, Pomaklara ve di\u011fer M\u00fcsl\u00fcman karde\u015flerimize d\u00fc\u015fen paylar V\u0130S, T\u0130M, S\u0130K mafya olu\u015fumlar\u0131na sunulacak, payla\u015f\u0131lacak yani nafakam\u0131z olan <strong><em>\u201csu\u201d<\/em><\/strong> bize verilirmi\u015f gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de parmaklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ak\u0131t\u0131l\u0131p gidecek.<\/p>\n<p>Hem, \u015fu M\u00fcmin dedenin mezar ta\u015f\u0131na ne yaz\u0131lacak? Size dan\u0131\u015fmak, sormak istiyorum: <strong><em>\u201cALDATILMI\u015e YA\u015eADI!\u201d<\/em><\/strong> desek, beni yine ipte asm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6rmek isterler mi, dersiniz?<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2077458908\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Bu da nefes kesici! \u0130yi Pazarlar.<\/p>\n<p>Payla\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-1092513003\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Raziye \u00c7AKIR Bu hafta \u0130stanbul\u2019a ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015fen Eyl\u00fcl dolusu nefes kesti. \u00d6ncesi b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim. Korkun\u00e7tu! Bin bir klakson birden a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, araba kaportalar\u0131<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":42430,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-55091","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/raziye-rsm.jpg?fit=230%2C342&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-ekz","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55091","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=55091"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/55091\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/42430"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=55091"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=55091"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=55091"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}