{"id":12550,"date":"2014-12-14T12:32:50","date_gmt":"2014-12-14T10:32:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=12550"},"modified":"2014-12-14T12:32:50","modified_gmt":"2014-12-14T10:32:50","slug":"bilincli-olum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/bilincli-olum\/","title":{"rendered":"Bilin\u00e7li \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00a0"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sezgin S. K\u00f6r\u00f6mer
\nEzer\u00e7e, Razgrat
\n\/972 -\/989\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Hen\u00fcz on yedisine basm\u0131\u015f, sakal\u0131 b\u0131y\u0131\u011f\u0131 taze belirmi\u015f, er\u00adgenlik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Sekizinci s\u0131n\u0131f\u0131 ikmal edince, ba\u015fka arkada\u015flar\u0131 gibi aylak gezinmedi. Hemen i\u015fe sar\u0131ld\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015fl\u0131 ustalarla \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor, mesle\u011finin ayr\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmek i\u00e7in \u00e7a\u00adbal\u0131yordu. Hayat\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Askerlik, mesle\u011finde usta\u00adla\u015fmak, ev bark olmak, b\u00fct\u00fcn bir \u00f6m\u00fcr duruyordu \u00f6n\u00fcnde.
\nO g\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131yorlard\u0131. Sevgilisiyle anla\u015fm\u0131\u015flar, ak\u015fam\u0131na g\u00fczel bir film bakacaklard\u0131. Sonra da tenha bir yere \u00e7ekilip birer kola i\u00e7erlerdi belki. Ama, buna o kadar vakit vard\u0131 ki. Kucaklar\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc annesini, ninesini, ablas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zlemi\u015fti, onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rmek ge\u00e7ti akl\u0131ndan. Aileleri Razgrat’da ya\u015f\u0131yordu, ama o, hafta ge\u00e7er ge\u00e7mez gidip onlarla hal hat\u0131r ediyordu. Ufak\u00ad tefek i\u015flerde yard\u0131m ediyordu. Akl\u0131na gelmesiyle de Ezer\u00e7e’nin yolunu tuttu. S\u0131k\u00e7a vard\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fkenli\u011finden, \u00e7ok dostlar\u0131 ve tan\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131 vard\u0131 k\u00f6yde. G\u00f6r\u00fcnce onu sar\u0131verdiler.
\n– Duydun mu? diye sordu dostlar\u0131ndan biri. Ak\u015fama y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yapaca\u011f\u0131z, haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, adlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 isteyece\u011fiz.
\n“Adlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 isteyece\u011fiz” deyince i\u00e7i bir c\u0131zlad\u0131. Ne kadar da avutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsalar, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc al\u0131\u015fam\u0131yordu zaten o takma ada .
\n“Sezgin ad\u0131 gibi ad var m\u0131yd\u0131?” diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu hep ken\u00addi kendine.
\n– Rastgele, dedi, sevin\u00e7le. Bilirmi\u015fim sanki. Beraberiz in\u015fal\u00adlah.
\nSonra sevgilisine verdi\u011fi s\u00f6z\u00fc hat\u0131rlad\u0131. K\u00fcsmez, diye d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Sinema her ak\u015fam, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fler be\u015f y\u0131lda bir kez. Film de\u011fil mi, yine gider seyrederiz. Yine otururuz bir sakin yere ve hepsini tuzuyla biberiyle anlat\u0131r\u0131m, sevinir bile. Takdir eder hareketimi, cesurlu\u011fumu …
\nBu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle annelerine vard\u0131. \u00e7oktan g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemi\u015f gibi hepsiyle birer, birer \u00f6p\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcler. K\u0131sadan hal hat\u0131r etti ve \u00e7\u0131kmak istedi:
\n– Bu s\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131kma o\u011flum, dedi ninesi \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle. Sak\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kma!
\nK\u00f6y\u00fcn i\u00e7i karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131km\u0131\u015f, dediler. Kat\u0131l\u0131rs\u0131n da, Allah g\u00f6ster\u00admesin bir \u015fey gelir ba\u015f\u0131na. Alem annaderi, toyanda bir k\u00f6yde de \u0130nsanlar b\u00f6yle kalk\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015flar da, h\u00f6kmet ermi\u015f, d\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fc birden sermi\u015f yere. Tamam baklava \u0131slam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Otur, doyur karn\u0131n\u0131, bak televizyaya …
\n\u00dcrk\u00fcye nine k\u00f6y\u00fcn en tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f a\u015f\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131ndan biriydi. Sezgin her geli\u015finde, ille buluyordu onun dolab\u0131nda yiyecek bir tatl\u0131. Hele de baklavalar\u0131 insan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda eriyordu adeta. Bay\u0131l\u0131yordu onlara.
\n– Ben tez d\u00f6nerim anne, dedi emin bir sesle. Sen \u00fcz\u00fclme.
\nKo baklavan iyice yumu\u015fas\u0131n.
\n– \u00c7\u0131kma Sezginim, yapmayacaklar\u0131 yok, \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrler seni, diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcrk\u00fcye nine ard\u0131ndan bir defa daha.
\n– Ko ad\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcnler, anne, dedi ba\u015f\u0131na gelece\u011fi bilir\u00admi\u015f gibi ve f\u0131rlad\u0131.
\n\u0130kindiye do\u011fruydu. K\u00f6y i\u00e7inde ger\u00e7ekten de bir canl\u0131l\u0131k var\u00add\u0131. \u0130nsanlar grup grup merkeze iniyorlard\u0131. Sezgin, durdu, bir bak\u0131nd\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Tespit edilen vakit yakla\u015f\u0131yordu. Ama y\u00fcr\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fcler az geldi g\u00f6z\u00fcne. Ona g\u00f6re herkes k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, b\u00fcy\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, kad\u0131n\u0131 erke\u011fi bire dek \u00e7\u0131kmal\u0131yd\u0131. Duyulmal\u0131yd\u0131, muhte\u015fem olmal\u0131yd\u0131 bu y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f.
\nKimseyi beklemedi, kimseye sormad\u0131, hemen ko\u015ftu. Yer yer, sokak kav\u015faklar\u0131nda, yer yer, kap\u0131 kap\u0131, hane hane “Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f var, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f! Adlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 isteyece\u011fiz, haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 isteyece\u011fiz, kendini T\u00fcrk bilen y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fe!” di\u00adyerek, koca k\u00f6y\u00fcn d\u00f6rt mahallesini de dola\u015ft\u0131. \u0130\u015fitenler de ba\u015f\u00adkalar\u0131na iletti.
\n\u0130nsanlar, y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131 “P\u0131nar ba\u015f\u0131na” ak\u0131n etti. Vakit gelince “Haklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, adlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 istiyoruz! Dilimizi istiyoruz! Geleneklerimize m\u00fcsade!” sesleriyle belediye mer\u00adkezi olan Tsar Kaloyan (Torlak) kentine diye yola d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. \u00d6nce yerli muhtarl\u0131\u011fa u\u011fray\u0131p isteklerini belirttikten sonra ana cad\u00addece k\u00f6pr\u00fcy\u00fc ge\u00e7erek bay\u0131ra t\u0131rman\u0131nca kar\u015f\u0131dan bir ara\u00e7 be\u00adlirdi. N\u00fcmayi\u015f\u00e7ilere yakla\u015f\u0131nca, durdu. Ara\u00e7tan inen milis su\u00adbay\u0131 “Derhal da\u011f\u0131l\u0131n!” emri verdi. “Da\u011f\u0131l\u0131n, aksi takdirde!..”
\nEmir sert ve kesindi. Her \u015fey beklenebilirdi onlardan. Oysa en \u00f6nde \u00e7ocuklar vard\u0131. Adlar\u0131n\u0131 ve ana dillerini isteyen mini, mini \u00e7ocuklar. Onlara bari merhamet ederler, diye en \u00f6ne diz\u00admi\u015flerdi. Onlar\u0131 korumak da laz\u0131md\u0131 tabi. Sezgin ve daha bir grup cesur gen\u00e7 ileri ge\u00e7tiler. Ge\u00e7meleriyle de “Ate\u015f!” diye bir emir i\u015fitildi! Ye ard\u0131ndan da kur\u015funlar ya\u011fd\u0131. Nizam intizam koruyucular\u0131n\u0131n arabas\u0131 da derhal ortadan kayboldu!
\nY\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fcler korktu, ka\u00e7\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Asfalt \u00fczerinde al kanlar i\u00e7inde iki gen\u00e7 yat\u0131yordu yaln\u0131z. Birinde hen\u00fcz hayat vard\u0131. Sezgin daha yerinde can vermi\u015fti fakat! Tam kalbinin \u00fcst\u00fcne rastlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hain kur\u015fununu \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 .
\nOysa o kadar gen\u00e7ti \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne sevmi\u015fti, ne sevilmi\u015fti doya doya.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131 hen\u00fcz, nice nice ya\u015fanacak y\u0131llar\u0131 vard\u0131. ..<\/p>\n

Sunyto Mehmet
\n13.04.2012\/16:15h
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