{"id":13844,"date":"2015-02-14T21:37:47","date_gmt":"2015-02-14T19:37:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=13844"},"modified":"2015-02-14T21:37:47","modified_gmt":"2015-02-14T19:37:47","slug":"cezaevi-yolunda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/cezaevi-yolunda\/","title":{"rendered":"Cezaevi Yolunda"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Muazzez YURDAKUL<\/b><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>B\u0131rak beni hayk\u0131ray\u0131m susarsam sen matem et.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Unutma ki \u015fairleri hayk\u0131rmayan bir millet.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Sevenleri toprak olmu\u015f \u00f6ks\u00fcz \u00e7ocuk gibidir.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>18 Nisan g\u00fcne\u015fli bir ilkbahar g\u00fcn\u00fc idi, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki a\u011fa\u00e7lar \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Benim i\u00e7in ise karak\u0131\u015f h\u00fck\u00fcm s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2437172923\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Kollar\u0131m kelep\u00e7eli, iki taraf\u0131mda polisler silahlar\u0131 ate\u015f a\u00e7maya haz\u0131r bir halde beni Eski Zara Cezaevine g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek \u00fczere trene bindirdiler. \u00d6mr\u00fcmde belki ilk defa pencerede g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm ilkbahara sevinemiyordum. Kula\u011f\u0131ma gelen ku\u015f c\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 savc\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131rlak sesi bast\u0131r\u0131yor, top top a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7ekleri lisede okuyan k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fme esnas\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerinden akan ya\u015flar silip at\u0131yordu. O zaman benim de g\u00f6zlerimden ya\u015flar ak\u0131yor, silmem m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcme do\u011fru kay\u0131p gidiyorlard\u0131. Bu manzaraya tarlada g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm Ay\u015fecikler, Fatmac\u0131klar-Hasan, H\u00fcseyincikler de kat\u0131l\u0131nca i\u00e7im b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn garipsiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Bu yolculuk esnas\u0131nda, d\u00fcn duru\u015fmada \u015fahitlik edenleri birer birer g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcne getiriyor, dediklerini hat\u0131rlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Bunu, yalan s\u00f6yleyenlerle do\u011fru s\u00f6yleyenleri ay\u0131rmak i\u00e7in yap\u0131yordum. Yalanc\u0131lardan biri Kara Mustafa idi, \u00f6teki de Kara Kadir dedi\u011fimiz bir \u015fof\u00f6r.<\/p>\n<p>Aram\u0131za dost diye sokulan Kara Kadir\u2019i ba\u015fka \u015fahit bulamad\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc getirmi\u015flerdi muhakkak. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yarg\u0131ca bir \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u015fahs\u0131n, T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de bulunan Adem Demir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n Bayraktar Hasan\u2019a g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi mektuptan, Hasan Bayraktar\u2019\u0131n ona mektubu anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan falan filan diye bir \u015feyler yumurtlamaya ba\u015fl\u0131yordu ki, t\u0131pk\u0131 Nasrettin Hoca\u2019n\u0131n suyunun suyu f\u0131kras\u0131na benzedi\u011fi i\u00e7in salonda bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f koptu. Halen \u0130zmir\u2019de bulunan Adem Demir, Bayraktar Hasan\u2019a mektup yazm\u0131\u015f da, mektubunda benim \u015fiirlerimin be\u011fenildi\u011fini yaz\u0131yormu\u015f da, Hasan mektubu ona anlatm\u0131\u015f da\u2026<\/p>\n<p>B\u00f6yle bir mektubun elde olup olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, mektubu alan\u0131n ni\u00e7in \u015fahit olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ni\u00e7in \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir \u015fahs\u0131n bunu zoru zoruna ispatlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sormak benim avukat\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6reviydi ya, nerde? Adam, benim biraz \u00f6te yan\u0131mda rahat rahat oturuyor, soru sormak, yarg\u0131c\u0131n i\u015fini g\u00fc\u00e7le\u015ftirmek, savc\u0131y\u0131 k\u0131zd\u0131rmak gibi \u015feyleri iktidar adamlar\u0131n\u0131n, DS\u2019nin, kom\u00fcnist partisinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcp ekme\u011fini kaybetmek demekti. B\u00f6yle bir duruma d\u00fc\u015fmektense, bir ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n, bir T\u00fcrk\u2019\u00fcn, su\u00e7suz da olsa, mahk\u00fbm edilmesini do\u011fru buluyordu. Her ki\u015fi gibi, o da do\u011fu\u015ftan bencildi. Onun umursamazl\u0131\u011f\u0131, ba\u015fkas\u0131n\u0131n kaderine lakayt kal\u0131\u015f\u0131, hatta bu kaderin k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fmesine yard\u0131mc\u0131 olu\u015fu bu y\u00fczdendi. Adam \u00fccret kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olsa dahi beni m\u00fcdafaa etmeyi gerekti\u011fince yapm\u0131yordu. M\u00fcdafaa bir yana, benim daha \u00e7ok y\u0131la mahk\u00fbm edilmeme yard\u0131mc\u0131 oluyordu. Adam\u0131n Bulgar as\u0131ll\u0131 olu\u015fu, tutumunu az da olsa, hakl\u0131 g\u00f6rmemi f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yordu. Beni as\u0131l endi\u015felendiren, kahreden \u015fey, Kara Mustafa\u2019n\u0131n, Kara Kadir\u2019in Abdurrahim\u2019in, duru\u015fmaya gelmemi\u015f de olsa, Hasan Bayraktar\u2019\u0131n ve toplum ad\u0131na su\u00e7lay\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6revi \u00fcstlenen Mehmet Baki\u2019nin insanl\u0131k d\u0131\u015f\u0131 davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 idi. Onlar T\u00fcrk idi, ben de \u00f6yleydim, onlar eritilmeyi istemiyorlard\u0131, ben de istemiyordum. Ben bu y\u00fczden direni\u015f g\u00f6sterme \u00e7abas\u0131na girmi\u015ftim. Bu \u00e7aba sadece kendim i\u00e7in de\u011fildi. Onlara hi\u00e7bir zaman, hi\u00e7bir \u015fekilde, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fck yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma ra\u011fmen, neye benim mahk\u00fbm edilmemi \u015fiddetle arzu ettiklerini h\u00e2l\u00e2 anlam\u0131\u015f de\u011filim. Ama akl\u0131mda her insan\u0131n korkun\u00e7, bencil ve k\u0131skan\u00e7 olu\u015fu vard\u0131. Ah \u015fu bencillik yok muydu, \u015fu bencillik!&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Kompart\u0131man\u0131n penceresinden d\u0131\u015far\u0131 bakarken bunlar\u0131 akl\u0131mdan ge\u00e7iriyordum ki, bir f\u0131kra akl\u0131ma geldi, elimde olmadan g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131m, polislerden biri, g\u00fcl\u00fcmsememin nedenini sordu, anlatt\u0131m.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2472050606\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte: adam\u0131n biri, fukaral\u0131k yoksulluk, iki ucunu bir araya getir ememezlikten b\u0131km\u0131\u015f olacak ki, bir ak\u015fam Allah\u2019a kendisine bir iner vermesi i\u00e7in gece boyu yalvarm\u0131\u015f, dualar okumu\u015f. \u00c7ok ge\u00e7meden adama, duas\u0131n\u0131n kabul edildi\u011fi, ancak ondan daha fukara olan kom\u015fusuna iki, ona da bir inek verilece\u011fi bildirilmi\u015f. Onca fukara olan adam bunu anlay\u0131nca, hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden, \u201c\u0130stemem. Ben inek falan istemiyorum. Halimden memnunum ben\u2026\u201d Benim mahk\u00fbm edilmemi isteyen \u015fahitlerin iste\u011fi olsa olsa buydu \u201cBirine yard\u0131m edemeyeceksen, engel bari olma.\u201d S\u00f6z\u00fc onlar i\u00e7in ge\u00e7erlili\u011fini yitirmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Dizeler ye\u015fermez kuru dal gibi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Ger\u00e7ekten vermezsek sen ben el elle<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Yolunu yitirmi\u015f bir sandal gibi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Oyuncak oluruz ya\u011fmura sele<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-2626156634\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>S\u00f6zc\u00fckler \u0131st\u0131rap, uyaklar \u00e7ile.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00d6mer Osman Erenderuk\u2019un <strong>Sevgi K\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 Ar\u0131yorum Yollarda<\/strong> kitab\u0131ndan al\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Devam edecek.<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-3127190238\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Muazzez YURDAKUL &nbsp; B\u0131rak beni hayk\u0131ray\u0131m susarsam sen matem et. Unutma ki \u015fairleri hayk\u0131rmayan bir millet. Sevenleri toprak olmu\u015f \u00f6ks\u00fcz \u00e7ocuk gibidir. &nbsp; 18 Nisan<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":13746,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13844","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yorum"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pc2PfJ-3Bi","jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/Muazzez-Yurdakul.jpg?fit=223%2C97&ssl=1","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13844","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=13844"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13844\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/13746"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=13844"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=13844"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=13844"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}