{"id":12503,"date":"2014-12-14T00:01:15","date_gmt":"2014-12-13T22:01:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=12503"},"modified":"2014-12-14T00:01:15","modified_gmt":"2014-12-13T22:01:15","slug":"uyanis-veya-bulgarlastirma-sureci-hatiralarim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/uyanis-veya-bulgarlastirma-sureci-hatiralarim\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201dUyan\u0131\u015f veya Bulgarla\u015ft\u0131rma S\u00fcreci\u201d Hat\u0131ralar\u0131m"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Muazzez YURDAKUL<\/b><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Bir hamur teknede kar\u0131l\u0131rken yumrukland\u0131k\u00e7a nas\u0131l k\u0131vama geliyor, i\u00e7i i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fmay\u0131nca \u201cta\u015f\u0131yorsa, biz de \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inde uyand\u0131k, dirildik ve y\u00fcceldik. Bu var olma, T\u00fcrk olarak ya\u015fama ve y\u00fccelme kavgas\u0131n\u0131 kad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan dinlemek, onlar\u0131n yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 okumak kadar zevkli bir \u015fey yoktur. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kad\u0131nlar uyanmadan toplumlar ve halklar uyanmaz. Analar cesur evlat do\u011furmadan sokaklar sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131 dolmaz!<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte bir K\u0131rcaali\u2019den bir bac\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, Sofya \u201cKliment Ohritski\u201d \u00dcniversitesi \u00f6\u011frencilerine g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi bir a\u00e7\u0131k mektupta kad\u0131n diliyle \u00e7eki, tepki ve m\u00fccadelemiz:<\/p><div id=\"bghab-928976647\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Hay\u0131r, O g\u00fcnlerden hi\u00e7bir \u015fey an\u0131msamak istemiyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o olay beni en \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc r\u00fcyalar\u0131mda bile rahata b\u0131rakm\u0131yor, hep pe\u015fimden geliyor. Bana harap olmu\u015f sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 an\u0131msat\u0131yor.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Eh Allah\u0131m Sen o uyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. Ben onlar\u0131 keza ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o kar\u0131nca kaderince ar\u0131lardan farks\u0131z geceyi g\u00fcnd\u00fcze katarak \u00e7oluk \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla birlikte t\u00fct\u00fcn tarlalar\u0131nda sigara fabrikalar\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck sanayi i\u015fletmelerinde in\u015faatlarda memleketin en \u00fccra k\u00f6\u015felerinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak nafakas\u0131n\u0131 kazanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bu bar\u0131\u015f\u00e7\u0131l ve ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fc insanlara ne yapt\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda de\u011fillerdi&#8230; Ben K\u0131rcaali \u015fehrinde do\u011fdum ve orada da ya\u015famaya devam ediyorum. Ana babam dedelerim ninelerim de bu topraklarda do\u011fmu\u015f ve cesetleri de bu topraklarda yat\u0131yor. Bulgar\u2019\u0131, T\u00fcrk\u2019\u00fc, \u00c7ingene\u2019si, Ermeni\u2019si ve Yahudi\u2019si huzur ve iyi kom\u015fuluk i\u00e7inde s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyorduk hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131. Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 birbirimize sevgi ve sayg\u0131m\u0131z sonsuzdu. Her birimiz di\u011ferinin dinsel ayin ve t\u00f6renlerine sayg\u0131l\u0131 davran\u0131yordu. Sokaklarda bile selamla\u015fmadan ge\u00e7miyorduk. Hep beraber yiyor ve beraber i\u00e7iyorduk. Bir g\u00fcn aniden \u015fehrimiz z\u0131rhl\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131tlarla k\u0131z\u0131l ve mavi berelilerle yabanc\u0131 illerden gelen milislerle g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc m\u00fcfrezeler denen sivil milislerle abluka alt\u0131na al\u0131n\u0131verdi.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3056194832\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>El \u00e7antalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yokluyorlar ve kimliklerimizi istiyorlar. Anadilimiz T\u00fcrk\u00e7emizle konu\u015fmam\u0131z\u0131 yasaklad\u0131lar. Konu\u015fan\u0131 para cezas\u0131na \u00e7arpt\u0131rmaya ba\u015flad\u0131lar. T\u00fcrk \u00f6\u011fretmenler i\u015flerinden azledildiler. Yerlerine \u00fc\u00e7 kat daha y\u00fcksek maa\u015fla Bulgar \u00f6\u011fretmenler getirildi. Bizden hi\u00e7 kimse \u015fehri terk edemezdi. D\u0131\u015far\u0131dan yabanc\u0131lar da \u015fehre giremezdi. Tutuklananlar da vard\u0131 art\u0131k. Baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u201cBelene\u201d \u00f6l\u00fcm kamp\u0131na s\u00fcr\u00fclmesinden s\u00f6z edilmeye ba\u015fland\u0131. S\u00f6z konusu ki\u015filerden \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011fu \u00f6\u011fretmenler imanl\u0131 kililer din g\u00f6revlileri olu\u015fturuyordu. Sancakta art\u0131k baz\u0131 b\u00f6lgelerde T\u00fcrklerin adlar\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015ftirilmesinden s\u00f6z edilmeye ba\u015fland\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsanlar aralar\u0131nda f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla konu\u015fuyorlar, baz\u0131 yerlerde direni\u015f baz\u0131 yerlerde ise \u015fehit d\u00fc\u015fenler oldu\u011fundan bahsediyorlard\u0131. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n bir yere toplanmalar\u0131na izin verilmiyordu. 80-lik herhangi bir nine tabu dilce \u201d merhaba\u201d veya \u201cg\u00fcn ayd\u0131n\u201d demeye g\u00f6rs\u00fcn yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Yaln\u0131z para cezas\u0131na \u00e7arpt\u0131r\u0131lmakla kalmay\u0131p g\u00f6revinden de uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yordun. Dikle\u015fmek istersen dayak da yiyordun.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>31 Aral\u0131k 1984<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-2482720842\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>K\u0131rcaali\u2019de yeni y\u0131l kutlamalar\u0131. Yeni y\u0131l gecesi \u015fehrin sokaklar\u0131nda tek bir insana rastlanm\u0131yordu. Ancak otomatik silahl\u0131 milis hakimdi sokaklarda. Balkonlar alt\u0131nda kap\u0131 \u00f6nlerinde asker pusu tutmu\u015ftu. \u015eehir ba\u015ftanba\u015fa muhasara alt\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Sokaklarda gen\u00e7 delikanl\u0131lar silahlar\u0131na sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tetikte duruyorlard\u0131. Tek ayak soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p da e\u011flenemezdi, sevincini ifade edemezdi. Soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kma yasa\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131 sanki yerde insanlardan gayri g\u00f6kte bulutlar bile tir tir titriyordu sanki\u2026 \u0130nsano\u011flu d\u00fcnyaya bir defa gelir ve bir defa da \u00f6l\u00fcr. Lakin biz Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n her saatinde \u00f6l\u00fcmle y\u00fczle\u015fiyorduk. Kendi kendimize acaba yar\u0131nki g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za neler gelecek diye soruyorduk.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1076549762\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-20-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Oturdu\u011fumuz apartmandaki kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z \u0130vaylovgratl\u0131yd\u0131 (Ortak\u00f6y). \u0130vaylovgrad\u2019a gittiler ve on g\u00fcn kadar ortal\u0131kta yoktular. Kampanyan\u0131n sona ermesini beklememi\u015f olsa gerek. Be\u015finci kattaki kom\u015fumuz T\u00fcrk\u2019t\u00fc \u2013 M\u00fcsl\u00fcman ailesiydi. Aile ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutuklad\u0131lar ve Belene\u2019ye s\u00fcrd\u00fcler. Adamca\u011f\u0131za g\u0131k bile dedirtmediler. \u0130ki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 vard\u0131. Adam beyin felci ge\u00e7irdi. \u00dcstelik hiportenik ve diyabetikti. Halen mal\u00fbl. Selam vermek istedi\u011finde ne dedi\u011fini anlayam\u0131yorsun. Y\u00fcr\u00fcyecek hali yok. Bastonuna dayana dayana g\u00fc\u00e7 bela a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya inip kanepeye oturabiliyor.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>6 Ocak 1985 Gecesi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sokaklarda in cin yoktu. Otomobil filan da g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyordu. Telefonlar kesilmi\u015f. Kalp krizi filan ge\u00e7irirsen \u201cacile\u201d bile haber veremiyorsun. Hastanelerdeki hastalar\u0131n\u0131 ziyaret edemiyorsun, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sanca\u011f\u0131n di\u011fer y\u00f6relerinden yaral\u0131lar\u0131 yerle\u015ftiriyorlard\u0131. Olup bitenler\u015fi g\u00f6z\u00fcyle g\u00f6r\u00fcnce daha fazla tahamm\u00fcl edemeyip olanca sesiyle milislere \u201cKatiller\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131ran bir T\u00fcrk doktor bayan\u0131 tutuklad\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-654678392\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-25-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>O gece evde yapa yaln\u0131zd\u0131m. K\u0131z\u0131m Nihal Sofya\u2019da \u00fcniversite \u00f6\u011frencisiydi. E\u015fim ise Zlatograt\u2019a ana babas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmeye gitmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Derin uykulara dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Birka\u00e7 defa kap\u0131n\u0131n ziline bas\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ama ben i\u015fitmemi\u015fim. Saatin tam ka\u00e7 oldu\u011funu bilmiyorum ama gece yar\u0131s\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015fti. Kap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde iki polis k\u00f6pe\u011finin havlay\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan uyand\u0131m. Kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131nca Kala\u015fnik otomatik silahl\u0131 iki ki\u015fi d\u00f6rt milis iki sivil polis ve \u201cuyan\u0131\u015f s\u00fcreci\u201d m\u00fcfetti\u015fi, s\u0131fat\u0131yla \u00fc\u00e7 kad\u0131n canavar misali i\u00e7eriye at\u0131ld\u0131lar. Kad\u0131nlardan birisi bana sorular y\u00f6neltiyordu.\u00a0 Ni\u00e7in yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131ma oldu\u011fumu soruyorlard\u0131. E\u015fin k\u0131z\u0131n karde\u015fin ve gelinin nerede diyorlard\u0131. Ben bildi\u011fimce sorular\u0131n\u0131 yan\u0131tlad\u0131m. E\u015fime bir bro\u015f\u00fcr s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131lar. Oradaki adlardan yeni bir Bulgar ad\u0131 se\u00e7memi istediler. Bro\u015f\u00fcrde \u201cU\u201d harfiyle ad yoktu. \u201cUlyana\u201d ad\u0131n\u0131 alabilir miyim diye sordum. Olamazm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc Rus ad\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. \u201cOlga\u201d olsun dediler. O da Rus ad\u0131 dedim. \u201cYula\u201d olabilirmi\u015f. Lakin kimli\u011fimi, pasaport ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u201cYuliya\u201d yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 sordular. Onun ad\u0131n\u0131n art\u0131k de\u011fi\u015ftirilmi\u015f oldu\u011funu izah ettim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc karma aile \u00e7ocu\u011fu dedim. Babas\u0131 Pomak onun i\u00e7in de \u00e7oktan de\u011fi\u015ftirdiklerini s\u00f6yledim. Nihaela temiz Bulgar ad\u0131 de\u011filmi\u015f ve k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 da tekrar de\u011fi\u015ftirdiler ve \u201cMihaela\u201d yapt\u0131lar. \u201cUyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131lar\u201d bir k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t daha s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131lar elime. Bu defa k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n yeni ad\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7oktan vefat etmi\u015f olan babam\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u201cMehmet\u201dten \u201cMilan\u201d yapt\u0131lar. Babam\u0131n ad\u0131 i\u00e7in karde\u015fimle anla\u015fmam\u0131z laz\u0131m dedim raz\u0131 gelmediler. Karde\u015fim ise art\u0131k \u201cMartin\u201d ad\u0131n\u0131 koymu\u015ftu babam\u0131za. B\u00f6ylece ayn\u0131 anneden ve ayn\u0131 babadan do\u011fmu\u015f karde\u015f ve k\u0131z karde\u015f iki ayr\u0131 ad ta\u015f\u0131maya mecbur kald\u0131k. Art\u0131k k\u00e2\u011f\u0131t \u00fczerinde \u00fc\u00e7 ad\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131. Yeni belgelerimizi al\u0131ncaya kadar sokaklarda elimize verilen pusulayla dola\u015f\u0131yorduk. Belgeleri almak i\u00e7inse b\u00fcy\u00fck kuyruklar olu\u015fturuluyordu.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-4136747232\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-30-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>B\u00fcy\u00fck Cehennem \u00c7ekileri<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ki\u015fisel hesaplar g\u00f6rme d\u00f6nemi ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130ftiralar. \u0130\u015finden uzakla\u015ft\u0131rmalar. Tutuklamalar. \u0130nsanl\u0131k onurumuza hakaretler. Sorgudan ge\u00e7irmeler\u2026 Su\u00e7suz oldu\u011fumuzu kan\u0131tlamalar.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2281825789\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-35-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Belediyede adlar\u0131n de\u011fi\u015ftirilmesinden sorumlu olan bayan k\u00e2tip bir g\u00fcn makam\u0131na bizim okul m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc davet eder. M\u00fcd\u00fcre han\u0131m daha sonra belediyede konu\u015fulanlar\u0131 bana da anlatt\u0131. Ben Ulviye ile daha fazla dostluk edemeyece\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fler. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben \u201cuyananlardanm\u0131\u015f\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u201cO senin v\u00fccudunda bir t\u00fcm\u00f6rden farks\u0131zd\u0131r derhal kesilip at\u0131lmas\u0131 laz\u0131md\u0131r\u201d demi\u015f \u201carkada\u015flar. \u00d6\u011fretmenlikten azledilmem gerekiyormu\u015f. K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n da eski bir \u201cT\u00fcrk anan\u0131n\u201d k\u0131z\u0131 oldu\u011fundan \u00fcniversiteden at\u0131lmas\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc T\u00fcrk ve Pomak\u2019tan olu\u015fan bir melez \u201ckar\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u201d \u00fcniversite saflar\u0131nda yer alamazm\u0131\u015f. O temiz bir Bulgar \u00e7ocu\u011funun yerini al\u0131yormu\u015f. Dahas\u0131 var. Bir b\u00f6ylesi koskoca Sofya \u00dcniversitesinde\u00a0 \u201cgazetecilik\u201d okuyacakm\u0131\u015f. Karde\u015fimin de \u201cBelene\u201dde soluk almas\u0131 laz\u0131mm\u0131\u015f. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u201cuyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131lara\u201d \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck hata yap\u0131yorsunuz zaman gelecek bu hatay\u0131 d\u00fczeltmeniz icap edecek diyebilmi\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Demeye Cesaret Bulmu\u015f Kendinde<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3244199463\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-40-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Bir ba\u015fka yere s\u00fcrg\u00fcn edilmemek i\u00e7in her g\u00fcn parti \u00f6n\u00fcnde su\u00e7suz oldu\u011fumu kan\u0131tlamam gerekiyordu. Bu zaman esnas\u0131nda ise e\u015fim parti saflar\u0131ndan uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Fakat bizlere gece g\u00fcnd\u00fcz iftira \u00fcst\u00fcne iftira edenler bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc cezaland\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131yorlard\u0131. Ve cezas\u0131z da kald\u0131lar. Ben Bulgaristan Kom\u00fcnist Partisi \u00fcyesi olmama ra\u011fmen, bir Vatan Cephesi \u00f6rg\u00fct\u00fc \u011fyes\u015f olarak okulda ciddi bir bask\u0131 alt\u0131nda tutuluyordum. Zorla bana duvarlara asmak i\u00e7in ajitasyon tablolar\u0131 yapt\u0131r\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u201cAd\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirmeye beni sevk eden nedir ve yeni ad\u0131mla nas\u0131l gururlan\u0131yorum\u201d ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 yaz\u0131lar yazd\u0131rmaya mecbur ediyorlard\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131k parti toplant\u0131lar\u0131nda\u00a0 \u201carkada\u015flar\u0131m\u201d acaba yeni ad\u0131mla mutlu muyum diye diye ipsiz saps\u0131z sorular soruyorlard\u0131. Benden herhangi bir cevap almadan da b\u0131rakm\u0131yorlard\u0131. Partinin izlemekte oldu\u011fu yeni politikay\u0131 daha iyi anlay\u0131p alg\u0131lamam gerekti\u011fini bana izah etmeye \u00e7aba g\u00f6steriyorlard\u0131. Sabahlar\u0131 korkular i\u00e7inde sars\u0131larak uyan\u0131yordum. Acaba bug\u00fcn ne gibi eziyetler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcneceklerdi benim i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceleri sur aman vermiyordu bana.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Nihayet\u20261989 May\u0131s Olaylar\u0131 ba\u015f g\u00f6sterdi<\/strong>.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Memleketin baz\u0131 b\u00f6lgelerinde kanl\u0131 olaylar vuku buldu\u011fundan s\u00f6z edilmeye ba\u015fland\u0131. Lakin bizim K\u0131rcaali \u015fehrinde yasalara ayk\u0131r\u0131 tecav\u00fcz eylemlerine meydan vermemek i\u00e7in \u201cciddi \u00f6nlemler\u201d al\u0131nm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Y\u00fcz kadar T\u00fcrk ayd\u0131n\u0131 polis m\u00fcd\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc taraf\u0131ndan herhangi bir giri\u015fimde bulunurlarsa s\u00fcrg\u00fcn edilmek i\u00e7in insanlar uyar\u0131lm\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Benim karde\u015fim de c\u00fcmledendi. Onun ise iki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ocu\u011fu vard\u0131. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 iki elde iki valizle ya Avusturya\u2019ya ya da ba\u015fka bir Avrupa \u00fclkesine u\u011frat\u0131ld\u0131lar. Daha sonra T\u00fcrkiye s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131nca karde\u015fim de baba oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 terk etmeye mecbur kald\u0131. \u015eehir sokaklar\u0131nda insandan ge\u00e7ilmiyordu. Bir o yana bir bu yana mekik dokuyordu insanc\u0131klar. Durum \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcyle sonu\u00e7 bulan bir panay\u0131rdan farks\u0131zd\u0131. Niceler \u201cT\u00fcrkiye Cumhuriyeti\u2019ne seyahat etmek i\u00e7in\u201d polis dairesine belgelerini yat\u0131r\u0131yorlard\u0131.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2177243590\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-45-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0130\u015fte B\u00f6yle Ba\u015flad\u0131 \u201cB\u00fcy\u00fck Seyahat\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ekme\u011fi ancak kuponla sat\u0131yorlard\u0131. \u201cSeyahate gideceklere\u201d kupon verilmiyordu. \u0130nsanlar ba\u015fka yiyecek olmay\u0131nca insanlar ellerindeki hayvanlar\u0131 kesip yemeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Dayal\u0131 d\u00f6\u015feli evlerini bir ba\u015fkalar\u0131na i\u015fte \u00f6yle paras\u0131z pulsuz b\u0131rak\u0131p gidiyorlard\u0131. Baz\u0131lar\u0131 otomobil veya tren vagonlar\u0131na y\u00fckleyerek mobilyalar\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131 yanlar\u0131na alabildiler. Bu \u00fclkeden kovulmu\u015f kimseler olduklar\u0131 besbelliydi. Etraflar\u0131 milis kordonlar\u0131yla sar\u0131l\u0131yd\u0131. \u00d6yle yolculuk yap\u0131yorlard\u0131. Kim ne kurtarabilirse kurtarmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Her \u015feye ra\u011fmen arkada bir daha g\u00f6remeyece\u011fi, bir daha ya\u015fayamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir hayat b\u0131rak\u0131yorlard\u0131. Tarlalar bombo\u015f \u0131ss\u0131z kald\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1397585400\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-50-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ben yola \u00e7\u0131kmad\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc e\u015fimden ve k\u0131z\u0131mdan ayr\u0131lmak istemiyordum. Fakat e\u015fim ebedi beni terk etti. Bu zaman esnas\u0131nda T\u00fcrkiye\u2019deki akrabalar\u0131m\u0131zla ne mektupla\u015fabiliyorduk, ne de haberle\u015febiliyorduk. Nihayet demokrasi gelince ilk defa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015febildik. O zaman anlad\u0131m ki, ilk anlarda \u00e7ok g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckler \u00e7ekmi\u015fler. Hayata \u201ca\u201d ile \u201cb\u201d den ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. Okullarda veya \u00f6\u011frenci yurtlar\u0131nda kal\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckler dili iyi bilmediklerinden dolay\u0131 bir ba\u015fka g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckler \u00e7ekiyorlarm\u0131\u015f. Nafakalar\u0131n\u0131 kazanabilmek i\u00e7in geceyi g\u00fcnd\u00fcze kat\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0 Hatta eve bile i\u015f al\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f. Ceplerinde metelik olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in i\u015f yerlerine yaya gidiyorlarm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>1990 y\u0131l\u0131nda ilk defa karde\u015fimi T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de ziyaret edebildim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlar hen\u00fcz Bulgaristan\u2019a gelecek durumda de\u011fillerdi. O zaman karde\u015fim \u201cAbla ne kadar a\u011f\u0131r g\u00fcnler ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, ama gurbet nedir bari g\u00f6rmedin ya\u201d dedi. Ben g\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn ne demek oldu\u011funu bilmiyordum, ama ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne demek oldu\u011funu olanca varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.\u00a0 Konu\u015furken karde\u015fimin g\u00f6zleri ya\u015fard\u0131, s\u00f6zlerine unlar\u0131 ekledi. \u201cAnnemin baba oca\u011f\u0131nda yo\u011furup pi\u015firdi\u011fi o ekme\u011fin tad\u0131 hala a\u011fz\u0131mda. O g\u00fcnler art\u0131k bir daha geriye d\u00f6nmeyecek.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Misafirli\u011fe gitti\u011fim g\u00fcnlerde ben \u00e7ok mecalsizdim. hastaneden hen\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Beni ancak ila\u00e7lar ayakta tutuyordu. Aradan 25 y\u0131l ge\u00e7mesine ra\u011fmen durumum hala \u00f6yle. G\u00f6nl\u00fcm yaral\u0131, v\u00fccudum zay\u0131f m\u0131 zay\u0131f. \u0130nsan kalbi bir beyaz ka\u011f\u0131t de\u011fil ki, istedi\u011fin zaman yazas\u0131n, istedi\u011fin zaman da silesin.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1160966934\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-55-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Karde\u015fim i\u015f yerinde kalp krizi ge\u00e7irip Tanr\u0131n\u0131n rahmetine kavu\u015ftu. Asans\u00f6r teknisyeniydi. T\u00fcrkiye\u2019de ard\u0131ndan iki masun yavru, bir de dul bir han\u0131m b\u0131rakarak gitti bu d\u00fcnyadan. Hen\u00fcz 46 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. 20 Ekim 1994 tarihinde \u00f6ld\u00fc. \u0130stanbul\u2019da yabanc\u0131 illerde yabanc\u0131 insanlar aras\u0131na defnedildi. H\u00e2lbuki mezar\u0131 Kircaali\u2019de olabilirdi. Esefle belirtmek gerek ki, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc Bulgaristan ziyareti i\u00e7in ilk vizesini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcne tesad\u00fcf etti.\u00a0 D\u00f6nmek de\u011fil ziyaret bile nasip olmad\u0131 rahmetliye\u2026 Can\u0131 g\u00f6n\u00fclden sevdi\u011fim karde\u015fim b\u00f6ylece \u201cBulgarla\u015ft\u0131rma s\u00fcrecinin\u201d kurban\u0131 olmu\u015f oldu. \u015eehrimizden daha nice gen\u00e7ler onun ak\u0131betini ya\u015fad\u0131lar. Hepsi de \u00e7ok namuslu, \u00e7ok zeki ve \u00e7ok k\u00fclt\u00fcrl\u00fc insanlard\u0131. \u0130nsand\u0131lar her \u015feyden \u00f6nce, Vatan hesap ettikleri Bulgaristan\u2019\u0131 \u00e7ok seviyorlard\u0131 buradan kovulmu\u015f olmalar\u0131na ra\u011fmen.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Ben b\u00fct\u00fcn bu eziyet ve \u00e7ekilerime ra\u011fmen d\u00fc\u015fmanlar\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1577849760\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-60-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Hatta zaman zaman konu\u015ftu\u011fum da oluyor onlarla, selam\u0131 kelam\u0131 unutmu\u015f de\u011fil ama onlar ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fip de ge\u00e7iyorlarm\u0131\u015f yan\u0131mdan ne fark eder. Bu mektubumda onlar\u0131n adlar\u0131n\u0131 zikretmek istemiyorum. Onlar durumdan yararlanarak makamlara y\u00fckseldiler, ihbar, iftira ve yalanlarla \u00f6nemli koltuklara oturdular, insandan nefret etmeyi de unutmad\u0131lar\u2026<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Ko Y\u00fcce Tanr\u0131 Da Onlar\u0131 Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Ben iyi kalpli H\u0131ristiyan Bulgarlar\u0131n bana yapt\u0131klar\u0131 iyilikleri de asla unutacak de\u011filim. Onlar yukar\u0131da s\u00f6z konusu ki\u015filerden farkl\u0131 olarak dosttular, meslekta\u015ft\u0131lar, iyi kom\u015fuydular. Hatta baz\u0131lar\u0131 kendi kariyerlerini riske al\u0131yorlard\u0131, ama\u00e7lar\u0131 h\u00fck\u00fcmet makamlar\u0131 huzurunda bizi savunabilmekti.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p><div id=\"bghab-1550500173\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-65-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>Ben \u015fu an onlar\u0131n iyiliklerini kaleme alacak s\u00f6z bulam\u0131yorum. B\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u201cTe\u015fekk\u00fcr\u201d \u00e7ekiyorum hepsine.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Biz \u201cuyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n\u201d bask\u0131s\u0131ndan, ezgi ve cefas\u0131ndan koruyabilmek i\u00e7in elden geleni yapm\u0131\u015f olan, fakat art\u0131k aram\u0131zda bulunmayan okul m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcm Mariya Jekova\u2019n\u0131n an\u0131s\u0131 u\u011frunda sayg\u0131yla ba\u015f e\u011fiyorum.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>M\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fcm \u00e7ok duygulu bir insand\u0131. Bu olaylardan birka\u00e7 y\u0131l sonra kanserden hayat\u0131n\u0131 kaybetti. Her yerde \u00e7ok iyi, \u00e7ok namuslu insanlar oldu\u011fu kadar, \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc, \u00e7ok namussuz insanlar da var. Nas\u0131lsa herkes f\u0131trat\u0131na g\u00f6re kendi hayat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131p ge\u00e7ip gidiyor bu d\u00fcnyadan. Bu d\u00fcnyada tek bir emelim varsa o da, gelecek nesillerin bu vatanda din, milliyet ve dil fark\u0131 g\u00fctmeden bar\u0131\u015f ve uzla\u015fma i\u00e7ersinde, g\u00fcven ve ho\u015fg\u00f6r\u00fc ortam\u0131nda ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n<div id=\"bghab-2485174294\" class=\"bghab-yazi-altinda bghab-entity-placement\"><div class=\"bghab-adlabel\">Reklamlar<\/div><script async src=\"https:\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js\"><\/script>\r\n<!-- bghaber-yaz\u0131-sonu -->\r\n<ins class=\"adsbygoogle\"\r\n     style=\"display:block\"\r\n     data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\"\r\n     data-ad-slot=\"4222328180\"\r\n     data-ad-format=\"auto\"\r\n     data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\r\n<script>\r\n     (adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({});\r\n<\/script><\/div><br style=\"clear: both; display: block; float: none;\"\/>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Muazzez YURDAKUL &nbsp; Bir hamur teknede kar\u0131l\u0131rken yumrukland\u0131k\u00e7a nas\u0131l k\u0131vama geliyor, i\u00e7i i\u00e7ine s\u0131\u011fmay\u0131nca \u201cta\u015f\u0131yorsa, biz de \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inde uyand\u0131k, dirildik ve y\u00fcceldik. 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