{"id":31893,"date":"2018-07-30T19:23:48","date_gmt":"2018-07-30T16:23:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=31893"},"modified":"2018-07-30T20:42:54","modified_gmt":"2018-07-30T17:42:54","slug":"selamim-olsun","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/selamim-olsun\/","title":{"rendered":"Selam\u0131m olsun"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Tarih: 26 Temmuz 2018<\/p>\n<p>Yazan:\u00a0 \u015eakir ARSLANTA\u015e<\/p>\n<p>Konu: <strong>D\u00fcn\u00fc anlamadan bug\u00fcn\u00fc anlayamay\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/strong><strong>\u00a0\u00d6z Vatan\u0131 terk edip, \u201cvatan\u201d aramaya gidenlere<\/strong><strong>\u00a0 \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u201c<strong>G\u00fcler y\u00fczl\u00fc bir Halk\u0131m var!<\/strong>\u201d diyen de bizden, \u201c<strong>Bizden bir \u015fey olmaz<\/strong>! diyen de bizden.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2995561564\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye yaral\u0131 geldik. Bu yaln\u0131z zul\u00fcm yaras\u0131 de\u011fildi. G\u00f6\u00e7men \u00e7ad\u0131rlar\u0131nda ilk \u00e7orba tas\u0131n\u0131 uzan\u0131rken, yar\u0131m ekme\u011fi de \u00f6teki elimle ald\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imde, bir \u015fey daha uzatacaklard\u0131 bana, hissi vard\u0131. Kimseye ba\u015fka bir \u015fey uzat\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, bana da vermediler. O an, hayat\u0131mda eksik bir \u015fey oldu\u011funu, noksanl\u0131k belirdiyse bir ilac\u0131 olmal\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Bu bir mehlem olmal\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7imdeki bir bo\u015fluktu. Ne s\u0131zl\u0131yor, ne a\u011fr\u0131yordu. Kendini hissettirdik\u00e7e bo\u011fuyordu. \u00c7ad\u0131r yerle\u015fke kalabal\u0131kt\u0131. Ekme\u011fini alan y\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. Ben de y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Bo\u011fan illet benimle geldi. Ne \u00f6n\u00fcme ge\u00e7iyor ne de arkamda kal\u0131yordu. \u0130\u00e7ime oturmu\u015ftu. Halinden memnun ve gidici de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyen bo\u015flu\u011fun beni bo\u011fazlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnden bug\u00fcne neredeyse 30 y\u0131l ge\u00e7ti. \u00c7ocuklar askerden d\u00f6nd\u00fc, \u00fcniversiteye gidip geldi, \u00e7oluk \u00e7ocuk sahibi, kocaman adam oldular. Hayata ton ve renk veriyorlar.<\/p>\n<p>Bazen e\u015fimle ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, \u201c<strong>o i\u00e7ine oturan art\u0131k terk etti mi sen<\/strong>i?\u201d diye sormak istiyorum. Tam soraca\u011f\u0131m an dilim d\u00f6nm\u00fcyor. Bana bir \u015fey oluyor. G\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fclmeyen, elle tutulmayan bir g\u00fc\u00e7, bana, \u201c<strong>sana ne<\/strong>!\u201d diyor. Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey demese de \u201c<strong>otur oturdu\u011fun yerde<\/strong>!\u201d demi\u015f gibi bir duyguya yenik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Kom\u015fu k\u00f6yden \u015fair Ahmet Hali\u00e7ov\u2019un UNUTAMAYIZ \u015fiiri geliyor bu durumlarda hep akl\u0131ma.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Karanl\u0131kt\u0131 ya\u015fanas\u0131 d\u00fcnyam\u0131z, zifiri karanl\u0131k.<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-3361756746\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>Ac\u0131 bekleyi\u015f i\u00e7inde avunup durduk.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Tiksintiyle i\u00e7mi\u015ftik mutsuzluk \u015ferbetini<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Kad\u0131n erkek, k\u0131z, o\u011flan<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>O korkulu y\u0131llar\u0131 asla unutamay\u0131z.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Biz d\u00fcnya de\u011fi\u015ftirirken ki\u015fisel duygusall\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n budanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark edemedik. Bu budamay\u0131 hayat kendisi yap\u0131yordu.\u00a0\u00a0 Esaretten kurtulduk ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe kavu\u015ftuk hissiyle birlikte, art\u0131k kimse k\u0131ramaz beni, duyumu da olu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1787128980\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Gelenleri kar\u015f\u0131layan en y\u00fcksek makamda, Ankara\u2019da Enc\u00fcment Konukman Bey ad\u0131ndan bir \u201c<strong>Ho\u015f Geldiniz<\/strong>!\u201d diyenimiz vard\u0131. Bir\u00e7o\u011fumuz o y\u00fcksek makama \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca, ana ku\u015fun kursa\u011f\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yuvadaki yavrunun a\u011f\u0131z\u0131na ak\u0131tt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, ortaya d\u00f6k\u00fcp rahatl\u0131yordu. Asl\u0131nda bu rahatlaman\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zmek \u00e7ok zordu. Erc\u00fcment Bey hepimize s\u0131rda\u015f oluyordu. \u201c<strong>\u0130yi evlad\u0131m, anlad\u0131m! Sen \u015fimdi bir rahatla! Yerle\u015f! Gereken Yap\u0131l\u0131r!<\/strong>\u201d diyordu. \u00d6n\u00fcnde a\u00e7\u0131lan yaraya, onun mehlemi bu i\u00e7ten s\u00f6zlerdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte o an ben i\u00e7imdeki bo\u015flu\u011fun dolmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetmi\u015ftim. Bu dolu\u015f i\u00e7imde do\u011fan umutlar\u0131n birer iki\u015fer dallar\u0131mdan u\u00e7mas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 olabilirdi. G\u00fczd\u00fc. G\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmi\u015f. Yapraklar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, meyveler toplan\u0131yor. G\u00fcz oturmu\u015ftu. Bir\u00e7o\u011fumuz i\u00e7in yitirilen umutlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yerle\u015fip i\u015f tutmak kolay olmad\u0131. Y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti. G\u00f6\u00e7menlerin kursaklar\u0131nda getirdikleri kitap oldu.<\/p>\n<p>Bulgaristanl\u0131 yazar Aziz Bey B\u00fcy\u00fck G\u00f6\u00e7\u2019\u00fc ve \u00f6ncesini yaz\u0131l\u0131 anlatt\u0131. Dizide, \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d toplama kamp\u0131 kahramanlar\u0131ndan biri Cebelli Tahsin. T.C.de kendine B\u00fcy\u00fct\u00fcrk soyad\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015f. Bulgar milli istihbarat\u0131nda \u00fcst te\u011fmen r\u00fctbesi, Moskova akademilerinden birinde okuma, ba\u015fkent Sofya\u2019da 3 odal\u0131 bir daire, e\u015fiyle ili\u015fkilerinde so\u011fukluk belirmi\u015fse g\u00fczel bir sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n k\u0131z, y\u00fcksek maa\u015f vs onun hayalini doldurand\u0131. Ona \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u2019de giydirilen s\u0131rmal\u0131 elbise buydu. Damar\u0131na i\u011fnelenen zehir tutmu\u015ftu. Hem de \u00f6yle bit tutmu\u015ftu ki, Tahsin Bey zehirlenmi\u015f oldu\u011funu fark etmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Tahsin\u2019e vaat edileni dinleyen Enc\u00fcment Konukman Bey \u201c<strong>Ne duruyorsun, git bu nimetleri al ve g\u00fcle g\u00fcle ya\u015fa, art\u0131k Bulgar olmaktan kurtuldun, \u015fimdi de g\u00f6\u00e7menlikten kurtul ve olay bitsin!<\/strong>\u201d dedi.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2785476187\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Tahsin g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc cesur ve ac\u0131mas\u0131z biri de\u011fildi. Hakl\u0131 olman\u0131n derin anlam\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyordu. D\u00f6nd\u00fc. Bir vaatten adalet do\u011faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, kendisine verilen s\u00f6zlerin tutulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 umuyor ve Sofya i\u00e7inde dola\u015f\u0131rken ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik tutuyordu. Kendi ge\u00e7mi\u015fiyle y\u00fczle\u015fmek istemiyor, yaln\u0131z kurdu\u011fu hayallerle ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u0130leriye gidebilmek i\u00e7in ge\u00e7mi\u015fine basmas\u0131 gerekti\u011finin fark\u0131nda de\u011fildi. Oysa insan\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fi rezillik dolu olsa bile, bazen ki\u015finin gelece\u011fe yelken a\u00e7abilmek i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir tutunacak dal\u0131 yoktur.<\/p>\n<p>Tahsin gizli polisten bir subay olabilmek i\u00e7in ge\u00e7mi\u015fini ate\u015fe vermek ve bir ad\u0131m \u00f6tedeki g\u00fcl bah\u00e7esinde ya\u015famak istiyordu. O, insan do\u011fas\u0131n\u0131n bu olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerinde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi sevmezdi. Bir defa babas\u0131 ona, \u201c<strong>o\u011flum her kes kendi \u00e7orab\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rer, sen i\u015fine bak<\/strong>\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>O zamanlar K\u0131rca Ali\u2019den gece saat 10\u2019da kalkan ve Sofya\u2019da duran \u201c<strong>Trakya Ekspres<\/strong>\u201d h\u0131zl\u0131 treni vard\u0131. Biletlerde k\u00fcpe ve yer numaras\u0131 vard\u0131. Herkes ayn\u0131 trenin yolcusu olsa da, yer de\u011fi\u015ftiremezdi. Tuvalete yak\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fen Sofya\u2019ya kadar tuvalet kokusu \u00e7eker, k\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131nda kaloriferi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmayan vagona d\u00fc\u015fen tir tir titrer ya da trenin kalkmas\u0131yla ayn\u0131 kompart\u0131manda horlamaya ba\u015flayan biriyle yolculuk boyu sinir olurdun.<\/p>\n<p>Bu, o zamanlar \u00f6yleydi. Sonra \u201c<strong>Trakya Ekspres<\/strong>\u201d yolcusuz kald\u0131.\u00a0 Durdu. Gar\u0131 k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 yuvas\u0131 oldu. Raylar \u00fczerinde inekler otlamaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Tahsin \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d kamp\u0131nda eline tutu\u015fturulan biletin trenini \u00e7ok bekledi. O, tren bir daha gelmedi. Biletin arkas\u0131ndaki telefonlar da kapand\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan bir e\u015fya, bir mal de\u011fildi. En az\u0131ndan koyun gibiydi. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fini kurutmak ve gelece\u011fini ya\u015fatmak hayaliyle tek ba\u015f\u0131na ya\u015fayamazd\u0131. En az\u0131ndan s\u00fcr\u00fcden birisi olmak zorundayd\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn biraz cesaret toplad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7inde durmaks\u0131z\u0131n kanayan o yaray\u0131 kendi g\u00fcc\u00fcyle pansuman etti. Birden bire aya\u011fa kalkt\u0131. \u0130lk nefesi otob\u00fcs terminalinde, ikincisini de \u0130stanbul Esenler\u2019 de ald\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1700272241\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201de arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131. T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de 720 bin kafe oldu\u011funu duymu\u015ftu. Onlardan birinde pi\u015fti oynuyorlar ya da tavla at\u0131yorlard\u0131.\u00a0 \u0130skambil k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar\u0131yla aras\u0131 iyi de\u011fildi. Tavla satran\u00e7 da bilmezdi. Kenardan oturup bakacakt\u0131. Kazanan taraftan \u00e7ay ikram\u0131yla tatmin olmak zorundayd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u201c<strong>bug\u00fcn \u00e7aylar benden<\/strong>\u201d diyecek durumu da yoktu.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7inde bir utan\u00e7 duygusu belirmi\u015fti. O \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d de tutukluyken kula\u011f\u0131na f\u0131s\u0131ldanan yalanlara inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in kendinden utan\u0131yordu. Bu vaatleri hi\u00e7bir kimseye anlatmasayd\u0131, bildiklerini ve kursa\u011f\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 ilk f\u0131rsatta kusmasayd\u0131, \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d kamp ar\u015fivi devlet s\u0131rr\u0131 olarak kapal\u0131 tutuldu\u011fundan, onun bildiklerini kendisinden ba\u015fka bilen olmayacakt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>O Cebel kasabas\u0131nda kod eslenmi\u015fti. Bir gece ge\u00e7 vakit, birka\u00e7 kadeh devirmi\u015f ve bu ufak Rodop kasabas\u0131n\u0131n merkezinden ge\u00e7erken yumruk sallam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kollar\u0131na kelep\u00e7e tak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 saatler sonra fark etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>O i\u015fi kenar\u0131ndan tutan bir tipti. E\u015fi 4-5 d\u00f6n\u00fcm t\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015flerken, dolu kafesleri e\u015finin s\u0131rt\u0131na kald\u0131r\u0131r. T\u00fcr\u00fcnler ekspere g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrken de \u00f6k\u00fcz arabas\u0131n\u0131 ko\u015far ya da trakt\u00f6r \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r ve balyalar\u0131 r\u00f6morka dizerdi.<\/p>\n<p>Bir\u00e7ok defa ne s\u00f6yledi\u011fini ve ne diyece\u011fini bilmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in, tutukland\u0131\u011f\u0131 gecenin sabah\u0131nda kendini bir \u201cgaska\u201d ara\u00e7 i\u00e7inde Filibe (Plovdiv) yolunda buldu.\u00a0 \u201cBelene\u201d s\u00fcrg\u00fcn kamp\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, T\u00fcrkleri toplad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 duymu\u015ftu, ama oraya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc \u201cPersin\u201d Adas\u0131 k\u00f6pr\u00fcs\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken anlad\u0131. Toplama kamp\u0131 \u201cPersin\u201d Adas\u0131nda kurulmu\u015ftu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3627416404\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Tuna \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ortas\u0131na indi\u011finde c\u00fczdan\u0131nda \u00e7erez alacak para yoktu. Buraya neden getirildi\u011fini soran olsa onu da bilmiyordu. \u00a0Kamyon karoserinden indirildi\u011finde kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dikilen T\u00fcrkler onun selam sabah etti\u011fi s\u0131n\u0131ftan de\u011fildi. \u00d6\u011fretmen, m\u00fchendis, hoca, imam, partili tiplerdi. Ba\u015flar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Onun ba\u015f\u0131nda ise, alt tabaka Rodop T\u00fcrkleri gibi takke vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<ol start=\"3\">\n<li>Blok. 3. Kat. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir oda! Burada kalacakt\u0131.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<p>\u00d6nce kayd\u0131 yap\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130mza kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 verilen nevresim, battaniye ve bir kal\u0131p sabunu kucaklad\u0131. Merdivenleri yava\u015f \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterdiler. Camdan bak\u0131nca \u201cPersin\u201d adas\u0131n\u0131n ucu g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. Tuna i\u00e7inde bu kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ada oldu\u011funu i\u015fitmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Ondan \u00f6nce getirilenler k\u00fcmesleri, de\u011fi\u015ftirilmi\u015f tavuklar gibi sa\u011f sola bak\u0131n\u0131yor, aralar\u0131nda topra\u011f\u0131 e\u015feleyen ve kurt arayan yoktu. Tahsin, kimseyi tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, aralar\u0131na sokulsa bile, kendisini kabul edeceklerinden pek emin de\u011fildi. \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir ortamda, daha ilk g\u00fcnlerde ona en yak\u0131n duran ve sakin davranan Zahariev ad\u0131nda bir sivil g\u00f6revli, basamaklardan inerken usulca onun koluna dokundu. G\u00f6zleriyle sen biraz geride kalsan i\u015fareti yapt\u0131. \u0130nenler uzay\u0131nca da kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dikildi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Bir ihtiyac\u0131n veya iste\u011fin var m\u0131<\/strong>?\u201d diye sordu.<\/p>\n<p>Tahsin, b\u00f6yle bir yakla\u015f\u0131m beklemedi\u011finden, ne diyece\u011fini bilemedi. Sivil g\u00f6revli, \u201c<strong>varsa sonra da s\u00f6ylersin<\/strong>\u201d, dedi, etrafa bak\u0131nd\u0131 ve \u015f\u00f6yle devam etti: \u201c<strong>Senden bir ricam olacak. Bu ak\u015fam odada ne konu\u015ftuklar\u0131n\u0131 dinle, kamp\u0131 yakmak istiyorlarm\u0131\u015f, b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey olursa, hemen yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki cam\u0131 a\u00e7 ve YANGIN VAR! YANGIN VAR! YANGIN VAR!<\/strong> <strong>diye \u00fc\u00e7 defa sesinin \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar hayk\u0131r.\u201d<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-362396242\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Tahsin\u2019in Bulgar milli istihbarat\u0131n\u0131n toplama kamplar\u0131ndaki tutuklularla \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan \u015fubesine tak\u0131lmas\u0131 ve 2.5 y\u0131l onlara her gece konu\u015fulanlar\u0131 aktarmas\u0131, sonunda seni \u201c<strong>Moskova\u2019da okutaca\u011f\u0131z, kar\u0131n\u0131 be\u011fenmezsen, onu da hakkeder\u015fz\u2026.<\/strong>\u201d Vaatleri Tahsinin belle\u011fine b\u00f6yle i\u011fnelendi ki, bunlar\u0131n hepsi yalan olsa da, ona umut oldu. Bele\u011finden ta\u015ft\u0131 ve kursa\u011f\u0131na oturdu.<\/p>\n<p>O bu 2,5 senede hi\u00e7bir gazete okumad\u0131. Radyo dinlemedi. Onu gelip g\u00f6ren olmad\u0131. Kimseye mektup yazmad\u0131. K\u0131\u015f\u0131n kar s\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yaz\u0131n m\u0131s\u0131r kazd\u0131. Bazen uzaya bildi\u011finde, 200 metre ilerideki eski s\u00f6\u011f\u00fctlerin g\u00f6lgesinde akan Tuna sular\u0131na bakmaya gitti. Orada g\u00f6mle\u011finin iliklerini s\u00f6kt\u00fc, ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131 ve kursa\u011f\u0131na toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zehri ak\u0131tmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hep olacak gibi oldu ama olmad\u0131. Nasip Ankara\u2019ym\u0131\u015f, oraya var\u0131nca dayanamad\u0131 ve ye\u015fil gizem topunu birden d\u00f6kt\u00fc ve kurtuldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130yi mi yapt\u0131? K\u00f6t\u00fc m\u00fc yapt\u0131? Bu soruya kendisi de cevap veremedi. Sofya\u2019ya d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde, sana s\u00f6ylediklerimizi neden gidip anlatt\u0131n? sorusunu soran olmad\u0131. \u00c7ok bekledi ama onu arayan da olmad\u0131. Kursa\u011f\u0131 bo\u015falm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Umutlar\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Ortada kala kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bo\u015f kursakla ya\u015famak, umutsuz ya\u015famak gibiydi. Bo\u015f kalan yalanlar\u0131n yeri ancak daha b\u00fcy\u00fck yalanla dolabilirdi. Yeni yalanlar\u0131 balland\u0131ra balland\u0131ra anlatan biri de bulmad\u0131 onu.<\/p>\n<p>Bo\u015f kursakla \u00f6l\u00fc umutla ya\u015famak \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d de tutuklu kalmaktan zordu. Ge\u00e7mi\u015fiyle y\u00fczle\u015fmek istemiyordu. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kendini defalarca aldat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ve bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc akl\u0131 gelmemi\u015f, bir aptal olarak g\u00f6rmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ona bu duygular\u0131 enjekte eden olmad\u0131. O birinci i\u011fnenin zehrinden kabard\u0131 bu kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131n hepsi. An geliyor, kendisini bir \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fc gibi hissediyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Kampta o sivil Bulgarlara g\u00fcvenmi\u015fti. Bu g\u00fcvenin d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131nca onu zay\u0131f k\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve herkesten uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131p \u00e7\u00f6kertece\u011fini bilmiyordu. \u0130\u00e7indeki bo\u015flu\u011fun mehlemi yoktu. Umutsuzluk ise onu enselemi\u015f ve\u00a0 adeta bitiriyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3877782946\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-40-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u015eimdi Avc\u0131lardaki kahvelerden birinde, insan k\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kartlar ona da da\u011f\u0131t\u0131lsa ve k\u0131smetten 4 \u00e7ocu\u011fun d\u00f6rd\u00fc de ona gelse, kolunu kald\u0131r\u0131p masaya \u015f\u00f6yle yumru\u011fun yumru\u011funu vuracak g\u00fcc\u00fc yoktu. O insan\u0131n t\u00fckendi\u011fi noktay\u0131 ya\u015fatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan i\u00e7indeki bo\u015flu\u011fu pazara \u00e7\u0131karam\u0131yor. Umutsuzlu\u011fu payla\u015fam\u0131yor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc al\u0131c\u0131 bulsa ve bunlardan birini satsa, daha k\u00f6t\u00fc! Yerinde daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir bo\u015fluk a\u00e7\u0131lacak. En k\u00f6t\u00fcs\u00fc ise, Pazar tezg\u00e2h\u0131nda insan\u0131n kendisini \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck bir meyve gibi hissetmesidir.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcn\u00fc anlamadan bug\u00fcn\u00fc anlayamay\u0131z. Bizim yaram\u0131z a\u00e7\u0131k. Kendimizle, \u00f6z ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizle y\u00fczle\u015fmeden korkan ve ge\u00e7mi\u015fini yenemeyen insanlar\u0131z. 28 y\u0131ldan beri Tahsin B\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcrk de \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d \u00f6l\u00fcm kamp\u0131na gidip kendi ad\u0131n\u0131n da yaz\u0131l\u0131 oldu\u011fu mermer levhaya bir demet \u00e7i\u00e7ek koymad\u0131. Kendisine sayg\u0131s\u0131 olmayan birisini kim sayar?!<\/p>\n<p>Okudu\u011funuz i\u00e7in te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-3590161502\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Tarih: 26 Temmuz 2018 Yazan:\u00a0 \u015eakir ARSLANTA\u015e Konu: D\u00fcn\u00fc anlamadan bug\u00fcn\u00fc anlayamay\u0131z. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00d6z Vatan\u0131 terk edip, \u201cvatan\u201d aramaya gidenlere\u00a0 \u00a0 \u201cG\u00fcler y\u00fczl\u00fc bir Halk\u0131m<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":12415,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-31893","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/sakir-arslantas.jpg?fit=130%2C168&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-8ip","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31893","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=31893"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/31893\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/12415"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=31893"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=31893"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=31893"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}