{"id":45146,"date":"2020-03-23T17:34:21","date_gmt":"2020-03-23T14:34:21","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=45146"},"modified":"2020-03-27T13:33:00","modified_gmt":"2020-03-27T10:33:00","slug":"naci-ferhadov-egridere-1940","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/naci-ferhadov-egridere-1940\/","title":{"rendered":"Naci Ferhadov (E\u011fridere, 1940)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>K\u0131rcaali&#8217;nin E\u011fridere (Ardino) kasabas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 Dedeler (D\u00e2dovsti) k\u00f6y\u00fcnde do\u011fdu. Lisenin son s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131na kadar E\u011fridere&#8217;de \u00f6\u011frenim g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Sofya \u00dcniversitesinin T\u00fcrkoloji Anabilim Dal\u0131ndan mezun oldu. &#8220;Yeni Hayat&#8221; dergisinde kadroya al\u0131nd\u0131. Birka\u00e7 y\u0131l Rodoplar&#8217;da \u00f6\u011fretmenlik yapt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Naci Ferhadov, daha 15 ya\u015flar\u0131ndayken ilk \u015fiiri bas\u0131ld\u0131. 1963 y\u0131l\u0131nda &#8220;Halk Gen\u00e7li\u011fi&#8221; gazetesinin bir edebiyat yar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131na &#8220;Ay\u015fe K\u0131z&#8221; \u015fiiriyle kat\u0131ld\u0131. Bundan sonra da yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fiirleriyle edebiyat \u00e7evrelerinin dikkatini \u00fczerine toplad\u0131. \u0130nsanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hayat\u0131, \u00e7ileleri ve mutlulu\u011fu, \u015fairin i\u015fledi\u011fi esas konulard\u0131. 1965&#8217;te &#8220;Da\u011fl\u0131 ve Deniz&#8221; ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 \u015fiir kitab\u0131 bas\u0131ld\u0131. Burada toplanm\u0131\u015f \u015fiirlerinde insanlar\u0131n g\u00fcncel hayat\u0131 dile getirilmektedir. T\u00fcrk\u00e7e yazma yasaklan\u0131nca, Bulgarca \u015fiirler yazd\u0131. <strong>Naci Ferhadov hakk\u0131nda Mehmet \u00c7avu\u015f&#8217;tan \u015fu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 okuyoruz:<\/strong><br \/>\n&#8220;\u0130nsanlar\u0131n hayat\u0131, kaderi ve mutlulu\u011fu meselelerini parti anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131yla \u015fiirle\u015ftirmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f ve bu hususta Hasan Karah\u00fcseyinov&#8217;la beraber ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 olmu\u015ftur.<\/p>\n<p><em><strong>\u015eiiri b\u00fcy\u00fck oldu\u011fu kadar oyunlan ve virajlar\u0131<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>da b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcr. Bulgarla\u015ft\u0131rma olay\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nce tepkiyle<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015f, neden sonra \u0131rk\u00e7\u0131 sosyalist rejimin,<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Hasan Karah\u00fcseyinov&#8217;la beraber savunucusu<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>olmu\u015f, sanat\u0131 ve insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ayakalt\u0131 ederek bencilli\u011fin sihirli kabu\u011funa s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.&#8221;<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>(Mehmet \u00c7avu\u015f, Antoloji, 1988, sf. 306-307) Bulgar Kom\u00fcnist Partisinin Bulgarlar\u0131n iste\u011fi do\u011frultusunda \u015fiirler yazmakla istidad\u0131n\u0131 harcad\u0131. Ancak, art\u0131k d\u00fcnya da de\u011fi\u015fti; bu hususta Naci Ferhadov da gecikmedi.<\/p>\n<p><em><strong>&#8220;Bu acayip mezarl\u0131kta bir \u015feyler ar\u0131yordum,<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Benli\u011fimi \u00e7i\u011fneyerek y\u0131llarca ad\u0131m ad\u0131m. Geni\u015f<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131lar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan Bana uzanan eller<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>T\u0131rnakm\u0131\u015f, ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m &#8220;<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\ndiyen \u015fair, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yolun bilan\u00e7osunu yaparak devam ediyor:<br \/>\n<em><strong>&#8220;Elde s\u0131f\u0131r, ak\u0131lda bir. H\u0131rpalanm\u0131\u015f ve yorgun<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Geldim kap\u0131n\u0131za, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm ad\u0131m ad\u0131m&#8230;<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Yapaca\u011f\u0131m bir tek i\u015f, bildi\u011fim ger\u00e7ekleri<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n<em><strong>Sa\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131na Hayk\u0131rmakm\u0131\u015f, anlad\u0131m&#8221;<\/strong><\/em><br \/>\n&#8220;Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck&#8221; gazetesinde bas\u0131lan en yeni \u015fiirlerinde ger\u00e7ek sanat yoluna d\u00f6nece\u011fine s\u00f6z veriyor ve okurlar\u0131n\u0131 umutland\u0131r\u0131yor.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-42093570\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/scontent.fist4-1.fna.fbcdn.net\/v\/t1.0-9\/55492867_10212607416210369_8795707986979848192_n.jpg?_nc_cat=109&amp;_nc_sid=8024bb&amp;_nc_ohc=axSueZBZVmEAX-we-zl&amp;_nc_ht=scontent.fist4-1.fna&amp;oh=995c4e69cfd359b181d64289f1c93646&amp;oe=5EA1D226\" alt=\"G\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn olas\u0131 i\u00e7eri\u011fi: 1 ki\u015fi, \u015funu diyen bir yaz\u0131 'Naci Ferhadov (D.10 Mart 1940- 2013) Benim sizden gizlendi\u011fim yerlerde sesi olana t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6ylemek yasak. Yaprak d\u00f6k\u00fcmleri ayak alt\u0131nda ku\u015flar dilini g\u00f6lgeleri y\u0131km\u0131\u015flar. Yaralara \u00e7i\u00e7ek getirmi\u015f kara G\u00fcne\u015f dersen mutlu yar\u0131ndan uzak. Aka ak diyenlerin bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131km\u0131\u015flar. Ya\u015fan\u0131r mi \u00f6yle yerde, hadi d\u00f6n gel, demeyin; Ya\u015fan\u0131yor, kad\u0131nlar k\u0131zlar \u00e7arp\u0131l\u0131yorsun hangisine vurulsan. Kiskanmak yok,ne g\u00fczel kim k\u0131skanacak ac\u0131y\u0131 yinele gen\u00e7li\u011fini durmadan. Oysa biliyorsun \u00e7oktan aynan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na kurulsan G\u00f6remezsin kendini g\u00f6zlerini yummadan. Naci Ferhadov Mayis 2007'\" \/><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u015e\u0130\u0130RLER<\/strong><br \/>\n<em><strong>AY\u015eE KIZ<\/strong> (\u0130brahim Tutarl\u0131, Antoloji, 1964, sf: 349-352)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Telli pullu horozlar\u0131 var ama,<br \/>\nAy\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcyle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn sabahlar\u0131.<br \/>\nEn erken uyan\u0131r Ay\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc<br \/>\nDola\u015f\u0131r kap\u0131 kap\u0131 ar\u015f\u0131nlar sokaklar\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nBir g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011far Vardar \u00fcst\u00fcnden<br \/>\nYama\u00e7lardan s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131r tepelerin g\u00f6lgesi.<br \/>\nS\u00fct kamyonu dayand\u0131 m\u0131 fermaya<br \/>\nKorkaklara meydan okur Ay\u015fenin sesi:<br \/>\n&#8211; \u00dc\u00e7 kilo plan \u00fcst\u00fc. Ya\u015fa Alaba\u015f! Yeni<br \/>\nrekor verece\u011fiz inan\u0131n buna!&#8230; Ve ate\u015fli<br \/>\nbir buse yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r<br \/>\nYarma yiyen ine\u011fin tozlu burnuna&#8230;<br \/>\n* * *<br \/>\nAy\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n do\u011fdu\u011fu g\u00fcn vurdular babas\u0131n\u0131.<br \/>\nBabas\u0131 kurban gitti bir s\u0131n\u0131f dalgas\u0131nda.<br \/>\nBir de annesi bilir nas\u0131l do\u011furdu\u011funu<br \/>\nNas\u0131l tuttu sanc\u0131lar i\u00e7ersinde kocas\u0131n\u0131n yas\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\nNas\u0131l yuttu zehirli bir hap gibi<br \/>\nEvin dire\u011finin yak\u0131l\u0131\u015fm\u0131,<br \/>\nSadece bir defa \u0131\u015f\u0131ldad\u0131 g\u00f6zleri.<br \/>\nVe Ay\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131 il\u00e2n etti sahneye \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131.<br \/>\nBu sevin\u00e7 son sevin\u00e7ti<br \/>\nBundan b\u00f6yle annesi hi\u00e7bir defa g\u00fclmedi.<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u00fcm tekrar atlad\u0131 kap\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fi\u011fini<br \/>\nAy\u015fe k\u0131z dal\u0131ndan kopmu\u015f bir yaprak gibi<br \/>\nD\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc &#8220;merhametli&#8221; Hac\u0131&#8217;nm kap\u0131s\u0131na<br \/>\nEkmek derdi sallad\u0131 be\u015fi\u011fini&#8230;<br \/>\nAy\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 otuz otuzbir<br \/>\nKar\u0131k \u00e7ekmi\u015f aln\u0131na sars\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 bir devir<br \/>\n\u00c7ocuklu\u011fu berbatt\u0131 Ay\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n<br \/>\nSolan \u00fcmitlerinin beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sa\u00e7\u0131nda.<br \/>\nBir cenk oldu d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda<br \/>\nOnbe\u015finde kaybetti k\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\nVe bir b\u0131\u00e7ak yaras\u0131 kanad\u0131 sol ka\u015f\u0131nda.<br \/>\nYara ge\u00e7ti, izi kald\u0131 Ay\u015fe k\u0131z<br \/>\nCanevinde bir top ate\u015f<br \/>\nB\u0131\u00e7aklanan h\u00fclyalar\u0131n s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131.<br \/>\nGelinlik, ah gelinlik &#8211; aln\u0131n\u0131n karayaz\u0131s\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nNice \u00e7arp\u0131nt\u0131larla bekliyordun o g\u00fcn\u00fc<br \/>\nKa\u00e7 defalar gizlice k\u0131na yakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n eline<br \/>\n\u0130lk \u00e7evreni yeller ald\u0131 Ay\u015fe k\u0131z<br \/>\nKederin de g\u00f6m\u00fcld\u00fc kaderinin seline<br \/>\nAr\u0131k topraklarda, tozlu yollarda<br \/>\nY\u0131rt\u0131k \u00e7ar\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc y\u0131llar,.<br \/>\nBilek\u00e7e takt\u0131lar koluna adaletin<br \/>\nAst\u0131lar, kestiler, kur\u015fun s\u0131kt\u0131lar,<br \/>\nKanl\u0131 izler b\u0131rakarak y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc y\u0131llar&#8230;<br \/>\nPoyraz yeller esti da\u011f ba\u015flar\u0131nda<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcr a\u011fac\u0131ndan yaprak yaprak d\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc y\u0131llar<br \/>\nSonra, adaletin naml\u0131s\u0131na d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc<br \/>\nZalimlerin \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc kirli \u00e7orap<br \/>\n\u0130lmek ilmek s\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc gizlenen kanl\u0131 s\u0131rlar&#8230;<br \/>\n\u015eefkatli bir anne do\u011furdu sana y\u0131llar<br \/>\nG\u00f6zlerinde filiz gibi ye\u015ferdi emellerin.<br \/>\n\u00c7engel&#8230; nokta&#8230; tekerlek&#8230; doldurdun defterini<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u00fcnde ilk defa kalem tuttu ellerin.<br \/>\nEllerin bar\u0131\u015f yazd\u0131 sayfalar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na<br \/>\nEklendi birer birer<br \/>\nTer kokulu y\u0131llar h\u00fcrriyetin ya\u015fma.<br \/>\nGen\u00e7lik bayrak sallad\u0131 nice iskelelerde<br \/>\nCan\u0131n\u0131 verdin sen de bol gelir sava\u015f\u0131na<br \/>\nL\u00e2kin unutamad\u0131n bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ge\u00e7mi\u015fini<br \/>\nUtand\u0131n, ka\u00e7t\u0131n bizten. Ama olmaz ki, nerde?<br \/>\nGen\u00e7lik bu k\u0131zkarde\u015f, kafeste ku\u015f de\u011fil ki<br \/>\nT\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcz, e\u011flencesiz durur mu? B\u0131rak\u0131r m\u0131?<br \/>\nGelirsin, gelmezsin&#8230; derken bir ak\u015fam<br \/>\nG\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fck ye seni k\u00fclt\u00fcr evine.<br \/>\nAhmet de bir vurdu mu saz\u0131n ince teline<br \/>\nArt\u0131k dayanamad\u0131n. Bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc s\u00f6yledin.<br \/>\nPes! dedi sesine t\u00fcm da\u011flar\u0131n ku\u015flar\u0131.<br \/>\nHani siper arar yavru ku\u015flar ya\u011fmurda<br \/>\nIslak kanat\u00e7\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rparak hani<br \/>\nHazindir u\u00e7u\u015flar\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\n\u00d6ylece s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131k t\u00fcrk\u00fcn\u00fcn kanatlar\u0131na<br \/>\nU\u00e7tuk, seneleri sayfa sayfa a\u00e7arak<br \/>\nBravo! Bravo! Ay\u015fe k\u0131z!<br \/>\nBak nas\u0131l y\u00fckseldi sesin<br \/>\nAram\u0131zdaki buz duvar\u0131 bir hamlede a\u015farak<br \/>\nVe \u00e7ekildi doludizgin yar\u0131n\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nSonra Ahmet tutturdu yan\u0131k yan\u0131k:<br \/>\n&#8220;G\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6nl\u00fcne ba\u011flad\u0131n Ay\u015fem,<br \/>\nA\u015fk\u0131nla kalbimi da\u011flad\u0131n Ay\u015fem&#8221;,<br \/>\nDur hele, dur hele! Ne o Ay\u015fe k\u0131z?<br \/>\nAh ne ho\u015f bir k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131m parlad\u0131 g\u00f6zlerinde<\/p>\n<p>Yanaklar\u0131n tutu\u015ftu, tutu\u015ftu dudaklar\u0131n.<br \/>\nNeden yutkunuyorsun? Susuz musun, yand\u0131n m\u0131?.,<br \/>\nAhmet ne zamand\u0131r vurgundur sana<br \/>\nSen de mi vuruldun? Sevdin mi, inand\u0131n m\u0131?..<br \/>\n* **<br \/>\n\u00c2\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n kalbinteki alevle<br \/>\nI\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir y\u0131ld\u0131z gibi yan k\u00f6y\u00fcm!<br \/>\nY\u00fcksel gen\u00e7li\u011fimizin \u00e7elik kanatlariyle<br \/>\nK\u0131z\u0131l bir bayrak gibi dalgalan k\u00f6y\u00fcm!<br \/>\nAsfalt yollar\u0131n da var, \u00fc\u00e7 katl\u0131 evlerin de<br \/>\nTelli pullu horozlar\u0131n da var ya,<br \/>\nAy\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcyle a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r sabahlar\u0131n.<br \/>\nEn erken uyan\u0131r Ay\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc<br \/>\nDola\u015f\u0131r kap\u0131 kap\u0131, ar\u015f\u0131nlar sokaklar\u0131.<br \/>\nBu t\u00fcrk\u00fcde derin bir uyan\u0131\u015f var<br \/>\nSevmek, a\u015fka inanmak<br \/>\nYar\u0131nlar\u0131n ate\u015fiyle yanmak var bu t\u00fcrk\u00fcde<br \/>\nS\u00f6yle k\u0131zkarde\u015fim, s\u00f6yle Ay\u015fe k\u0131z<br \/>\nSesin \u00e7i\u011f damlas\u0131 gibi d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn dallara<br \/>\nT\u00fct\u00fcn tarlalar\u0131 bizi bekliyor. Uyan\u0131n kom\u015fular!<br \/>\nSand\u0131k, sepet &#8211; dolu demek<br \/>\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn yollara&#8230;<br \/>\nKumral sa\u00e7l\u0131, \u015fahin g\u00f6zl\u00fc \u00c7olak Nikola.<br \/>\n&#8220;Oca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6md\u00fcn dara\u011fac\u0131 Yapraklar\u0131n<br \/>\nkurusun&#8221; demi\u015f annesi Lanet okumu\u015f<br \/>\nk\u00f6k\u00fcne, filizine. Kabahatsiz oldu\u011funu<br \/>\nbilmezlermi\u015f ki \u0130yi insanlar d\u00fc\u015fman<br \/>\nbellemi\u015f seni. Matem tutar anneler, yetim<br \/>\n\u00e7ocuklar D\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f durmu\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcne<br \/>\ny\u00fcre\u011finden gelen! A\u011fz\u0131n yok ki, dilin yok<br \/>\nki cevap verecek Ben de kederliyim,<br \/>\nmecalsizim diyecek. Susmu\u015fsun ta\u015f gibi<br \/>\nBeklemi\u015fsin o gelecek yar\u0131n\u0131. Ya\u011fan<br \/>\nya\u011fmur y\u0131kam\u0131\u015f, Esen r\u00fczg\u00e2r sarm\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nyaralar\u0131n\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nNeler bilirsin sen, neler bilirsin Ama a\u011fz\u0131n<br \/>\ndilin yok, s\u00f6yliyemezsin. Mevsim mevsim<br \/>\nde\u011fi\u015fip \u00f6ylece dikilirsin Y\u0131llar\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131<br \/>\ncanl\u0131 bir heykel gibi. Ve bir\u015feyler<br \/>\nf\u0131s\u0131ldars\u0131n estik\u00e7e r\u00fczg\u00e2r &#8220;Kur\u015fun<br \/>\ns\u0131k\u0131lmas\u0131n yapraklar\u0131ma Dallar\u0131mda ku\u015flar<br \/>\n\u00f6ts\u00fcn!&#8221; der gibi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>ULU ME\u015eE<\/strong><br \/>\n(ibrahim Tatarh, Antoloji, 1964, sf: 348-349)<\/p>\n<p>Neler bilirsin sen, neler bilirsin&#8230; Her<br \/>\nyapra\u011f\u0131n yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f bir destan Her<br \/>\nduda\u011f\u0131n bir an\u0131tt\u0131r yaprak i\u00e7inde. A\u011fz\u0131n<br \/>\nyok, dilin yok, konu\u015fmazs\u0131n Mevsim<br \/>\nmevsim de\u011fi\u015fip \u00f6ylece dikilirsin Y\u0131llar\u0131n<br \/>\nb\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 canl\u0131 bir heykel gibi<br \/>\nK\u00f6klerin damar damar toprak i\u00e7inde&#8230;<br \/>\n* * *<br \/>\nBilirsin, bir Fatmesi varm\u0131\u015f bu k\u00f6y\u00fcn Hang<br \/>\nsonralar\u0131 Bayrak Fatme demi\u015fler. Kandil<br \/>\n\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda i\u015flemi\u015f ink\u0131l\u00e2p bayra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Geceleri<br \/>\nuykusundan \u00e7alarak, Anas\u0131ndan<br \/>\nbabas\u0131ndan gizlice. Sonra en y\u00fcksek yerine<br \/>\nasm\u0131\u015flar senin K\u00f6y gen\u00e7leri bu bayra\u011f\u0131 bir<br \/>\ngece. T\u00fcfek seslerinden uyanm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n ertesi<br \/>\nsabah Kur\u015fun s\u0131km\u0131\u015flar daim buda\u011f\u0131na<br \/>\nDelik de\u015fik olmu\u015f t\u00fcm yapraklar\u0131n<br \/>\nYe\u015filimsi bir su s\u0131zm\u0131\u015f kabu\u011funun alt\u0131ndan<br \/>\nDul kalan gelinlerin g\u00f6zya\u015flarmdan ac\u0131. En<br \/>\nal\u00e7ak dal\u0131nda ipe \u00e7ekilmi\u015f.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2200263700\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>GE\u00c7 ANLADIM<\/strong><br \/>\n(Hak ve \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck, Say\u0131: 16,1991)<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7t\u0131k\u00e7a perdeye var\u0131yorum.<br \/>\nKapad\u0131k\u00e7a, bug\u00fcn\u00fcme yerle\u015ftim ad\u0131m ad\u0131m. Ne<br \/>\nzamansa yoluma \u00e7\u0131kacak olan kad\u0131n sokmu\u015f bir<br \/>\n\u00e7\u0131kmaza beni b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f, ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m.<br \/>\nBu acayip mezarl\u0131kta bir \u015feyler ar\u0131yordum,<br \/>\nbenli\u011fimi \u00e7i\u011fneyerek y\u0131llarca ad\u0131m ad\u0131m.<br \/>\nGeni\u015f geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131lar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan bana<br \/>\nuzanan eller t\u0131rnakm\u0131\u015f, ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m.<br \/>\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemi dondurdular, y\u0131rt\u0131k sesimle sordum.<br \/>\nYan\u0131tlayan dudaklar s\u0131r\u0131tt\u0131 ad\u0131m ad\u0131m.<br \/>\n\u00c7izdikleri yollar\u0131n en &#8220;yap\u0131c\u0131&#8221; niyeti h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n<br \/>\nayaklar\u0131m\u0131 k\u0131rmakm\u0131\u015f, ge\u00e7 anlad\u0131m.<br \/>\nElde s\u0131f\u0131r, ak\u0131lda bir. H\u0131rpalanm\u0131\u015f ve yorgun<br \/>\ngeldim kap\u0131n\u0131za, y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm ad\u0131m ad\u0131m&#8230;<br \/>\nYapaca\u011f\u0131m bir tek i\u015f, bildi\u011fim ger\u00e7ekleri<br \/>\nsa\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131na hayk\u0131rmakm\u0131\u015f, anlad\u0131m<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-2401166410\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>K\u0131rcaali&#8217;nin E\u011fridere (Ardino) kasabas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 Dedeler (D\u00e2dovsti) k\u00f6y\u00fcnde do\u011fdu. 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