{"id":11453,"date":"2014-09-22T02:32:44","date_gmt":"2014-09-21T23:32:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/?p=11453"},"modified":"2014-09-22T02:32:44","modified_gmt":"2014-09-21T23:32:44","slug":"arada-ezilenler","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bghaber.org\/bghaber\/arada-ezilenler\/","title":{"rendered":"Arada Ezilenler"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>Neriman ERALP<\/b><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cAy\u2019a sordular:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u2018Neyi istersin en \u00e7ok?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Cevap verdi:<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>G\u00fcne\u015f\u2019in kaybolmas\u0131n\u0131, ve ebediyen<\/strong><\/p><div id=\"bghab-764934041\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p><strong>Bulutlarla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc olmas\u0131n\u0131.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Biz en iyi duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dile getirirken hep:<strong> \u201cG\u00fcne\u015fli g\u00fcnler yak\u0131nd\u0131r!\u201d <\/strong>deriz, oysa g\u00fcne\u015fi istemeyenler de var.<\/p>\n<p>Babam evden \u00e7\u0131karken \u201c<strong>Y\u00fcre\u011fimin b\u00fcy\u00fck bir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 Bulgaristan\u2019da b\u0131rak\u0131yorum ve Bulgaristan\u2019dakilerin dostluklar\u0131n\u0131 beraberimde T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorum<\/strong>!\u201d demi\u015fti. \u00c7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckt\u00fcm ve kap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n e\u015fi\u011fini a\u015farken tak\u0131l\u0131p d\u00fc\u015fmeyeyim diye elimden tutup bana yard\u0131m ederken elinin terden s\u0131rs\u0131klam oldu\u011funu hi\u00e7 unutamad\u0131m. Bu so\u011fuk bir terdi. Annem bana, soyda\u015fl\u0131\u011fa al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken baz\u0131 \u0131l\u0131ml\u0131 gecelerde,\u201d evimizi yaparken baban ta\u015flar\u0131 kendisi kesti, yonttu, \u00e7ap ta\u015flar\u0131na \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6zen g\u00f6sterdi,\u201d s\u00f6zlerini gidip gelen hat\u0131ralarda y\u00fczer gibi dalgal\u0131 bir sesle anlat\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7imden resim yapmak geldi\u011finde bezi gerip, palete boya s\u0131k\u0131p f\u0131r\u00e7am\u0131 al\u0131rken elime, hep odalar\u0131ndan birinde do\u011fdu\u011fum, ninnileri i\u00e7inde dinledi\u011fim, kimsesiz \u00f6ks\u00fcz kalan evimizi \u00e7izmek istedim. Ne kadar da \u00e7izsem, bu evin o ev olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in babam\u0131n ellerindeki nas\u0131rlar\u0131n alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan enerjiyi, annemle ba\u015f ba\u015fa verip yuva kurma hayallerini, bu yuvan\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayan insan sevgisini sanki \u00e7izemiyorum. Pastellerin hangisi sevgi rengidir ve hangi kar\u0131\u015f\u0131mla elde edilir, \u00e7ap ta\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131k ye\u015fili bah\u00e7emizde a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f g\u00fcllere ne g\u00fczel yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, o renkleri bulam\u0131yorum. Y\u0131k\u0131lan bir d\u00fcnyay\u0131 yeniden yaratman\u0131n olanaks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na inanmak istemesem de yapam\u0131yorum. Olanak ile olanaks\u0131zl\u0131k aras\u0131nda bocal\u0131yorum. Ruhum yap\u0131\u015facak dal bulam\u0131yor. Hani g\u00fcne\u015f bat\u0131nca karanl\u0131k basar ya, hani biz \u00f6zel bir \u015fafak beklesek de, ertesi g\u00fcn do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u00fcn nas\u0131l olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ne de yapsak kestirebilmemizin\u00a0 imkans\u0131z oldu\u011fu gibi bir \u015fey\u2026.<\/p>\n<p>Bir de boyalar\u0131m\u0131 bir bir \u00fcst\u00fcne s\u0131karken annemin usulca yan\u0131ma sokulup kocaman g\u00f6zleriyle bak\u0131\u015f\u0131 var! Konu\u015fmadan bakar annem. Bu bak\u0131\u015fta hep bir bekleyi\u015f vard\u0131r. Bir umut f\u0131\u015fk\u0131r\u0131r sanki g\u00f6zlerinden. Sesiz konu\u015fan o bak\u0131\u015f, \u201chani gelirken beni g\u00fcnlerce araban\u0131n alt\u0131nda tutmu\u015flard\u0131, sen de bana yamanm\u0131\u015f, a\u011f\u0131lamaktan t\u00fckenmi\u015ftin, benim de sana verecek hi\u00e7 bir \u015feyim kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ve dudaklar\u0131n \u00e7atlamas\u0131n diye g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131mla \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fcrg\u00fcm\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck dudaklar\u0131n\u0131n kenarc\u0131klar\u0131na hissettirmeden dokunduruyordum, onu \u00e7izsene, diyor gibime geliyor\u2026diyor mu demiyor mu bilmiyorum da o sesiz konu\u015ftu\u011funa ve ben de sesizli\u011fi dinliyorum ve dermi\u015f gibime geliyor. Ama diyor, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7bir anne en k\u00e7t\u00fc olan\u0131n tekrarlamas\u0131n\u0131 istemez\u2026.K\u00f6t\u00fc ise tekrarlad\u0131k\u00e7a unutulmaz, unutulmad\u0131k\u00e7a da kendine ya\u015fam ortam\u0131 bulamaz. \u0130yi ama ben \u00e7izemiyorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o zaman \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck oldu\u011fundan ac\u0131n\u0131n rengi yaras\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7amam\u0131\u015f belle\u011fimde\u2026.i\u015fte b\u00f6yle karmakar\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir \u015fey\u2026.<\/p><div id=\"bghab-2825763191\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-10-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan baz\u0131 \u015feylerin d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015famak istemiyor. \u00d6yle de olsa, ne yaparsam yapay\u0131m i\u00e7imde k\u00f6t\u00fc bir g\u00f6\u00e7 kokuyor. Bulgaryal\u0131 olman\u0131n getirdi\u011fi bir koku bu. Sanki domuz kotras\u0131ndan gelmi\u015fiz.\u00a0 Oysa ben babam\u0131n ve enemin anlatt\u0131klar\u0131ndan orada p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l insanlar b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 biliyorum.\u00a0 \u015eu ayr\u0131l\u0131k var ya! Ayr\u0131l\u0131k baz\u0131 \u015feyleri haf\u0131zadan siliyor. Bunun olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in haf\u0131zan\u0131n kuru temizlik\u00e7iye verilmesine gerek yok. \u0130nsan ruhu perdeleniyor. Bunun g\u00f6zlerin perdelenmesiyle bir ilgisi yok. G\u0131das\u0131z ve besinsiz ya\u015fayan ruhun perdelenmesi \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc! Bu, bilgisayar belle\u011finden istemediklerini silmek gibi bir \u015fey de de\u011fil! Ruh neyi silece\u011fini kendisi se\u00e7iyor. Belleksiz kalmak \u00e7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc! Ben k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck geldi\u011fime Bulgaristan\u2019da g\u00fcz ve k\u0131\u015f hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Oradaki kar\u0131n rengini, so\u011fuk mu s\u0131cak m\u0131, bilmiyorum. Bilmedi\u011fim bir \u015feyi de hat\u0131rlaya m\u0131 yorum.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsan\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fine yani belle\u011finin i\u00e7ine bakan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir g\u00f6z\u00fc oldu\u011funu i\u015fitmi\u015ftim. Haf\u0131zay\u0131 d\u00fczenleyen zarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst \u00fcste dizen, hepsinin ayn\u0131 kokuyla kokmas\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flayan i\u015fte bu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u0131\u015f\u0131km\u0131\u015f! O, geriye ya da derine bakan g\u00f6zle g\u00f6r\u00fclen bir olmayand\u0131r. \u00a0Ge\u00e7mi\u015fsiz, dostluksuz, vatans\u0131z ve hatta umutsuz olan!\u00a0 Haf\u0131zam\u0131zda k\u00f6kleri olmayan bir umut olsa neye yarar, nas\u0131l ye\u015ferip dallan\u0131r ve nas\u0131l kanatlan\u0131p u\u00e7ar, onu anlat\u0131r bize \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz. O d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme g\u00f6z\u00fc gibi bir \u015feydir. Onun da ne yiyip ne i\u00e7ti\u011fi belli de\u011fil, ruh gibi bir \u015feydir.<\/p>\n<p>Bir de \u015fu iyi\u00a0 ve k\u00f6t\u00fc olan\u0131n yan yaan karde\u015f karde\u015f ya\u015farken devaml\u0131 birbirini yemesi yok mu? Bizim de ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yiyen bu olmad\u0131 m\u0131. Eskiden Bulgarya dilinin y\u00fczde k\u0131rk ikisi T\u00fcrk\u00e7e s\u00f6zlerle uyumla\u015fm\u0131\u015fken, s\u00f6zlerimizi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p atmaya, s\u00f6k\u00fcp \u00e7i\u011fnemeye ba\u015flamad\u0131lar, di\u015f olsa gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta di\u015fsiz kalacaklar, at\u0131lan hep bizim s\u00f6zler oldu ve doldurdular dillerine nereden ne buldularsa ve tutturmad\u0131lar m\u0131, siz de s\u00f6k\u00fcn T\u00fcrk\u00e7enizi dilinizden diye. \u0130nsan\u0131n dili haf\u0131zas\u0131d\u0131r, belle\u011fidir, beynidir, ruhu, hayal ve emelleridir. Dili olmayanda \u00f6zlem olur mu? Sevdalansa ve dile gelemese i\u015f olur mu? G\u00f6n\u00fcl \u015fark\u0131 ister. Karanl\u0131k gecede bulut mu ar\u0131yoruz? \u0130nsan\u0131n dili a\u011f\u0131c\u0131n beli g\u00f6vdesi gibidir. Ne kadar kal\u0131n ve y\u00fcksekse o kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc kuvvetlidir. Dals\u0131z yapraks\u0131z yani k\u00fclt\u00fcrs\u00fcz, edebiyats\u0131z kal\u0131r\u0131z da g\u00f6vdesiz yani dilsiz kal\u0131nmaz. S\u00f6zle, bak\u0131\u015fla, dille anlat\u0131lan\u0131 resim edemezsin, en iyi boyalar\u0131n da olsa \u00e7izemezsin, \u00a0ge\u00e7mi\u015fimin renklerini bulup resmedemiyorum i\u015fte, bu kadar karanl\u0131k bir ge\u00e7mi\u015fin emelleri de olmuyor, \u0131\u015f\u0131k karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnden \u00e7\u0131ksa da, arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yeni renk \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yor \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m renklerin \u00f6z\u00fcnden.<\/p>\n<p>Yaratan ana renkleri yarat\u0131rken siyah\u0131 kendine saklam\u0131\u015f, sonra belki de bulamazlar, aman \u00e7ok zorlanmas\u0131nlar, kendilerini i\u015flerine g\u00fc\u00e7lerine versinler diye geceyi yarat\u0131p bize hediye etmi\u015f. Herkese bol bol ve istedi\u011finden defalarca fazla karanl\u0131k vermi\u015f. Umutlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 karanl\u0131\u011fa saklam\u0131\u015f. Birer birer \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorlar diyece\u011fim ama insan eme\u011fi olmadan bir yerde umut bitmiyor. \u015eafakla d\u00fcnyaya umut de\u011fil hala ve hep problem ya\u011f\u0131yor. Onlar\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fck\u00e7e ise umut bitiyor. Olacak ya \u00f6teki d\u00fcnyay\u0131 karanl\u0131ktan sonra yaratm\u0131\u015f, renklerini gizli ve gizemli oldu\u011fundan onu \u00e7izmeye, resmetmeye kimsenin eli varm\u0131yor. \u00dcst \u00fcste \u00e7izenler var ya, onlar da bizim o gizemli rengi aramam\u0131z i\u00e7in s\u0131v\u0131yorlar kat kat \u00fcst\u00fcne. \u00a0Sonra ay konu\u015fturmu\u015f, ona da g\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131 yetmiyormu\u015f gibi, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcne\u015fi karartmak istiyor. Sanki herkes karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n pe\u015finde! Bizde de paras\u0131 olan yeralt\u0131 s\u0131\u011f\u0131naklar\u0131na, kal\u0131n duvarl\u0131, korumal\u0131, demir kap\u0131l\u0131 saraylara, zindanlara saklan\u0131yor, son g\u00fcnlerde b\u00fcy\u00fck bankac\u0131lar bile gidip savc\u0131l\u0131\u011fa, polise teslim oluyorlar. D\u00f6rt yan\u0131 su olan adalara gizleniyorlar. \u015eu korku dedi\u011fin \u00f6yle bir \u015fey ki, onun da rengi yok. H\u00fcrriyetin de rengi yok. Bu y\u00fczden t\u00fcm h\u00fcrriyetler sizin deyenler bizi aldatt\u0131lar. Bize bir \u015fey laz\u0131m de\u011fil deyenler de yalanc\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fu demokraside hepsi sand\u0131ktan \u00e7\u0131kacak renkten korkuyorlar. Korku da\u011flar\u0131 korur diyenler hakl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Senin de\u011fil benim rengim \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n sand\u0131ktan diye para sa\u00e7anlara bak\u0131yorum ve \u201cse\u00e7im zaferi\u201d denen meletin de rengi yok da fiyat\u0131 neden bu kadar y\u00fcksek diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Sand\u0131k i\u00e7inde boyalar kar\u0131\u015fmad\u0131k\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131kan hep ge\u00e7mi\u015fin rengi olacak, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Ah \u015fu arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z rengi bir bulabilsek!<\/p>\n<p>Bu i\u015fler bir kaynarcadan fokurdayarak \u00e7\u0131kan suyun denize d\u00f6k\u00fclece\u011fim diye sevdalanmas\u0131 gibi bir \u015fey, kendisi mi ak\u0131yor, akarken g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 m\u0131 topluyor, denizi bulamad\u0131m diye kendisi mi a\u011f\u0131l\u0131yor, yeni yeni \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k m\u0131 at\u0131yor, onu da bilen yok, \u00f6\u011frenmek istesek de \u00f6\u011frenmenin yolu yok. . Annemin b\u00fcrg\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve \u00e7atlayan dudak kenarlar\u0131ma s\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc birka\u00e7 son damla, sanki en de\u011ferli olan. Son g\u00fcnlerde biri \u201c<strong>h\u00fcrriyet i\u00e7inizdedir<\/strong>\u201d demi\u015f. \u0130\u00e7imizde olsa ve do\u011fum esnas\u0131nda bo\u011fulup \u00f6lmemi\u015fse, 25 y\u0131lda \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131!. Fiil fiilken 24 ayda do\u011furuyor. Yavrusu 350 kilo ama do\u011fuyor. Bizim h\u00fcrriyet ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck ki, hem i\u00e7imize s\u0131\u011f\u0131yor, hem de \u00e7\u0131kam\u0131yor. Biz \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck gebe miyiz yani?! Yoksa ay\u0131lar gibi k\u0131\u015f uykusu esnas\u0131nda m\u0131 do\u011furaca\u011f\u0131z. A\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131, bar\u0131\u015f \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131 olmadan bu i\u015f olmaz!\u00a0 Biz Alman kar\u0131s\u0131 m\u0131y\u0131z? Onlar di\u015fini s\u0131k\u0131p f\u0131rlat\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f.. yok, yok, olmaz, oyun bozan\u0131n i\u015fi gitmez\u2026<\/p><div id=\"bghab-3849685451\" class=\"bghab-icerik-icine-15-paragraf bghab-entity-placement\"><script async src=\"\/\/pagead2.googlesyndication.com\/pagead\/js\/adsbygoogle.js?client=ca-pub-6203283170189293\" crossorigin=\"anonymous\"><\/script><ins class=\"adsbygoogle\" style=\"display:block; text-align:center;\" data-ad-client=\"ca-pub-6203283170189293\" \ndata-ad-slot=\"7303146466\" \ndata-ad-layout=\"in-article\"\ndata-ad-format=\"fluid\" data-full-width-responsive=\"true\"><\/ins>\n<script> \n(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); \n<\/script>\n<\/div>\n<p>\u0130nsanlar neden b\u00f6yle, neden kurallara uymuyorlar? Bize evde okulda, \u00f6\u011frettiklerinle \u00a0hep hayat\u0131n\u0131 planla, ama\u00e7lar\u0131na y\u00f6nel, hedeflerini ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftir demediler m\u0131!? Bir de \u015fu hayattan ne bekledi\u011fini bil meselesi var. Sanki kabaran ve kararan buluttan ya\u011fmur beklerken, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za ya\u011fan hep tolu de\u011fil. \u015eu, azim ve disiplin sayesinde yapamayaca\u011f\u0131n \u015fey yoktur da sa\u00e7mal\u0131k. G\u00f6r\u00fcyorsunuz bizimkiler \u00e7ekiler ate\u015finden ge\u00e7mi\u015fler, ayaklanm\u0131\u015flar, kurban vermi\u015fler ve sonunda ortak bir ate\u015fte birle\u015fmi\u015fler ve bu ate\u015fte \u0131s\u0131nanlar ba\u015fkalar\u0131 oldu. Tuza\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u00fclen biz de\u011fil miyiz? En b\u00fcy\u00fck tuzaksa,\u00a0 \u015fu bizim 500 bin ki\u015fi halinde memleketimizden kovulmam\u0131z. Ne g\u00fczel be, kov insanlar\u0131 ve otur m\u00fclklerine. Onlar bizim havam\u0131z\u0131 soluyorlar. Havam\u0131z\u0131 soluyorlar. \u00a0Havam\u0131z\u0131 istiyoruz, havam\u0131z\u0131! Baharda a\u00e7an gelinciklerin rengini istiyorum. Yaz aylar\u0131nda kavun kokusunu!\u00a0 Hava i\u00e7in isyan eden yok. Su kavgalar\u0131, kad\u0131n k\u0131z i\u00e7in sava\u015flar olmu\u015f da, hava i\u00e7in kan d\u00f6k\u00fclmemi\u015f hen\u00fcz. Belki o g\u00fcnler de gelecek. Ruslar bizim orada havay\u0131 konserve etmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015flar. Havam\u0131z\u0131 para \u00f6demeden konserve ediyorlarm\u0131\u015f. Bu Japonlar\u0131n k\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131 i\u00e7in yaz s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 konserve etmeleri gibi bir \u015fey. Nerelere geldik! Belki ben de vatan sevgimi konserve edece\u011fim. Ve bunu yapma yetene\u011fine sahip oldu\u011fuma inan\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n<p>Sanat, resim \u00e7izmek, en yan\u0131k bir sesle a\u011f\u0131lamak, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n en irilerini d\u00f6kmek, benim ustal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda be\u015f para etmez. Ben Vatan\u0131m\u0131 konserve edece\u011fim! Ben o topra\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ok seven ve kaybeden bir nesilim! Kaybetti\u011fimizi ve emel etti\u011fimi konserve edece\u011fim kalbime! Ne ekmek ister ne su, ya\u015fas\u0131n istedi\u011fi kadar, zaten ayn\u0131 \u00f6zlemle ya\u015fayan ruhum da orada birle\u015fsinler \u00e7iftle\u015fsinler ve kaybolan eski ile olmayan gelece\u011fin an\u0131t\u0131n\u0131 diksinler. Neden olmas\u0131n ki!<\/p>\n<p>Ay, g\u00fcne\u015fle kavgal\u0131kl\u0131, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ar\u0131yor. Ben de kavgal\u0131kl\u0131y\u0131m ge\u00e7mi\u015fimle, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc koptu benden. Ay karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ar\u0131yor yeni bir g\u00fcn mayalamak i\u00e7in. Ben ne ar\u0131yorum s\u00f6ylesene! Ben arada kald\u0131m. \u0130ki arada kalmak \u00e7ok zor bir \u015fey! G\u00fczelin g\u00fczelini aramak da bo\u015f i\u015f, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc her yerden hem aya ve hem de g\u00fcne\u015fe olan mesafe ayn\u0131d\u0131r. Bizden uzakla\u015fan ve bize yak\u0131n gelen hep onlard\u0131r. Onlar\u0131n da derdi, b\u00fcy\u00fck, g\u00fcne\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, ay\u0131n da karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 konserve edecekleri yer yok. \u0130steseler de istemeseler de mutlaka g\u00f6ndermeden edemiyorlar bize. \u00d6yleyse biz neden almayal\u0131m gelece\u011fimizi istedi\u011fimiz yerden ve istedi\u011fimiz renklerle istedi\u011fimiz pazardan. Bug\u00fcn bizim Pazar kapal\u0131 olabilir ama yar\u0131n mutlaka a\u00e7\u0131lacakt\u0131r. Mutlu gelecek sergide olacakt\u0131r. G\u00fcne\u015fli g\u00fcnler yak\u0131nd\u0131r. Gelecek de ge\u00e7mi\u015f gibi ne kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck olursa olsun, bazen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyor k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fcyor ve sivrildik\u00e7e sivriliyor da insan y\u00fcre\u011fine birden saplan\u0131yor. Yaz\u0131m\u0131 b\u00f6yle bir anda yazd\u0131m. 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