{"id":23023,"date":"2017-05-14T22:51:15","date_gmt":"2017-05-14T19:51:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=23023"},"modified":"2017-05-14T22:51:15","modified_gmt":"2017-05-14T19:51:15","slug":"geriye-bakis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/geriye-bakis\/","title":{"rendered":"Geriye Bak\u0131\u015f"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/03\/osman.jpg?resize=207%2C282\" width=\"207\" height=\"282\" \/>\u00a0Osman B\u00dcLB\u00dcL<\/p>\n<p>Tarih: 14 May\u0131s 2017<\/p>\n<p>Konu: <strong>D\u00fcnya cenneti ile \u00f6b\u00fcr d\u00fcnya cenneti ayn\u0131 yerdeyse, yerim k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn <\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kabristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ben bu d\u00fcnyadan Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerinin vatan t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyerek gitmek<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-1954738096\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u0130stiyorum.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Son doruktay\u0131m. Kazanl\u0131kta hastaneye girip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Son sava\u015fa girmeden \u015fapkay\u0131 al\u0131p gitmek istemiyorum. D\u00fcnyada ya\u015famay\u0131 kolayla\u015ft\u0131rmak i\u00e7in zaman ve uzam\u0131 bulanlar, takvimi, y\u0131l say\u0131m\u0131 ve daha bir\u00e7ok \u015fey icat edenler, do\u011fan\u0131n kurallar\u0131ndan yaln\u0131z birini de\u011fi\u015ftirebilselerdi ne g\u00fczel olurdu. \u0130nsan insan olal\u0131 hayat\u0131, hayatt\u0131n s\u0131rr\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zme u\u011fra\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndad\u0131r. Ne ileri ne geri, hayat\u0131n i\u00e7ine giremedik.<\/p>\n<p>Bundan iki sene \u00f6nce, sap\u0131, yapra\u011f\u0131 ve \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi kuruyunca,\u00a0 mahzene indirdi\u011fim bir saks\u0131m vard\u0131. Koyu mavi goncayla masam\u0131n \u00fczerine d\u00f6k\u00fclen ve a\u00e7t\u0131k\u00e7a mavisini y\u0131kay\u0131p durulayan ve yapraklar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda, sevgi g\u00f6zlerinden s\u00fct maviyle g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fim! K\u0131\u015f, yolculuklar, hastane, gelip gidenler ve zaten g\u00fczelli\u011fine k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in 2 sene topra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bah\u00e7eye sa\u00e7amad\u0131\u011f\u0131m benim sevimli uykucum, bu baharla birlikte uyanm\u0131\u015f, \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f yaprakla f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rm\u0131\u015f saks\u0131dan, bu sabah o bana, ben de ona \u201c<strong>Ho\u015f geldin<\/strong>!\u201d Dedik. Bak\u0131yorum yakalam\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan bahar\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Mahzenden bamba\u015fka duygularla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m. Elimde kurumas\u0131na k\u0131yamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, hayat bulmu\u015f, ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmedi\u011fim sevgilim. Yol kenar\u0131ndaki kava\u011fa bakt\u0131m, y\u00fcn d\u00f6k\u00fcyor, asfalt \u00fczerinde beyaz top\u00e7uklar birbirini koval\u0131yor. Bu bahar kestanem \u00e7i\u00e7eklerinden ayr\u0131lmak istemiyor. Her biri \u0131\u015f\u0131k sa\u00e7an bir lamba gibi, ye\u015fil yapraklar \u00e7i\u00e7eklere \u00f6yle sevdal\u0131 ki, b\u00fcy\u00fcmeyi unutmu\u015f. \u015eu g\u00fcnler, akasya salk\u0131mlar\u0131 kestane \u00e7i\u00e7eklerinin beyazl\u0131\u011f\u0131na eri\u015fti. O emsalsiz beyaz ye\u015fil c\u00fcmb\u00fc\u015f\u00fc d\u00fcnyay\u0131 g\u00f6lgeledi. Ar\u0131lar \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k i\u00e7inde! Akasya bal\u0131n\u0131 kestane bal\u0131na kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmayal\u0131m deyip, ko\u015far gibi u\u00e7u\u015fuyor, beyazdan beyaza mekik dokuyorlar.<\/p>\n<p>Ben elimde ye\u015feren umutla dondum kald\u0131m. Hangi \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fin hangi tarihte a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131 listesini yapan\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Hepsi her bahar a\u00e7arken, benimki neden 2 senede bir a\u00e7\u0131yor diye \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyorum. Yapraklar\u0131n\u0131 menek\u015fe mavisinden s\u00fct mavisine y\u0131kayan \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r makinesi bu sene yine \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r m\u0131 acaba, diye endi\u015feliyim. E\u011fer yolun sonunda, yar\u0131n kenar\u0131nda, y\u0131ld\u0131zlar yolunda ya da vuslat kap\u0131s\u0131ndaysam, elimdeki saks\u0131dan bana g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyen ve acele etme, bizi bir daha g\u00f6rmeden girme \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131 i\u015fittik\u00e7e huzur buluyorum. Neden her \u015fey geri d\u00f6nebiliyor da, biz bu d\u00fcnyadan g\u00f6\u00e7 edince, bir daha neden geri d\u00f6nemiyoruz? \u00dczg\u00fcn\u00fcm.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2777114900\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Yeni bir kitap okumaya vaktim olmazsa, son okudu\u011fum Herodotos\u2019un TAR\u0130H eseri olacak.<\/p>\n<p>Bu eser belki de insan ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n dip derinliklerine indi\u011finden, benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok de\u011ferli. \u00d6yle ama o da, ilk \u00e7ocu\u011fun emeklemeye ba\u015flamas\u0131ndan bilmem ka\u00e7 milyon y\u0131l sonra, insano\u011flunun kaz t\u00fcy\u00fcnden divit, k\u00f6k \u00f6z\u00fcnden boya, ceylan derisinden \u00fczerine yaz\u0131labilen bir \u015fey olabilece\u011fini ke\u015ffinden sonra yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. O zaman, tarih felsefesi yokmu\u015f. Tarih, insan\u0131n, insanlar\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fcklerinden, bildiklerinden, efsanele\u015ftirebildiklerinden yaz\u0131ya d\u00f6k\u00fclenmi\u015f. S\u00f6zl\u00fc tarihse, d\u00fcn ve yar\u0131n\u0131n bug\u00fcn gev elenmesiymi\u015f. Hi\u00e7bir \u015fey unutulmas\u0131n diye k\u00fct\u00fcphanelerde kitap depolanm\u0131\u015flar. D\u00fcnya benimle ba\u015flad\u0131 ve benimle bitecek deyen B\u00fcy\u00fck \u0130skender eski zamanlar\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck K\u00fct\u00fcphanesini \u0130skenderiye\u2019de ate\u015fe vermi\u015f. Eski Elinler \u00e7ok dolu insanlarm\u0131\u015f, onlar bildiklerini arkadan gelenlere anlatmas\u0131nlar diye, d\u00fc\u015fmanlar\u0131 dillerini kesiyormu\u015f. \u00d6l\u00fc dillerin say\u0131s\u0131 konu\u015fulanlardan kat kat fazla\u2026 Dil insan\u0131n hem dostu hem de d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131. Bizim dilimiz de yasakl\u0131. Biz de tarih oluyoruz gayr\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsano\u011flu tarihi ya\u015fatman\u0131n ba\u015fka yollar\u0131n\u0131 da aram\u0131\u015f tabii. Anlatamasam, \u00e7izerim, boya bulamazsam yontar\u0131m, heykeller dikerim, ma\u011faralar\u0131n i\u00e7ini d\u00f6\u015ferim gibi bir\u00e7ok \u015fey aram\u0131\u015f bulmu\u015f. Bir d\u00f6nem insano\u011flu d\u00fcnyadan \u00e7ok korkmu\u015f, g\u00f6\u011fe y\u00f6nelmi\u015f, Babil Kulesi\u2019nden defalarca y\u00fcksek g\u00f6kdelende huzur bulamayanlar, 200 bin US Dolar \u00f6demi\u015f ve uzaya u\u00e7ma heveslileri s\u0131ra bekliyor.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcnyadan ka\u00e7mak isteyenler, ma\u011faradan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p evlerde, dairelerde ya\u015fayanlar, emekleyerek y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi \u00f6\u011frenenler, harfleri s\u00f6k\u00fcp okumay\u0131 s\u00f6kenler, resim yapmay\u0131 ya da ta\u015f oyup heykel dikmeyi becerenler\u2026 \u00d6yleyse, insanlar neden korkuyorlar. Neden hep kendilerini koruyacak s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaklar\u0131 birini, bir yeri arama pe\u015findeler! Neden bulduklar\u0131yla yetinmeyip hep yeni bir s\u0131\u011f\u0131nak aramaktan vazge\u00e7miyorlar? Payla\u015f\u0131lamayan nedir? Yaratan t\u00fcm renkleri baharda, t\u00fcm meyveleri g\u00fczde, herkese yetecek S\u0131\u00e7ak ve so\u011fu yaz ve k\u0131\u015fta vermiyor mu? G\u00fczellikler i\u00e7inde bo\u011fulmak isteyip de mahrum kalan m\u0131 var?<\/p>\n<p>Yolun sonunda oldu\u011fumu hissedip, bu kadar \u00e7ok \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fclmemi\u015f sorunla, s\u0131rt\u0131nda \u00e7uval \u00e7uval dertle son yola \u00e7\u0131kmak ne zor bir bilseniz! \u00a0Bazen insan delirir ve d\u00fcnya karas\u0131n\u0131 betonlar, ba\u015ftanba\u015fa asfaltlar m\u0131 acaba gibi sorular soruyorum kendime. Bb\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7ekler birlik olup o hayat d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131 kara asfalt\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131p hayata yeniden ya\u015fama hakk\u0131 verebilir mi sorusu ge\u00e7iyor akl\u0131mdan. Bir defas\u0131nda, arabamla Almanya\u2019da Nazi fa\u015fistlerinin bir metre kal\u0131n betonla d\u00f6\u015fedikleri yollardan birisinin tam ortas\u0131nda, betonu delmi\u015f, siyah vebaya \u201c<strong>ben seni yendim, yani deldim<\/strong>\u201d deyen gururlu bir papatya \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm, asla unutamam.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-4163803187\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Herodotos \u201c<strong>Tarih<\/strong>\u201dinde derinli\u011fin derinliklerini anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011flarda, insanlar\u0131n yak\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyadan ayr\u0131lmas\u0131na f\u0131rsat tan\u0131mamak ve ya\u015fayanlarla birlikte d\u00fcnya hayat\u0131na devam etmelerini sa\u011flamak i\u00e7in, \u00f6l\u00fclerini yediklerini yaz\u0131yor. Hintlilerin ise, vuslata gidenlerin y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc azaltmak i\u00e7in cesetlerini yakt\u0131klar\u0131 bilinir. Afrikal\u0131lar\u0131n adetlerini bilmiyorum. Bulgaristan\u2019da Romen Mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rmedim. Kafamdaki en canl\u0131 soru: \u0130nsan do\u011fdu\u011fu yere mi g\u00f6m\u00fclmelidir? D\u00fcnya cenneti ile \u00f6b\u00fcr d\u00fcnya cenneti ayn\u0131 yerdeyse, yerim k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn kabristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r demek.\u00a0 Bazen hayat\u0131m\u0131 bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da \u00f6zetlemek istedi\u011fim oluyor. Ate\u015fle suyun, ya\u015famla \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin, do\u011fumla \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn, huzurla kavgan\u0131n\u2026 Karde\u015fli\u011fini seziyorum. Yokolu\u015fu hi\u00e7 g\u00f6remedim. Yokolu\u015f yok gibi\u2026 Ben bu d\u00fcnyadan Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerinin vatan t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyerek gitmek istiyorum. Ihlamur kokulu, akasya beyazl\u0131, menek\u015fe morlu, g\u00fcllerin s\u00fct al\u0131yla bezenmi\u015f, r\u00fczg\u00e2rlarla g\u00f6n\u00fcllere dolup ya\u015famak istiyorum.<\/p>\n<p>Geriye d\u00f6nmek, geriye bakmak \u00e7ok zor geliyor. Hepinizi \u00e7ok seviyorum.<\/p>\n<p>Bug\u00fcn Viyana\u2019dan bizim oralar\u0131 b\u00f6yle g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Sa\u011fl\u0131cakla kal\u0131n. Kendinize iyi bak\u0131n.<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-3646759646\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0Osman B\u00dcLB\u00dcL Tarih: 14 May\u0131s 2017 Konu: D\u00fcnya cenneti ile \u00f6b\u00fcr d\u00fcnya cenneti ayn\u0131 yerdeyse, yerim k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kabristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ben bu d\u00fcnyadan Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerinin<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-23023","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-5Zl","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23023","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=23023"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/23023\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=23023"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=23023"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=23023"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}