{"id":14078,"date":"2015-03-08T00:44:32","date_gmt":"2015-03-07T22:44:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=14078"},"modified":"2015-03-12T23:09:46","modified_gmt":"2015-03-12T21:09:46","slug":"annem","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/annem\/","title":{"rendered":"Annem!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Neriman ERALP<\/p>\n<p>8 Mart vesilesiyledir.<\/p>\n<p>8 Mart uluslar aras\u0131 emek\u00e7i kad\u0131nlar g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz kutlu olsun.<\/p>\n<p>Hepimiz emek\u00e7i kad\u0131n, okuyan k\u0131z, anne ve nineyiz.<\/p>\n<p>Bayram\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ger\u00e7ek kimli\u011fimizi anlatan bir \u00f6yk\u00fcyle kutluyoruz.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2504434757\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Annem!<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bu \u00f6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na Tek G\u00f6zl\u00fc Anne demem gerekirdi de, y\u00fcre\u011fim varmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1398660360\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Olay \u015f\u00f6yledir.<\/p>\n<p>Annemin yaln\u0131z bir g\u00f6z\u00fc vard\u0131. Onun tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc olmas\u0131 bana b\u00fcy\u00fck bir utan\u00e7 y\u00fck\u00fcyd\u00fc ve ben kendisinden nefret ediyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Pazarda ufak bir d\u00fckk\u00e2n\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. \u0130htiyac\u0131m\u0131z olan paray\u0131 kazanmak i\u00e7in tohum sat\u0131n al\u0131r, eline d\u00fc\u015feni satard\u0131. Onun yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu i\u015finden de fazlas\u0131yla nefret ediyordum.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Okuldaki ana-babalarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmelerin birine o da geldi. \u00c7ok s\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7im i\u00e7ime s\u0131\u011fm\u0131yordu. Bunu bana nas\u0131l yapabildi! Ona g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ucuyla kin dolu bir bak\u0131\u015f att\u0131m ve okuldan ka\u00e7t\u0131m.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1001822310\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ertesi g\u00fcn, s\u0131n\u0131f arkada\u015flar\u0131m \u201c<strong>Senin annen tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc<\/strong>!\u201d diye benimle alay ettiler.<\/p>\n<p>Annemi bir daha g\u00f6rmek istemiyordum. Sanki yerin dibine batmas\u0131n\u0131 arzu ediyordum.<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn dayanamad\u0131m ve<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201c<strong>Anne senin neden yaln\u0131z bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn var? Senin y\u00fcz\u00fcnden arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n hepsi benimle alay ediyor. \u00d6lsen de kurtulsam!<\/strong>\u201d dedim.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Annem soruma cevap vermedi. Bense i\u00e7imi d\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f ve sakinle\u015ftim.. Annem beni bu a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6zlerim i\u00e7in cezaland\u0131rmad\u0131. Bu y\u00fczden olacak, onu yaralad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark edemedim\u2026<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3856707347\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ayn\u0131 gece g\u00f6z\u00fcme uyku girmedi. Kalkt\u0131m, su i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in mutfa\u011fa gittim. \u00a0Annem oradayd\u0131, bir kenara b\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, beni uyand\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in sessizce a\u011f\u0131larken, ya\u015flar tek g\u00f6z\u00fcnden ak\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Gece karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ona uzunca bir s\u00fcre bakt\u0131m. Sonra yata\u011f\u0131ma d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. S\u00f6yledi\u011fim k\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6zlerden \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc olacak, kalbimin kenar\u0131nda bir s\u0131z\u0131 belirdi. Nefretim ge\u00e7memi\u015fti. Tek g\u00f6z\u00fcnden ya\u015flar akan annemi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde, fenal\u0131k ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimi gizlemem do\u011fru olmaz. O gece ben kendime b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde zengin olmay\u0131 s\u00f6z verdim: Tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc annemden ve sefilli\u011fe teslim olmu\u015f hayat\u0131m\u0131zdan tiksiniyordum.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3766984054\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Bir d\u0131\u015f devlette okuma \u015fans\u0131 ele ge\u00e7irince annemi b\u0131rak\u0131p gittim. \u00c7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u00dcniversiteyi y\u00fcksek ba\u015far\u0131yla bitirdim. Evlendim. Ev ald\u0131m. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z oldu\u2026.Mutluydum. Ba\u015farm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hayat\u0131mda hi\u00e7bir \u015feyin bana tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc annemi an\u0131msatmamas\u0131 da ho\u015fuma gidiyordu. Memnuniyetim devaml\u0131 art\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnlerden bir g\u00fcn annem kap\u0131m\u0131za geldi. Yine tek g\u00f6zl\u00fcyd\u00fc. \u00dczerime s\u0131cak sular d\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f gibi oldum. Tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc babaannesini g\u00f6ren k\u0131z\u0131m a\u011flayarak ka\u00e7t\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201c<strong>Sen kimsin<\/strong>?\u201d diye hayk\u0131rd\u0131m. \u2013 <strong>Seni tan\u0131m\u0131yorum! Ne c\u00fcretle evime gelip <\/strong><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p><strong>K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 korkutuyorsun! Hemen DEF OL<\/strong>!<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1018067591\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>\u201c<strong>\u00d6z\u00fcr dilerim. Adresi \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131y\u0131m<\/strong>!\u201d \u2013 diye kendine konu\u015furmu\u015f gibi bir<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>\u015eeyler s\u00f6yleyen annem d\u00f6n\u00fcp gitti.<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr Allah\u2019\u0131ma. Beni tan\u0131yamad\u0131. Derin bir nefes ald\u0131m. Kendime, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 ebediyen unutaca\u011f\u0131ma\u2026 s\u00f6z verim. \u0130\u00e7ime rahatlatan bir esinti geldi. Birka\u00e7 zaman sonra bir g\u00fcn birlikte mezun oldu\u011fum arkada\u015flar\u0131mdan bir bulu\u015fma ve kutlama davetiyesi ald\u0131m. E\u015fimi g\u00f6rev gere\u011fi ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre gidiyorum diye yaland\u0131rd\u0131m ve do\u011fdu\u011fum kasabaya gittim. \u0130lgimi avundurmak i\u00e7in, arkada\u015flar\u0131ma gitmezden \u00f6nce, ad\u0131na ev denen, mahallemizdeki eski derme \u00e7atma barakaya u\u011frad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z bana annemin vefat etti\u011fini s\u00f6ylediler. G\u00f6zlerimden tek damla ya\u015f d\u00fc\u015fmedi. Annemin bana b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir mektubu elime verdiler.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2412493807\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><em>\u201cSevgili o\u011flum, y\u0131llar ge\u00e7se de \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 korkutmamak i\u00e7in bir daha evine u\u011framad\u0131m. Senden bir defac\u0131k gelip beni g\u00f6rmeni isteseydim acaba b\u00fcy\u00fck k\u00fcstahl\u0131k etmi\u015f olur muydum? Seni \u00e7ok \u00f6zledim. Okul t\u00f6renine gelece\u011fini \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fimde i\u00e7im i\u00e7ime s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131. Benden utanmamak i\u00e7in t\u00f6rene gitmeyecektim. Ben senin utanmana neden olan tek g\u00f6zl\u00fc biri oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in esef ediyorum. Sen hen\u00fcz k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015ftayken, bir oyun esnas\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcn birini kaybettin\u2026 K\u00f6r kalmaman i\u00e7in sana bir g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc verdim\u2026 Seninle gurur duyuyordum. Umut ufkum sendin\u2026 Yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131n hi\u00e7bir \u015feyden asla s\u0131k\u0131lmad\u0131m, sana hi\u00e7bir zaman g\u00fccenmedim, senin hi\u00e7bir hareketinden utanmad\u0131m. Birka\u00e7 defa bana \u00f6fkelendi\u011finde de:<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 -\u201c<\/em><strong>Beni sevdi\u011fi i\u00e7in yap\u0131yor<\/strong><em>\u2026\u201d demi\u015ftim. <\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O\u011fulum, o\u011fulum\u2026 Sevgili aslan\u0131m. Ben bu d\u00fcnyadan gittikten sonra arkamdan g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6kme\u2026 Seni sevdi, seviyorum, \u00e7ok seviyorum.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-344257048\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Neriman ERALP 8 Mart vesilesiyledir. 8 Mart uluslar aras\u0131 emek\u00e7i kad\u0131nlar g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz kutlu olsun. Hepimiz emek\u00e7i kad\u0131n, okuyan k\u0131z, anne ve nineyiz. Bayram\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ger\u00e7ek kimli\u011fimizi<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14078","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/sc2PfJ-annem","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14078","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=14078"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14078\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=14078"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=14078"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=14078"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}