{"id":14251,"date":"2015-03-23T09:49:48","date_gmt":"2015-03-23T07:49:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=14251"},"modified":"2015-03-23T09:49:48","modified_gmt":"2015-03-23T07:49:48","slug":"sessiz-iskenceler","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/sessiz-iskenceler\/","title":{"rendered":"Sessiz \u0130\u015fkenceler"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Muazzes YURDAKUL<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Cezaevi denilen yerde i\u015fkence uygulanmamas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclemez. Bu, Bulgar cezaevlerinde sessizce yap\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u0130\u015fkenceler mahk\u00fbmlara ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirmek, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc vermek ve \u0131st\u0131rap i\u00e7ine itmek i\u00e7in yap\u0131l\u0131yordu. Bu y\u00fczden ben cezaevine hep ISTRAP EV\u0130 dedim durdum. ISTIRAP EV\u0130 olur da, duvarlar\u0131, pencereleri, tavanlar\u0131, kap\u0131s\u0131, karyolas\u0131, d\u00f6\u015fe\u011fi, her \u015feyi, her \u015feyi \u0131st\u0131raptan, ac\u0131dan yap\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f olur muydu? Demir kap\u0131lar\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0131st\u0131rap, kapan\u0131\u015f\u0131 ac\u0131, yat emri dert, kalk borusu \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc idi. Ist\u0131rap evinde mahk\u00fbmlar \u0131st\u0131rap solur, \u0131st\u0131rap yer, \u0131st\u0131rap i\u00e7erler. Ist\u0131rap evinde mahk\u00fbmlar\u0131n i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekti\u011fi hava \u0131st\u0131rapt\u0131r, ac\u0131d\u0131r, derttir, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u00fcr. Siyasi tutuklular i\u00e7in \u0131st\u0131rap evinde ge\u00e7en her dakika, ac\u0131d\u0131r, derttir, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u00fcr. .. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar bu eve beyinlerinin y\u0131kanmas\u0131 ve kom\u00fcnistlere uyum sa\u011flam\u0131\u015f bir bi\u00e7imde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeleri, daha do\u011frusu, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden onlar\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi hareket etmeleri kapat\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Rus\u00e7uk\u2019lu Sabri bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesini her yeri geldi\u011finde y\u00f6neticilere s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu. Sabriye dokuz ay s\u00fcresince kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n mektuplar\u0131 verilmemi\u015fti. Ama\u00e7, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kendisini b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 san\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 vermek. Ama Sabri kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kendisini b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131na hi\u00e7 inanmad\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden a\u00e7l\u0131k grevine ba\u015flad\u0131. On ikinci g\u00fcnde kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeye getirdiler. K\u00f6yde kar\u0131s\u0131na da ayn\u0131 al\u00e7ak\u00e7a metodu uygulam\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>B\u00fct\u00fcn mahpuslar rejim alt\u0131ndayd\u0131. Rejimler hafif, umum, s\u0131k\u0131, \u00e7ok s\u0131k\u0131 ve \u00f6zel olmak \u00fczere be\u015f \u00e7e\u015fitti. Hafif ve umum rejimler, cinailer i\u00e7in, di\u011ferleri, yani sert olanlar siyasiler i\u00e7indi. Mektup g\u00f6ndermek ve almak k\u0131s\u0131tl\u0131 idi. \u00dcstelik hangi milletten olursan ol, mektuplar Bulgarca yaz\u0131lmal\u0131yd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc giren de \u00e7\u0131kan da okunuyordu. Anlay\u0131\u015flar\u0131na uymayan mektuplar al\u0131 konuluyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1088734129\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeler rejime g\u00f6re ayda bir, iki ayda bir, \u00fc\u00e7 ayda bir, \u00f6zel rejimlere ise y\u0131lda birdi. Evden yemekli ve meyveli koli almak da \u00f6yleydi. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeye gelen ki\u015filerin getirdi\u011fi az\u0131k, meyve ve sebzeler grama kadar tart\u0131l\u0131yor, fazlar\u0131 geri \u00e7evriliyordu.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>En al\u00e7ak\u00e7a yap\u0131lan bir haks\u0131zl\u0131k da, biz T\u00fcrkleri g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerde yak\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131zla, Bulgarca bilmeyen ana babalar\u0131m\u0131zla Bulgarca konu\u015fma zorunlulu\u011fu idi.\u00a0 Her iki taraftan birinin a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan T\u00fcrk\u00e7e kelime, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeyi yar\u0131da b\u0131rakmaya yeterli idi. Y\u00fczlerce kilometre uzaktan, o\u011flunu g\u00f6rmeye gelen onlarca ya\u015fl\u0131 ana, o\u011fluna tek kelime s\u00f6ylemeden, nas\u0131ls\u0131n dahi deyemeden eve d\u00f6n\u00fcp gitmi\u015flerdir. B\u00f6yle bir anan\u0131n g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 kurur mu, i\u00e7i ferahlar m\u0131 dersiniz? Hi\u00e7 unutmam. Bir g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmede annem geldi. Yaln\u0131z de\u011fildi tabii. Di\u011ferleri ile konu\u015ftuk, anneci\u011fim k\u0131rk dakika s\u00fcreyle hep a\u011flad\u0131. O a\u011flar da ben durur muyum. Ben de ona bak\u0131p bak\u0131p a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-52388734\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Di\u011fer bir al\u00e7akl\u0131k da, her iki yan\u0131m\u0131zda birer polisin bizi dinlemesiydi. Her ikisi de ellerinde kalem, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131kacak \u201cyaramaz\u201d kelimeyi yazmaya haz\u0131rd\u0131. Yaramaz dedi\u011fim onlar\u0131n siyasetine uymayacak bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bir\u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u201cFalanca burada ama seninle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmek istemiyor.\u201d Deyip, geleni geri g\u00f6nderiyorlard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Cezalar\u0131n en a\u011f\u0131r\u0131, iki ya da \u00fc\u00e7 d\u00f6rt ayda yapaca\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeden yoksun edilmendi. Dinleyen polisler ho\u015flar\u0131na gitmeyen bir \u015feyden, ya da T\u00fcrk\u00e7e s\u00f6ylenen bir s\u00f6zden \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeyi an\u0131nda iptal edebiliyorlard\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1145409920\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015f yerinde verilen i\u015fi bitirememek, emrin icra edilmedi\u011fi bahanesiyle, ceza h\u00fccresine g\u00f6ndermekle cezaland\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Mahpuslar\u0131 \u00fczmek, ezmek, incitmek, ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirmek i\u00e7in bir bahane de yataklar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki battaniyelerin d\u00fczg\u00fcn yap\u0131lmamas\u0131 idi. Bu sorun, b\u00fct\u00fcn sorunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, \u00f6nemce ilk s\u0131rada bulunuyordu. Bu soruna BELENE\u2019de karyolan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne konulan battaniyenin d\u00fczg\u00fcn olmas\u0131 normaldi, ama her \u015feyi milimetre ile \u00f6l\u00e7erek, son derece \u00f6zenerek yapmaya ne gerek oldu\u011funu hala anlam\u0131\u015f de\u011filim, bu y\u00fczden ceza h\u00fccresine g\u00f6nderilenler hi\u00e7 de az de\u011fildi.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-652568538\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Benim cezaevinde oldu\u011fum s\u0131rada (1981) Kom\u00fcnist Partisinin kongresi yap\u0131lacakt\u0131. Kongre \u00f6n\u00fcnde bir tak\u0131m projelerin okunmas\u0131 i\u00e7in bizi her ak\u015fam i\u015ften sonra topluyorlard\u0131. Gitmek istemeyenler an\u0131nda ceza h\u00fccresine g\u00f6nderiliyordu. Bu da i\u015fkencelerden biri say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Tek s\u00f6zle, Bulgaristan\u2019da cezaevinde olmayanlar\u0131n bile kendi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve fikirlerine sayg\u0131 g\u00f6sterilmezken, mahpuslar\u0131n isteklerine, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerine sayg\u0131 g\u00f6stermek kimin haddineydi?<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Birka\u00e7 i\u015fkence usul\u00fc de, be\u015f alt\u0131 ayl\u0131k aral\u0131klarla, mahpuslar\u0131n t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, bir deney amac\u0131 ile olacak, ishale u\u011fratmakt\u0131. Bir bakm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, gece, saat on iki, bir \u00fcstlerin h\u00fccre kap\u0131lar\u0131 g\u00fcm g\u00fcm g\u00fcm d\u00f6v\u00fclmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Az sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn cezaevi aya\u011fa kalk\u0131yor, tuvalete ko\u015fan ko\u015fana, tuvalet kofalar\u0131n\u0131 kavrayan kavrayana\u2026 Ak\u015fam ya da \u00f6\u011flen yemek ile verilen bir \u015fey, bir madde, az istisna ile b\u00fct\u00fcn mahpuslar\u0131 ishale u\u011frat\u0131yordu. \u00a0Kimi ise \u00f6nden arkadan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yordu. \u0130lgin\u00e7 olan, mahpuslar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na gelen bu felaketi g\u00f6rmeye cezaevinin b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u00f6neticileri, m\u00fcd\u00fcr de dahil, gelip demir parmakl\u0131lar\u0131n ard\u0131nda s\u0131r\u0131tarak bizi seyrediyorlard\u0131. Bazen bu durum sabaha kadar s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. O g\u00fcn i\u015fe gidemeyecek kadar bitik olanlar da vard\u0131. Ben cezaevinde bulundu\u011fum s\u00fcrede bu, be\u015f kere tekrarlad\u0131. Bir defas\u0131nda \u015eaban Cimpiri, GESTAPO lakab\u0131 verdi\u011fimiz m\u00fcfreze \u015fefine: \u201cBu deneylere art\u0131k son vermeyecek misiniz?\u201d dedi yar\u0131 \u015faka, yar\u0131 ger\u00e7ek. Ad\u0131 P\u0130N\u00c7EV olan \u015fef, gafil avlanm\u0131\u015f olacak ki acele acele cevap verdi: \u201cBu son. Bu son.\u201d M\u00fcfreze \u015fefinin cevab\u0131, bu t\u00fcr deneylerin kas\u0131tl\u0131 olarak yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 apa\u00e7\u0131k g\u00f6steriyordu.\u00a0 Bir maddenin \u201ctopluca zehirleme\u201d g\u00fcc\u00fc mahpuslar \u00fczerinde deneniyordu. Kom\u00fcnist y\u00f6neticilerin g\u00f6z\u00fcnde mahpuslar\u0131n de\u011feri, deney farelerinden farks\u0131zd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>M\u00fczik iyi, \u00e7ok iyi bir \u015feydir ya, \u00e7e\u015fitleri vard\u0131r. G\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcye benzeyen m\u00fczik ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131t\u0131r, yorar k\u0131rar adam\u0131. Cezaevinde her h\u00fccrede bulunan hoparl\u00f6rlerden gelen m\u00fczik, \u00e7o\u011funlukla insan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131t\u0131r, beyin zonklatan bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc idi. Onlar, cezaevinin bir merkezinden y\u00f6netiliyordu. Herkes y\u00f6netmenli\u011fin sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fczi\u011fi dinlemeye mecburdu. Her taraftan s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131 kapat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f dmrt duvar aras\u0131nda, sonuna kadar a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f radyodan senfonik m\u00fczik ya da opera m\u00fczi\u011fi dinledi\u011finiz var m\u0131 sizin? Do\u011fruyu s\u00f6yleyeyim ben hastalan\u0131yordum. Durdurmaya da imk\u00e2n\u0131m\u0131z yoktu. \u011estelik durdurmak yasakt\u0131. Anla\u015f\u0131l\u0131rsa, cezaland\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yordu. Arkada\u015flardan baz\u0131lar\u0131 \u201cBu da cezan\u0131n i\u00e7ine giriyor\u201d diyorlard\u0131. B\u00f6yle oldu\u011funa ben de inand\u0131m.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2900404918\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fkencenin bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 da so\u011fuktu. Ak\u015famlar\u0131 i\u015ften d\u00f6n\u00fcnce hele k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnleri buz gibi so\u011fuk h\u00fccrelere giriyorduk. Yirmi dakika sonra kap\u0131lar d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan otomatik olarak kapan\u0131yordu. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da kal\u0131p gezinmek yasakt\u0131. \u0130\u00e7eride d\u00f6rt duvar\u0131n aras\u0131nda so\u011fukta durmaya mecburduk. Kaloriferler ta ak\u015fam yeme\u011finden sonra bir saat kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Saat dokuzda elektrikler s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Mum falan yak\u0131p bir \u015feyler okumak kesinlikle yasakt\u0131. Hatta bir \u015fey yapmadan \u00f6ylece oturmak bile yasakt\u0131. \u0130lle de battaniyenin alt\u0131nda olacakt\u0131n. B\u00f6yle uzun k\u0131\u015f gecelerinde s\u0131r s\u0131v\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir vesvese sokulur, beni saatlerce uyutmaz, hayalimde d\u00fcnyalar\u0131 dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu anlar, kendi kendimle ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalabildi\u011fim tek anlard\u0131. Ba\u015fka t\u00fcrl\u00fc her \u015fey beraberdi. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fmak beraber, yemek beraber, yak\u0131nmak beraber, a\u00e7\u0131k hava gezisi beraber, yolda beraber, h\u00fccrede beraber\u2026 Cezaevi sanat adamlar\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 de elveri\u015fli bir yer de\u011fildi.\u00a0 Sanat adam\u0131na yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, kendi kendine kalmak, , vicdan\u0131yla, duygular\u0131yla, her \u015feyiyle ba\u015f ba\u015fa, teke tek kalmak gerekliydi. Akl\u0131ma gelip de kaleme alma imk\u00e2n\u0131 bulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir s\u0131ra \u015fiir d\u00f6rtl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya da b\u00fct\u00fcn bir \u015fiir do\u011fmadan \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Ancak i\u015f yerindeki b\u00fcy\u00fck salonun dip k\u00f6\u015feci\u011finde yar\u0131m\u015far, birer saat kadar yaln\u0131z kalabiliyordum. B\u00f6yle anlarda beynimin bir yanlar\u0131nda, y\u00fcre\u011fimde do\u011fan bir \u015fiirin dizelerini yazabilmek i\u00e7in, elimdeki \u00e7ekici usulca b\u0131rak\u0131p, beni kimsenin g\u00f6remedi\u011fine emin olduktan sonra, kalemi al\u0131yor, yazaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yaz\u0131yor, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t par\u00e7ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 gene katlay\u0131p i\u015fime devam ediyordum. B\u00f6yle b\u00f6yle birka\u00e7 g\u00fcnde bir \u015fiir tamamlayabiliyordum. Tamamlanan \u015fiir yine b\u00f6yle g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle temize \u00e7ekilir, sonra yava\u015f yava\u015f ezberlenirdi. \u015eiiri unutmayacak kadar g\u00fczel \u00f6\u011frendikten sonra, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131p yak\u0131yordum. Cezaevinde do\u011fan \u015fiirlerin t\u00fcm\u00fc, bir uzun kader zincirinin birer halkas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte birinin k\u0131sa hik\u00e2yesi\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn, cezaevi y\u00f6neticilerinden biri bana, \u00fcst\u00fc kapal\u0131, dolayl\u0131 bir bi\u00e7imde kendilerine \u201cYard\u0131mc\u0131\u201d olmam\u0131 teklif etti. Ba\u015fka bir s\u00f6zle bu, hafiye ol demekti. Ama gerekli cevab\u0131 verdikten sonra, ba\u015f\u0131mda \u015fu \u015fiir do\u011fdu:<\/p><div id=\"bghab-910042416\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Tek bir kez kullan\u0131rsam i\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n<p>Keskin k\u0131l\u0131\u00e7la dilim dilim dilinsin elim<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Tek bir kez haks\u0131z s\u00f6ze a\u00e7arsam duda\u011f\u0131m\u0131<\/p><div id=\"bghab-4097536881\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bitirmeden yans\u0131n kurusun dilim<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Tek bir kez k\u00f6t\u00fc yola atsam aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n<p>Dipsiz u\u00e7urumlara iletsin beni yolum<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1905616911\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-40-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Tek bir kez k\u0131zart\u0131rsa yalan s\u00f6z yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131<\/p>\n<p>B\u00fct\u00fcn sevdiklerimden kopar\u0131p als\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm<\/p>\n<p>Sonsuz sonsuzluklara de\u011fin savrulsun k\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Cezaevinde horlayarak, a\u00e7 ve susuz b\u0131rakarak, g\u00fc\u00e7 kullanarak, zul\u00fcm ederek, i\u015fkence uygulayarak, zorla kendi istedi\u011fi bi\u00e7ime sokarak, \u00f6zg\u00fcr insan kafas\u0131n\u0131 ve beynini y\u0131kamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar, ellerini kollar\u0131n\u0131 kelep\u00e7eliyorlar, y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131yorlar ve uyu\u015fturuyorlard\u0131. Bu bir intihara da benziyor ya, de\u011fil. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kom\u00fcnistler bunu sadece kitlelere ve de az\u0131nl\u0131klara uyguluyorlard\u0131. \u00d6rne\u011fin, ben bir fert olarak kalmak, T\u00fcrk olarak hayatta yaratmak istedi\u011fim i\u00e7in \u0131st\u0131rap evindeyim. Ben, ferdi fert olmaktan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p, bir kolektifin, kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n, kilitlenen ki\u015filikten \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131l\u0131p yozla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, s\u00fcr\u00fcle\u015ftirilmi\u015f bir \u00fcyesi durumuna sokmak isteyen her fikre, her inanca, her h\u00fck\u00fcmete kar\u015f\u0131y\u0131m, beni bu anlay\u0131\u015f ve g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmden al\u0131koyacak tek g\u00fc\u00e7 Allah\u2019t\u0131r, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-1148552213\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Muazzes YURDAKUL &nbsp; Cezaevi denilen yerde i\u015fkence uygulanmamas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclemez. Bu, Bulgar cezaevlerinde sessizce yap\u0131l\u0131yordu. \u0130\u015fkenceler mahk\u00fbmlara ac\u0131 \u00e7ektirmek, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc vermek ve \u0131st\u0131rap i\u00e7ine itmek i\u00e7in<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":14175,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14251","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/Muazzez-Yurdakul.jpg?fit=223%2C97&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-3HR","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14251","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14251"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14251\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/14175"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14251"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14251"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14251"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}