{"id":20427,"date":"2016-09-04T08:05:27","date_gmt":"2016-09-04T05:05:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=20427"},"modified":"2016-09-04T08:10:20","modified_gmt":"2016-09-04T05:10:20","slug":"gecmis-asla-olmez","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/gecmis-asla-olmez\/","title":{"rendered":"Ge\u00e7mi\u015f Asla \u00d6lmez"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/05\/NER%C4%B0MAN-ERALP.jpg?resize=130%2C190\" alt=\"NER\u0130MAN ERALP\" width=\"130\" height=\"190\" \/>\u00a0Neriman ERALP KALYONCUO\u011eLU<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Kahraman bac\u0131m\u0131z H\u00fcsn\u00fcye yengemizi an\u0131yoruz<\/strong>!<\/p>\n<h5><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/2.bp.blogspot.com\/-lI0oE638CVI\/VItCpe3cLwI\/AAAAAAAAVs8\/5iHimdWzUfk\/s1600\/%C3%96L%C3%9CM%C3%9C%2BN%C4%B0%C5%9EAN%2BSE%C3%87T%C4%B0.jpg?resize=640%2C683\" width=\"640\" height=\"683\" \/>H\u00fcsniye RECEP &#8211; \u0130smini de\u011fi\u015ftirmez.<\/h5>\n<h5>Konu: <strong>T\u00fcrkl\u00fck mayam\u0131zdan son damlay\u0131 koruyan,<\/strong><strong>\u00a0\u00a0<\/strong><\/h5>\n<p>Toplumsal evrimi ve devrimi etkileyen zek\u00e2 de\u011fil, duygular oldu\u011funu hep unutuyoruz. Bizim kendimizi T\u00fcrk hissetmemiz zek\u00e2 \u00fcst\u00fc bir olayd\u0131r. T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz duygular\u0131m\u0131zda ya\u015far.<\/p>\n<p>1984 Aral\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00fczerimize ilk kez kur\u015fun at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 an\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcme hedef oldu\u011fumuzu nas\u0131l unutal\u0131m! Birimizi, binimizi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcp bireysel T\u00fcrkl\u00fck bilincimizi, Bulgar kitle bilinci i\u00e7inde eritmek ve ge\u00e7mi\u015fimizi izsiz b\u0131rakmak istemi\u015flerdi. Unutabilir miyiz?<\/p>\n<p>Hi\u00e7 birimiz T\u00fcrkl\u00fck Akademisi bitirmedik. Bizim T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz baba oca\u011f\u0131 k\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fcr. S\u0131k\u0131lan kur\u015funlara ilk kurban T\u00fcrkan k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z oldu. Do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst ismini bile s\u00f6yleyemiyordu. K\u00f6r kur\u015funun hedefinde T\u00fcrkan bebe yani T\u00fcrk kimli\u011fimiz vard\u0131. Bizim T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz bir ve binde tektir, ayn\u0131d\u0131r. Ve bir zek\u00e2 olarak de\u011fil, bir duygu dokusu olarak do\u011fup geli\u015fmi\u015f ve kemikle\u015fti\u011fi i\u00e7in askerden, tanktan, toptan korkmad\u0131. Biz Kayloba direni\u015finde ilk kez Bulgaristan T\u00fcrkleri kitle bilincinin ki\u015filiksiz oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Anlam\u0131 \u015fudur.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-64817842\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Hasan benden b\u00fcy\u00fck T\u00fcrk ya da Mehmet Mustafa\u2019dan daha az T\u00fcrk<\/strong>! Deyen olmadan, her birimizin T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcn ortak b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ve yenilmezli\u011fini g\u00f6rebildik. Bu birlik ve beraberlikten do\u011fan ve bir \u00e7\u0131\u011f gibi tekerlendik\u00e7e b\u00fcy\u00fcyen ve \u00f6n\u00fc al\u0131nmaz bir kudrete d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fen DEVR\u0130MC\u0130 Y\u00dcKSEL\u0130\u015e dedi\u011fimiz sosyal olay\u0131n i\u00e7inde birbirine benzeyen ve benzemeyen, birbirini tamamlayan, birbirine \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f simalar g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Her biri T\u00fcrkl\u00fck sembol\u00fcyd\u00fc. Her biri bir kahramand\u0131. Her biri T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130simlerimizin ve kimliklerimizin de\u011fi\u015ftirilmesine kar\u015f\u0131 bir devrimci ruh ve eyleme d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fen ulusal hareketlenmemizin i\u00e7inde tek tek kahramanlar\u0131n ki\u015fisel bilincini yitirdi\u011fini, kolektif bir bilince boyun e\u011fmesine tan\u0131k olduk. Bunu en a\u00e7\u0131k ve sade bi\u00e7imde \u015f\u00f6yle ya\u015fad\u0131k.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201c<strong>\u015eimdi ne olacak, ne yapaca\u011f\u0131z<\/strong>?\u201d sorusuna yan\u0131t arayanlar, cevap<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>vermiyor, sa\u011f\u0131na soluna bak\u0131yor, arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zlerini ar\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Anlam\u0131nda, ki\u015fisel bilincin, kitlesel bilince boyun e\u011fdi\u011fi belirirken,<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>kolektif bilin\u00e7 ve ahlakta belirleyici olan\u0131nsa, y\u00fcreklendiren, y\u00f6neten, lider olan ki\u015finin ruh halinin, at\u0131lganl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n belirleyici oldu\u011fu ortaya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Mestanl\u0131\u2019dakiler tek yumruk halinde birlikte kar\u015f\u0131 koyanlar\u0131n dik duru\u015flar\u0131nda da bu izlendi. Son anda belirleyici olan, genelde, s\u00f6zde de\u011fil, d\u00fc\u011fmelerini kopar\u0131p g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc kur\u015funlara a\u00e7an irade oldu.<\/p>\n<p>Konuya bu kap\u0131dan girmemin nedeni, Mestanl\u0131l\u0131 H\u00fcsn\u00fcye Ablam\u0131z\u0131n hayata g\u00f6zlerini yummas\u0131n\u0131n 9. y\u0131ld\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcnde kahramanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na duydu\u011fumuz sonsuz sayg\u0131d\u0131r. O, Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerini irade ve ruhunu oldu\u011fu gibi lekeletmeden, kirletmeden koruyabilen ulusal kahraman\u0131m\u0131z, ba\u015f tac\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r. O sava\u015f meydan\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015fleri ye\u011flemedi, sava\u015ft\u0131 ve kazand\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1556910758\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ben bir gen\u00e7 ku\u015fak temsilcisiyim. Onu ilk kez keskin kalemlerimizden Hikmet Efendiev\u2019in \u201c<strong>Kaynak<\/strong>\u201d dergisinde \u00e7\u0131kan bir yaz\u0131s\u0131nda tan\u0131d\u0131m. H\u00fcsn\u00fcye \u00f6\u011fretmen art\u0131k yar\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131za t\u00fcrk\u00fc oldu. O yaz\u0131da, 1997 -2001 Bulgaristan Ba\u015fbakan\u0131 olan \u0130van Kostov\u2019un Bursa\u2019ya giderek g\u00f6\u00e7men kitlesinden \u00f6z\u00fcr dilemesi ve k\u00fcrs\u00fcden inerek H\u00fcsniye Ablam\u0131z\u0131n ellerine sar\u0131larak aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pmesi oldu. Daha sonra bir g\u00fcn babam memleketten d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde \u00e7antas\u0131ndan bir \u201c<strong>D\u0131rjaven Vestn\u0131k<\/strong>\u201d (Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n resmi gazetesidir) \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ve bana<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Bak k\u0131z\u0131m. Bizim hepsimizin adlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirdiler. Hatta kur\u015funlanarak<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>\u00f6len karde\u015flerimiz bile kara Topra\u011fa Bulgar ad\u0131yla girdi. Fakat bizim tohumumuz kurumad\u0131. \u015euras\u0131n\u0131 oku, bak H\u00fcsniye yaz\u0131yor. O Mestanl\u0131\u2019da \u00f6\u011fretmendi. Tutukland\u0131, \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d\u00a0 \u00d6l\u00fcm Kamp\u0131nda en a\u011f\u0131rla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ko\u015fullarda tutulsa da, y\u00fcz karas\u0131, kahrolas\u0131 imzay\u0131 atmad\u0131 ve <strong>\u015eANLI TAR\u0130H\u0130M\u0130ZDE ALTIN SAYFA OLDU<\/strong>, dedi\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Sosyalizm y\u0131llar\u0131nda Bulgar kafam\u0131za e\u015fitlik zehri sokmu\u015ftu. \u0130slam dinini her bak\u0131ma yasaklarken \u201c<strong>Allah\u2019\u0131n kesti\u011fi parmak kanamaz ve ac\u0131maz!\u201d \u00a0<\/strong>propagandas\u0131 yap\u0131yordu. Hepimizin ismini birden de\u011fi\u015ftirmek, hepimizin T\u00fcrk kimli\u011fimizi yasaklayacak ve hepimizi karanl\u0131klar\u0131n en zindan\u0131na kapayacaklard\u0131. Haz\u0131rl\u0131k yap\u0131yordu. Kafam\u0131za neden k\u00f6r \u00e7ivi kakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zememi\u015ftik.<\/p>\n<p>Babam bana gazeteyi g\u00f6sterirken, g\u00f6zleri ya\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. T\u00fcrkl\u00fck a\u015f\u0131m\u0131 b\u00f6yle verdi. Duygu d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda en dolu doyumluk \u00f6rnektir. O zaman, babam akl\u0131 duyguya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f ve bana Bulgaristan T\u00fcrk Kimli\u011fi a\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu, ne silinen ne de s\u00f6k\u00fclebilen bir hissiyatt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Bulgar devleti ve toplumu bizim T\u00fcrk zek\u00e2m\u0131z\u0131 100 y\u0131l zay\u0131flatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bug\u00fcn de derdi biziz. Mektepsiz, okulsuz, hocas\u0131z, \u00f6\u011fretmensiz, \u00f6ndersiz, yol g\u00f6stericisiz kald\u0131k, ama bizden s\u00f6k\u00fcp alamad\u0131klar\u0131, yede\u011fiyle de\u011fi\u015ftirip yeniden yerine takamad\u0131klar\u0131 duygu sistemimiz oldu\u011funu ve bunu pes etmenin, k\u0131rman\u0131n, d\u00f6kmenin, kur\u015funlaman\u0131n m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayamam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Demokrasiyi s\u0131n\u0131rlayabilirdi, tarlalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, de\u011firmenlerimizi, \u00f6k\u00fczlerimizi, ke\u00e7ilerimizi gasp edebilirdi, fakat T\u00fcrk kimli\u011fimizi, dayan\u0131kl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, sars\u0131lmaz irademizi, sab\u0131rl\u0131 ruhumuzu asla hezimete u\u011fratamazd\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2996487930\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ve H\u00fcsniye Abla\u2019n\u0131n tutukland\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn \u00f6yle bir g\u00fcnd\u00fc. Y\u0131l 1985, kar-k\u0131\u015f bacada, polis kap\u0131da, etraf buz kesmi\u015f, S\u00fctl\u00fc boyunca gelen r\u00fczg\u00e2r sanki T\u00fcrklere evlerinize toplan\u0131n, etraftan kaybolun sinyali veriyordu.<\/p>\n<p>H\u00fcsniye \u00f6\u011fretmeni milis arabas\u0131na t\u0131karken yan\u0131na de\u011fil anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u00fcn yele\u011fi ve k\u0131\u015f paltosunu, kumral sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 taramaya bir tarak almas\u0131na bile izin vermediler. K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z\u0131 kap\u0131da, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 yanaklar\u0131nda donup kalm\u0131\u015f, kom\u015fu Bulgarlarsa kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kapam\u0131\u015f, perdelerini \u00e7ekmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>Bulgar bilim enstit\u00fclerinde, polis e\u011fitim merkezlerinde hatta Sofya \u00dcniversite\u2019sinin Psikoloji B\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde yap\u0131lan ara\u015ft\u0131rmalarda Bulgaristan\u2019daki yerli M\u00fcsl\u00fcman T\u00fcrklerin bir <strong>anaerkil toplum<\/strong> olduklar\u0131 ve ailede kad\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131r bast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc tespit edememi\u015flerdi. Oysa d\u00fcnyaya \u201c<strong>soya d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f<\/strong>\u201d ad\u0131yla tan\u0131t\u0131lan isim ve kimlik de\u011fi\u015ftirme s\u00fcreci i\u00e7in yakla\u015f\u0131k 40 y\u0131l haz\u0131rl\u0131k g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fler, \u201c<strong>f\u0131kradan bilimsel teori olarak tan\u0131tt\u0131klar\u0131 sa\u00e7mal\u0131klara kadar i\u011fneden ipli\u011fe haz\u0131rl\u0131k g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015flerdi<\/strong>\u201d, fakat Bulgaristan T\u00fcrk etnik toplulu\u011funun bir anaerkil halk toplulu\u011fu oldu\u011funa ve \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131 direni\u015fle y\u00fczle\u015feceklerine ak\u0131l erdirememi\u015flerdi. T\u00fcrk kad\u0131nda \u00fcst\u00fcn nitelikler oldu\u011funu \u00e7ok sonralar\u0131 kavrayacaklard\u0131. Hatta s\u00f6zde her \u015fey bittikten sonra 1989 Aral\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Sofya Meclis binas\u0131n\u0131 ku\u015fatan kitlenin de de\u011fi\u015fik ya\u015fta kad\u0131nlardan olu\u015fmas\u0131, ta a 1994\u2019te Cebelli gelinlerimizin katranl\u0131 ellerle kara asfalt \u00fczerine yatarak Amerikan B\u00fcy\u00fckel\u00e7isi ile H\u00d6H lideri Ahmet Do\u011fan\u2019a yol kesene kadar bu bilince varamam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Rodop Da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131n ve Deliorman\u2019\u0131n Kara Kartallar\u0131 o y\u00fcr\u00fcrken hep yere bakan, kar\u015f\u0131dan biri geldi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce beyaz b\u00fcrg\u00fcs\u00fcyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc hafiften kapatan, elleri hep dolu, ayd\u0131n kafal\u0131 kad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z, analar\u0131m\u0131z, k\u0131z karde\u015flerimiz ve e\u015flerimiz oldu\u011fu bilincine varamad\u0131lar. Analar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hi\u00e7e saym\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Onu tutuklar\u0131nda da imza att\u0131r\u0131p salar\u0131z, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015flerdi. H\u00fcsniye \u00f6\u011fretmenin g\u00f6z\u00fc kalem g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, eli kaleme gitmiyordu. Hele bu i\u015fi kendisinin g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olarak ve e\u015fi ve k\u0131z\u0131 ad\u0131na istedi\u011fi konusuna asla girmek istemedi. Bir ara durdu. K\u0131rcaali Milis \u015eefi Kadirev\u2019in g\u00f6z\u00fcne bakt\u0131 ve<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Size bir soru sorabilir miyim? dedi:<\/li>\n<li>Evet buyurun dedi, m\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/li>\n<li>Bir M\u00fcsl\u00fcman fesini \u00e7\u0131karsa ve papaz k\u00fclahl\u0131 ge\u00e7irse kafas\u0131na, H\u0131ristiyan olur mu?<\/li>\n<li>Olmaz!, cevab\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131.<\/li>\n<li>Bulgar ismi alan bir T\u00fcrk\u00fcn Bulgar olaca\u011f\u0131 nereden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131!? Diye ekledi.<\/li>\n<li>Al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, dedi Kadirev ve \u201c<strong>\u00c7\u0131kar\u0131n \u015funu odamdan,<\/strong> \u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d emrini verdi.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Belene<\/strong>\u201d uzakt\u0131. Y\u00fck treni vagonlar\u0131 \u00f6nce Sofya\u2019ya, sonra Plevne\u2019ye, Veliko T\u0131rnovaya ve en sonunda da \u00fcst\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131k bir kamyonetle elleri ve ayaklar\u0131 kelep\u00e7eli g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcler Tuna ortas\u0131ndaki adaya kadar. Ada karla kapl\u0131yd\u0131. Bacalar t\u00fctm\u00fcyor, kurnalar buz tutmu\u015f, Tuna da dayamam\u0131\u015f so\u011fu\u011fa ve bu kadar so\u011fu\u011fun bir araya topland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu yerde onun can\u0131n\u0131 ac\u0131dan bileklerine yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f kelep\u00e7elerin \u201c<strong>imzalamazsan, etlerini ve damarlar\u0131n\u0131 koparaca\u011f\u0131z<\/strong>\u201d diye \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k atmas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1709085722\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>G\u00f6\u00e7ten sonra Bursa\u2019da bir\u00e7ok okul ziyaret etti, ba\u015f\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enleri \u201c<strong>\u00f6\u011frencilere \u00e7ok anlatt\u0131<\/strong>.\u201d Ve dinleyen k\u00f6rpelerin g\u00f6zlerine bakarken, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zulm\u00fc, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc i\u015fkenceleri anlatmakla ba\u015fkalar\u0131na bir bilin\u00e7 olarak a\u015f\u0131layabilmenin adeta bir olamaz oldu\u011fu bilincine vard\u0131. Ac\u0131n\u0131n duyguda\u015f\u0131 olup ayn\u0131 olay\u0131 birlikte ya\u015famak imk\u00e2ns\u0131zd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131na gelenlerde bir ger\u00e7ek pay\u0131 ya da bir inan\u00e7 pay\u0131 yoktu. Bulgarlar\u0131n iddialar\u0131 sa\u00e7ma oldu\u011fu kadar ak\u0131l d\u0131\u015f\u0131 ve isten\u00e7 d\u0131\u015f\u0131yd\u0131. Ondan istenenlerde zorluk \u00e7\u0131karmadan kabul edilebilecek hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yoktu ve di\u015fleri s\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e, t\u0131rnaklar\u0131na \u00e7ivi \u00e7ak\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a ve buzlu su havuzuna at\u0131ld\u0131k\u00e7a direnci sanki su al\u0131p daha da sertle\u015fiyor ve ruhum teslim olmad\u0131k\u00e7a bedenim ya\u015fayacakt\u0131r, diyordu kendi kendine, daha do\u011frusu akl\u0131ndan ge\u00e7enler bunlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Bir g\u00fcn yine b\u00f6yle bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeden, g\u00f6\u00e7men k\u0131z\u0131 Ay\u015fe Korkmaz,<\/strong><\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201cHangi i\u015fkenceye en zor dayand\u0131n\u0131z H\u00fcsniye Anne?\u201d diye sordu.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 cama \u00e7evirip kar\u015f\u0131daki kestane a\u011f\u0131c\u0131na bakarak konu\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201cBen, bedenime yap\u0131lan i\u015fkencelerin say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ve isimlerini bilmem. Siz de<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsunuz ellerim kollar\u0131n, s\u0131rt\u0131m bug\u00fcn de yara bere i\u00e7inde, s\u0131z\u0131lar\u0131 savsa bile izleri kald\u0131.\u00a0 Bir g\u00fcn besbelli dayanamam\u0131\u015f\u0131m ve \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme karar vermi\u015fler. Fakat yukar\u0131dan gelen bir emirde \u201c<strong>ne yaparsan\u0131z yap\u0131n ama \u201cBe\u015flene\u201d kamp\u0131ndan ceset \u00e7\u0131kmas\u0131n<\/strong>!\u201d denmi\u015f. \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015fsem beni yak\u0131nlar\u0131ma teslim etmeleri, ya toplu mezara g\u00f6mmeleri yada kay\u0131plara kar\u0131\u015fmam gerekmez mi? \u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131k i\u00e7inde i\u015fkenceciler cesedimi \u201c<strong>derin dondurucuya kapama<\/strong>\u201d karar\u0131 alm\u0131\u015flar. Ellerimden ayaklar\u0131mdan yakalad\u0131klar\u0131 gibi, \u00e7engellerde boy boy as\u0131l\u0131 domuzlar\u0131n yan\u0131na beni de uzat\u0131p gitmi\u015fler. Derin dondurucu kamara kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ka\u00e7 saatten ka\u00e7 g\u00fcnden sonra a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorum ama can<strong> \u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor i\u015fte\u2026<\/strong>\u00a0 Kendime geldi\u011fimde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir kapal\u0131 saha i\u00e7inde \u00e7imento \u00fczerinde yat\u0131yordu. Hangi i\u015fkenceye en zor dayand\u0131n\u0131z, diye sordun ya Ay\u015fe k\u0131z\u0131m. O donmu\u015f v\u00fccudun yeniden \u0131s\u0131nmas\u0131 ve buzlar\u0131 eritip canlanmas\u0131 var ya, hi\u00e7 sorma k\u0131z\u0131m. Bunu ancak ya\u015fayan bilir. Bunu hi\u00e7 birinizin ya\u015faman\u0131z\u0131 istemem. Bunun i\u00e7in T\u00fcrkl\u00fck davas\u0131, kimlik davam\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n en zor davas\u0131d\u0131r. T\u00fcrk olmak, T\u00fcrk kalmak, T\u00fcrkl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya\u015fatmak \u00e7ok zor k\u0131z\u0131m!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Ne mutlu T\u00fcrk\u00fcm diyene derin anlam\u0131nda H\u00fcsn\u00fcye Ablam\u0131z\u0131n sayg\u0131n an\u0131s\u0131, 1984- 89 kavgam\u0131z\u0131n kan\u0131 ve s\u0131z\u0131lar\u0131 var. Hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey unutulmam\u0131\u015f ve unutulmayacakt\u0131r. Biz Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerinin sert omurga kemi\u011fi bu kavgalarda olu\u015ftu ve her an\u0131n\u0131 ebediyen ya\u015fatmak zorunday\u0131z.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2513778983\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Kahramanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 sayg\u0131yla an\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n<p>Onlar\u0131n aziz hat\u0131ralar\u0131yla ya\u015f\u0131yoruz.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3790418018\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-1493961155\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0Neriman ERALP KALYONCUO\u011eLU Kahraman bac\u0131m\u0131z H\u00fcsn\u00fcye yengemizi an\u0131yoruz! 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