{"id":12791,"date":"2015-01-01T21:31:13","date_gmt":"2015-01-01T19:31:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=12791"},"modified":"2015-01-02T23:08:51","modified_gmt":"2015-01-02T21:08:51","slug":"12791","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/12791\/","title":{"rendered":"Yazarlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n Kaleminden"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Muazzez YURDAKUL<\/b><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00d6nce Yeni Y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kutluyorum Say\u0131n okurlar\u0131n. Bu sene de beraber olma mutlulu\u011funu birlikte ya\u015fayal\u0131m temennilerimle hepinize sa\u011fl\u0131k, ba\u015far\u0131, aileniz sansa sadet, emelleriniz varsa ger\u00e7ekle\u015fmesini, biz T\u00fcrkler olarak di\u011fer insanlara \u00f6rnek olmaya devam etmemizi i\u00e7tenli dileklerin buketinde \u00f6zel olarak sunuyorum.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130yi ki vars\u0131n\u0131z. \u0130yi ki yaz\u0131yorsunuz.<\/p>\n<p>2014\u2019\u00fcn son notunu Amerika\u2019dan Bulgaristanl\u0131 bir di\u015f hekimi aileden ald\u0131m.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-601609352\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u201c<strong>Adalet Yolu Uzundur<\/strong>\u201d yaz\u0131mdan etkilenmi\u015fler ve totaliter Bulgar d\u00f6nemi y\u0131llar\u0131ndan T\u00fcrk as\u0131ll\u0131 yazarlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n olaylar\u0131 anlat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131, neden netice ba\u011flam\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerini \u00e7ok ilgin\u00e7 bulduklar\u0131n\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015flar. Te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim<\/p>\n<p>Yine sevilen yazar\u0131m\u0131z Ko\u015fukavakl\u0131 \u00d6mer Osman Erendorum\u2019un 1984\u2019te evrak \u00fczerindeki isim, baba ad\u0131 ve soyadlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirme zorlamas\u0131yla ba\u015flayan genel kapsam\u0131nda kimlik de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyle \u201c<strong>Bulgarla\u015ft\u0131rma<\/strong>\u201d ve <strong>Etnik Temizlik ve K\u00fclt\u00fcrel Soyk\u0131r\u0131m<\/strong> olan y\u00fcz karas\u0131 s\u00fcrecin ilk g\u00fcnlerini anlatan <strong>\u0130LK TOPLU D\u0130REN\u0130\u015e <\/strong>ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131, bundan 25 y\u0131l \u00f6nce kaleme al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7tim. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 de sizleri Amerikalara kadar savuran kas\u0131rgad\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130zninize s\u0131\u011f\u0131narak, yeni y\u0131l\u0131n ilk g\u00fcn\u00fcnde, sizlere 2014\u2019un son g\u00fcnlerinde Bulgaristan Ba\u015fbakan\u0131 Boyko Borisov\u2019un elektronik haber sitesinde yay\u0131nlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fu s\u00f6zlerinden \u00e7ok etkilendi\u011fimi bildiriyorum:<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cT\u00fcrk as\u0131ll\u0131 vatanda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fcnde \u00e7ok derin yara a\u00e7an, a\u015f\u0131lmaz bir tahribat yaratan, kendilerine ve yak\u0131nlar\u0131na uygulanan zul\u00fcm, kom\u00fcnist partisi taraf\u0131ndan ya da \u201creformcu kom\u00fcnistlerin\u201d akl\u0131na esti\u011fi gibi bir \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131da silinip unutturulacak bir \u015fey gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc.\u201d<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-3437355298\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cSon 25 y\u0131lda \u00fclkemizde h\u0131zla artan cinayetler, r\u00fc\u015ffet olaylar\u0131 ve doland\u0131r\u0131c\u0131l\u0131k ortam\u0131nda hi\u00e7 kimse isimlerin de\u011fi\u015ftirilmesi, etnik temizlik ve k\u00fclt\u00fcrel soyk\u0131r\u0131m yapanlardan hesap sormad\u0131.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cT\u00fcrklere yap\u0131lan zulme politik \u201cAF\u201d olamaz!<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0130nsan olan insan yap\u0131lanlar\u0131 unutamaz!<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Bu cinayetlere hukuksal ge\u00e7erlilik s\u00fcresi uygulanamaz!\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1362581668\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Bu beyan yaralar\u0131ma mehlem oldu. Sizin de ayn\u0131 hisleri duyulmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131za inanmak istiyorum.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi, hat\u0131ra defterimizi a\u00e7\u0131p, 30 y\u0131l \u00f6nceye d\u00f6n\u00fcp, yazar \u00d6.O. Erendoruk\u2019tan okuyoruz.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1780857967\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0130lk Toplu Direni\u015f<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcneydo\u011fu Rodoplar\u2019da, amac\u0131na k\u0131smen de ula\u015fabilmi\u015f olsa, toplu direni\u015f, E\u011fri Dere kasabas\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 Toz\u00e7al k\u00f6y\u00fc T\u00fcrkleri ba\u015flatm\u0131\u015flard\u0131.\u00a0 K\u00f6y meydan\u0131na toplanan halk\u0131 polis polis da\u011f\u0131tmak istediyse de ba\u015faramam\u0131\u015f, kaba g\u00fcce ba\u015fvurmalar\u0131 da bir sonu\u00e7 vermeyince, durum iyice gerginle\u015fmi\u015fti. Bu olay etraf k\u00f6ylere y\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m h\u0131z\u0131yla yay\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015f ve cans\u0131z gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnen g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fclerde u m u t k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131mlar\u0131 belirmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131mlar bize, uzaklarda, \u00e7ok uzaklarda, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde c\u0131l\u0131z c\u0131l\u0131z \u0131\u015f\u0131maya ba\u015flayan bir mum etkisi yapt\u0131. Demek toplu mukavemet g\u00f6sterme olana\u011f\u0131 hayal de\u011fil, olabilir bir \u015feydi. Toz\u00e7all\u0131lar\u0131n 24 Aral\u0131k 1984 g\u00fcn\u00fc yapt\u0131klar\u0131, 25 Aral\u0131k\u2019ta Kirli k\u00f6yl\u00fcleri, 26 Aral\u0131k\u2019ta Mastanl\u0131lar denedi. Kirli\u2019den Cebel\u2019e do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131kan kalabal\u0131k, yolda askerler taraf\u0131ndan kar\u015f\u0131land\u0131. \u201cDurun\u201d emrine uyuldu ancak, ancak \u201cDa\u011f\u0131l\u0131n\u201d emrine uyan olmad\u0131. Askerler \u00f6nce g\u00f6z ya\u015fart\u0131c\u0131 bomba att\u0131lar, gene kimse da\u011f\u0131lmay\u0131nca, ate\u015f ettiler. \u00d6l\u00fc ve yaral\u0131lar aras\u0131nda bir de \u00e7ocuk vard\u0131. Mestanl\u0131 kasabas\u0131na b\u00fcy\u00fck say\u0131da asker ve polis takviye edilmi\u015f olsa da, g\u00f6steri ate\u015f etmeye l\u00fczum kalmadan da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Bulgar askerlerinin ate\u015f edemeyece\u011fi umuduna kap\u0131lan halk ertesi g\u00fcn\u00fc, te\u015fkilatl\u0131 halde otob\u00fcs, otomobil ve kamyonlarla Mestanl\u0131\u2019ya ak\u0131n ettiler. Sokaklar t\u0131kl\u0131m t\u0131kl\u0131m dolmu\u015ftu. Bulgar subaylar\u0131n \u201cDa\u011f\u0131l\u0131n! Evlerinize gidin!\u201d emirlerini halk ta\u015f\u00e7\u0131l bir susu\u015fla kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Bir yandan 5 bine yak\u0131n T\u00fcrk dolmu\u015f olan ve T\u00fcrk kalarak ya\u015famak isteyen halk vard\u0131, \u00f6te yandan di\u015flerine kadar silahl\u0131 Bulgar askerleri. Sinirler korkun\u00e7 gergindi. Hava barutla\u015fm\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Bir kibrit \u00e7ak\u0131lsa korkun\u00e7 bir infilak olaca\u011fa benziyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Bu arada kom\u00fcnist partisinin cipleri Sofya\u2019dan gelip, kasaba d\u0131\u015f\u0131na ko\u015fan helikoptere ko\u015ftular. Var\u0131p d\u00f6nmeleri bir oldu. Halk helikopterin Sofya\u2019dan geldi\u011fini biliyordu. Umut de\u011fil mi bu? \u0130yi haber bekliyorlard\u0131 ve \u2026 iyi haber halk\u0131n \u00fczerine otomatik silahlarla ate\u015f etmek \u015feklinde kendini g\u00f6sterdi. En do\u011fal haklar\u0131n\u0131, en insanc\u0131l ve en bar\u0131\u015f\u00e7\u0131l bir bi\u00e7imde isteyen T\u00fcrkler gaddarca \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. Tanklar ve z\u0131rhl\u0131 ara\u00e7lar halk\u0131n \u00fczerine s\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. Yerde can \u00e7eki\u015fenler, ka\u00e7\u0131\u015fanlar, inleyenler bir yanda, ellerinde coplar ve kurt k\u00f6pekleriyle halk\u0131 tartaklay\u0131p d\u00f6ven askerler ve polisler \u00f6te yanda. .. Mestanl\u0131\u2019n\u0131n sokaklar\u0131 ana baba g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc. Bulgaristan kom\u00fcnistlerinin eline T\u00fcrk kan\u0131 bula\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu y\u0131llard\u0131r her t\u00fcrl\u00fc yollarla \u00e7ocuklara, gen\u00e7lere ve ya\u015fl\u0131lara a\u015f\u0131lad\u0131klar\u0131 T\u00fcrk d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n kendilerince sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla beklenen ve \u00f6zlenen bir sonucuydu. Polis veya sivil, erkek ya da kad\u0131n, \u00e7ocuk ya da ihtiyar, her Bulgar, nerede, nas\u0131l, nice ve ni\u00e7in bulunursa bulunsun, her \u015feyden \u00f6nce T\u00fcrk\u2019ten, T\u00fcrkl\u00fckten geberesiye nefret ediyordu. Bu, anormal durum elde edilmemi\u015f olsayd\u0131, Bulgar kom\u00fcnistleri b\u00f6ylesine sap\u0131k ve gaddarca bir h\u00fccuma ge\u00e7meye cesaret edemezlerdi.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2703997785\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Bulgar kom\u00fcnistlerinin yapt\u0131klar\u0131 bu \u00e7a\u011fd\u0131\u015f\u0131 hareket, bu katl\u0131am, bu soyk\u0131r\u0131m, isim de\u011fi\u015ftirmekten, onlar\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 de\u011fimiyle \u201cYeniden do\u011fmaktan\u201d ziyade \u201cYeniden \u00f6z alma\u201d ya benziyordu. Hay\u0131r, benzemiyor, \u00f6yleydi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc her ele ge\u00e7irdikleri f\u0131rsatta, d\u00f6vmek, k\u00fcf\u00fcr etmek, hakaret etmek, sakatlamak i\u00e7in bahane ar\u0131yor, buluyor, bulmazsa uyduruyordu. Ki\u015finin, kendisiyle b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015ftirmek, beraberle\u015ftirmek, tuz ekmek olmak istedi\u011fi bir di\u011ferini vara yo\u011fa tartaklamas\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6vmesinin, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmesinin, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lay\u0131c\u0131 duruma sokmas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fka izah\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemiyordu.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Dediklerime birka\u00e7 \u00f6rnek<\/strong>:<\/p>\n<p>Mestanl\u0131 Emniyet Dairesi\u2019nde tutuklu T\u00fcrker\u2019den birisine ka\u00e7 \u00e7ocu\u011fu oldu\u011funu sormu\u015flar, d\u00f6rt demi\u015f, \u00e7ok \u00e7ocuk yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc d\u00f6vm\u00fc\u015fler; bir ba\u015fkas\u0131 ayn\u0131 soruya bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015f, bu sefer de niye \u00e7ok \u00e7ocuk yapmad\u0131n diye dayak yemi\u015f; bir gencin cebinden \u00e7\u0131kan ka\u011f\u0131tta \u201c\u0130ndim \u00e7e\u015fme ba\u015f\u0131na\/ Yaz\u0131 yazd\u0131m ta\u015f\u0131na\/ Gelen ge\u00e7en okusun\/ Neler geldi ba\u015f\u0131ma\/ t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc yaz\u0131l\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Terc\u00fcme edince, \u201cNeye \u00e7e\u015fme ta\u015f\u0131na yaz\u0131 yaz\u0131yorsun? Ka\u011f\u0131t m\u0131 yok!\u201d diye d\u00f6vm\u00fc\u015fler. Ev yapt\u0131m diye yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in, yapmad\u0131m diyen yapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in dayaktan ge\u00e7irilmi\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>Tenha da\u011f k\u00f6ylerinde evlerin kap\u0131lar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k oldu\u011fu halde pencereler, kap\u0131larak bir g\u00fczel k\u0131r\u0131larak i\u00e7eri giriliyor, isimleri de\u011fi\u015ftirme i\u015fi tamamlan\u0131ncai gelinlik k\u0131zlar\u0131n \u00e7eyizleri k\u0131y\u0131m k\u0131y\u0131m k\u0131y\u0131l\u0131yor, sonra da \u0131rzlar\u0131na ge\u00e7iliyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2980581780\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>G\u00fcneydo\u011fu Rodoplar\u2019da bu olaylar s\u00fcr\u00fcp giderken, Kuzeydo\u011fudaki T\u00fcrklere, g\u00fcneylilerin t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn Pomak oldu\u011fundan, adlar\u0131n\u0131n bu y\u00fczden de\u011fi\u015ftirildi\u011finden, d\u00fczenledikleri toplant\u0131larda uzun uzun bahsediyorlarm\u0131\u015f. \u0130nanmayanlar da varm\u0131\u015f ya. B\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7o\u011funluk kanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu, Bulgarlar\u0131n \u00e7ok i\u015fine yarad\u0131. B\u00f6ylelikle, oralarda \u00e7\u0131kabilecek toplu mukavemet \u00f6nlenmi\u015fti. 27 Aral\u0131k 1984\u2019te Mestanl\u0131 olaylar\u0131 Bulgarlar\u0131 bize kar\u015f\u0131 daha gaddar olmaya zorlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ocak ay\u0131nda k\u00f6y ve \u015fehirlerde, toplu direni\u015f g\u00f6stermede halka \u00f6nc\u00fcl\u00fck edebilecek, yol g\u00f6sterebilecek b\u00fct\u00fcn erkekleri yedek asker diye al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015flerdi. Onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda 20 ya\u015f\u0131ndan tutup 65 ya\u015f\u0131na kadar erkek vard\u0131. Ve de a\u011f\u0131r denecek hastalar\u2026 Bu tutsaklar\u0131\u00a0 gruplara ay\u0131r\u0131p Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131n \u00e7e\u015fitli yerlerine g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fler, s\u0131k\u0131 kontrol alt\u0131na alm\u0131\u015flar ve birer birer adlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015fler. Gruplardan birinin Blagoevgrat\u2019ta bir di\u011ferinin de Roman\u2019da oldu\u011funu \u00f6\u011frendim. Onlardan baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 daha sonra Belene \u00d6l\u00fcm Kamp\u0131na getirdiler. Anlatt\u0131klar\u0131na g\u00f6re, tuvalete bile sil\u00e2halt\u0131nda var\u0131p geliyorlarm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>Kuyezdo\u011fu Bulgaristan T\u00fcrklerini \u201cYedek Asker\u201d al\u0131nca k\u00f6yler ve \u015fehirler tank z\u0131rhl\u0131 araba ve helikopterlerle \u00e7ok say\u0131da askerle ku\u015fat\u0131l\u0131p adlar\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirildi.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130slimiye \u015fehrine ba\u011fl\u0131 Alvanlar k\u00f6y\u00fc direnen tek k\u00f6yd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6te yandan, polis, mukavemet g\u00f6steren veya g\u00f6stermeyen baz\u0131 ki\u015fileri tutuklay\u0131p belirsiz bir yerlere s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu. G\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fckleri yerin belli olmay\u0131\u015f\u0131 T\u00fcrk halk\u0131 aras\u0131nda korku yaratt\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>1984\u2019\u00fcn g\u00fcz\u00fcnde K\u0131rcaali hastanesinde ameliyat oldum. Ameliyattan 5 g\u00fcn sonra doktorlar bana b\u00f6breklerimdeki ta\u015f\u0131 de\u011fil, b\u00f6bre\u011fimi ald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi. Bunun ger\u00e7ek nedenini hala \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f de\u011filim. Ameliyat yaras\u0131 kapanmadan taburcu oldum. Manevi a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lar maddi a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 unutturuyordu. D\u0131\u015far\u0131da g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 ak\u0131t\u0131l\u0131yor, kan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu. bir \u015feyler yapmak gerekti. Yapabilecek durumda de\u011fildim oysa. Odamda i\u00e7in i\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyor, \u00e7aresiz k\u0131vran\u0131yordum. K\u0131r\u0131k kalemimle beyaz ka\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerine d\u00f6kebildi\u011fim \u015fiirlerin kimseye yarar\u0131 yoktu. \u015eiir dedi\u011fin okuyucuyu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcr, duyguland\u0131r\u0131r, \u015fahland\u0131r\u0131r, ayakland\u0131r\u0131rsa \u015fiirdir.Nemli bodrumlarda g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc tutulanlar\u0131n, Bulgar polisinden bucak bucak saklananlar\u0131n kaderi daha beterdi. \u00d6m\u00fcr boyu kafeste kapal\u0131 tutulan kanarya ku\u015fu, hi\u00e7 de\u011filse g\u00fcnde iki, \u00fc\u00e7 kez bari sesini duyurabiliyordu birka\u00e7 ki\u015fiye. Ben bunu da yapam\u0131yordum. Eski dostlar, ortal\u0131kta kol gezen korkudan olacak, benimle ilgilenmiyorlard\u0131. Bu halimle ben bir \u00f6l\u00fcden farks\u0131zd\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fc dedi\u011fin, sadece \u00f6lmekle olmuyor, \u00f6lmeden de \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2563662202\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Beni b\u00f6yle a\u011f\u0131r durumda, kollar\u0131m\u0131 kelep\u00e7eleyip, Belene \u00d6l\u00fcm Kamp\u0131\u2019na yollad\u0131lar. Tek b\u00f6bre\u011fimdeki ta\u015f b\u00fcy\u00fcyor, durumum ciddile\u015fiyordu. \u0130drar\u0131m\u0131 tutam\u0131yordum. Bu, b\u00f6brek ameliyat\u0131 sonucu bir hastal\u0131km\u0131\u015f. Tekrar hastanede yatmama ra\u011fmen, tedavi i\u00e7in tek bir hap bile vermediler, taburcu edildim. Anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6re, talimat\u0131 d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan veriliyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Ada\u2019da sa\u011fl\u0131k durumum daha da k\u00f6t\u00fcle\u015fti. Piolonefrit (b\u00f6brek hastal\u0131\u011f\u0131m) iyice azm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u015ftah\u0131m yoktu. Olsa ne \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131? \u0130\u00e7inde birka\u00e7 domuz kula\u011f\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ko\u015fu\u015fan\u00a0 bulanu\u0131k suya yemek demek g\u00fc\u00e7t\u00fc. \u0130ki \u00fc\u00e7 y\u00fcz metre yolu dinlenmeden y\u00fcr\u00fcyemeyecek duruma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr. Tutuklular aras\u0131nda doktorlar da vard\u0131 ya, ellerinden ne gelir ki?<\/p>\n<p>Benim uzun ve esasl\u0131 bir tedaviye ihtiyac\u0131m vard\u0131. \u00d6lmek i\u00e7in g\u00f6nderildi\u011fimiz \u00d6L\u00dcM ADASI\u2019 nda bunun r\u00fcyas\u0131 bile g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7t\u00fc.<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-2367639848\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Muazzez YURDAKUL \u00a0 \u00d6nce Yeni Y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kutluyorum Say\u0131n okurlar\u0131n. 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